THE GIRL
Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities.
For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next.
But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly.
I came to be me on 10th June 1991.
Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying.
Family and friends are my life.
At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD
Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have.
Now you know how to make me happy.
I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart.
I'm majorly affected by the people around me.
Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse.
Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^
KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY
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Saturday, September 22, 2012
I wish I wish with all my heart...
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Friday, September 07, 2012
Realized I haven't been writing for a long long time.
Perhaps people have forgotten about this space,
in fact I secretly wish they did,
so that I can say anything I wish.
It's been too taxing lately.
I'm just living life week by week,
sometimes even day by day,
unwilling to look beyond the present,
for fear of what I may find in the future.
Besides the piling workload,
I have other worries to attend to,
like my mum's undergoing another surgery next Wednesday and I'd by lying if I say I'm not worried,
despite it being a day surgery and the risks are brought to a minimum.
But still,
a surgery's a surgery and with a surgery,
comes risks and complications.
I just hate the idea of my mum being pushed into a theater and letting her life be manipulated by the hands of other people.
One thing about being a nurse is knowing that not all doctors can be trusted.
But I place my faith in the ultimate healer,
who dwells in the place above us all.
And I know that my prayers will be answered and that she'll come home safe.
Well,
on a lighter note,
it's been a fulfilling week.
Spent the last 2 days in Tan Tock Seng Hospital doing my shadowing.
When I first learnt that I'd be doing my shadowing in TTSH,
I hated it,
cause I was supposed to be posted to Alexandra Hospital,
which is nearer to my home,
while TTSH is a complete foreign territory to me,
but after these 2 days,
I realize that if you truly enjoy what you're doing,
you wouldn't take into account too much of the other external factors,
not to say distance isn't an obstacle for me.
Back to the point,
I was shadowing under my nurse in the palliative care department,
where the team handles issues surrounding death and dying.
Although many people,
especially us Asians,
find that this topic is taboo and should be avoided as far as possible,
I feel that this might actually be where I want to be for the rest of my career- palliative care.
Because these are not the usual patients we deal with everyday,
because these are not patients who will get well just by taking their medications on a regular basis,
because these are patients who have a limited supply of time on their hands,
which makes caring for them all the more urgent and fulfilling,
not to say other patients do not give me a sense of satisfaction.
But knowing that you can be there to offer your best for someone whose every breathe brings him/her closer to death,
is an entirely different experience.
The palliative care team left me with a deep impression and I'm truly impressed about how the team works together.
I guess everything happens for a reason and there was a reason I was transferred to TTSH,
and I'm thankful it happened(:
Well,
the week has been too tiring for me.
Haven't gotten a good rest since Monday and I shall now head to clear this sleep debt XDD
Anyway deep down I feel truly sorry to those friends who I haven't met up or contacted in a while.
I've got so much on my hands and whenever there's a day free I just wish to spend it at home either rushing for deadlines or just spending time with my family or just simply resting.
Maybe,
when things start to smooth out and when my mum's better,
I'll be able to look them up again.
Till then,
I'm thankful for those who are constantly by my side,
for letting me feel that the battle is not my own,
and to God,
for each day that I get to live.
Goodnight(:
-With All My Heart, Alina ;