<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

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Photobucket Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

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    Sunday, December 31, 2006


    woolala.
    my third post of the day.
    'cause someone asked me this question:
    " What's your most memorable memory of this year?"
    hahax.
    and so i was brought back many wonderful memories nahh.
    sad ones and definitely happy ones as well.
    in fact there's quite a few nahh.
    i miss those times at 3e1 chalet most.
    'cause it was my first class chalet nehh.
    hehex.
    well well.
    there's also sec 3 adventure camp hahs.
    and and.
    adam khoo's day camp as well.
    all was fun. ^^
    i often hear people saying that secondary school bears the best memories of all.
    and i couldn't agree further really.
    it really helped mould almost all of what i am now.
    awww.
    don't wanna get all mushy mushy here alright.
    was chatting with korkor in msn just minutes ago.
    talked about how long we've known each other and how he used to be like.
    hahax.
    korkor never fails to cheer me up nahh.
    and he sent me 2 songs lols. >.<
    anyways.
    I LOVE MY PEEPS AND MY PALS.
    all the best to you guys in the year to come.

    lots and lots of love,
    sweetheart`ified__alina]]

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    moshi moshi.
    i'm back.
    yes yes.
    i went to watch DEATHNOTE 2 today lehh.
    so i've now fulfilled one of my WANTS hahs.
    well well.
    it was totally AWESOME i must say!
    L was so KAWAII nehh!
    *melts*
    the sight of him makes my heart itch.
    it's love love love.
    hahax.
    the movie's definitely getting a 5 from me. ^^
    the characters were great ya.
    especially L hahs and light nahh.
    anyways.
    great 2hr and 20 minutes i had lols.
    and took neos today.
    sweet~
    it's been some time since i've last taken neos norr.
    yupp yupp.
    it's another few hours to 2007.
    have your new year resolutions ready people.
    it's tatas for now.
    cya! ^^



    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    urgh. urgh.
    i wanted to post this last night de lorr.
    but the computer hanged on me AGAIN.
    hurmphx.
    he added fuel to my already burning fire.
    and now i'm super cross.
    yes. CROSS.
    ROAR!!!
    i'm so cross
    i wanna devour humans. >.<
    lols.
    nahh.
    i'm still me lahh.
    just a rather upset me.
    it simply wasn't my night yesterday.
    let's start from the time i woke up alright.
    let's see.
    i woke up at 10.30.
    yes yes.
    i know it's late ehh.
    but i gotta grab any chance of sleeping whenever i can.
    'cause i probably won't get to enjoy this luxury for long lerhs lorr.
    bet next year's gonna be busy busy busy for me.
    like a bee hahs.
    anyways.
    went to the library for our english project yesterday.
    we did a poster nahh.
    and i can proudly say it's a job well done.
    good job us! ^^
    weeee~
    and and.
    i gave buddy her prezzie lerhs.
    was told she likes it and am glad. ^^
    yupp yupp.
    we finished the thingy at 7 plus nahh.
    then jiu walked to the bus stop by the overhead bridge along with buddy and ira.
    'cause they wanna take their dinner at Jurong Point mahh.
    so walk together norr.
    but half-way nia lahh.
    also called home to assure i'm gonna be home soon.
    lest anyone at home worry mahh.
    then i began my wait norr.
    for that 242 bus.
    i waited and waited and waited.
    then at long last that bus came.
    but i couldn't board it nahh.
    'cause it was super duper crowded norr.
    so no choice lahh.
    once again.
    i waited and waited and waited.
    till the second one came.
    it was as crowded as the first. -.-"
    damn.
    then thought of walking home lahh.
    but i was rather afraid nahh.
    'cause it was getting dark le norr.
    so i waited and waited and waited AGAIN.
    i was getting fidgety by that time norr.
    i already had in mind what's gonna happen if i were to arrive home late. >.<
    and this time when the bus came it did not even bothered to stop. -.-"
    but it's understandable nahh.
    it's the peak hour mahh.
    everyone else wanna get home as well.
    so nevermind norr.
    i decided to walk home nahh.
    'cause it's gonna take a longer time if i were to walk back to the interchange.
    and i was walking SUPER DUPER FAST norr.
    now my legs're like ache ache ache.
    but it's good exercise though lols.
    i was lucky i needn't hafta wait long for traffic nahh.
    then i reached my block at 7.57.
    checked my handphone when i was downstairs mahh.
    and it was also then that i realised mummy had sent me 2 sms-es.
    so i called home nahh.
    alicia picked up and asked me where i was.
    told her i was already in the lift and to pass the phone to mummy.
    then she said "Orhh. Wait arr."
    so i waited and waited and waited.
    still no one came to the line.
    aiyahh.
    so nevermind lahh.
    by this time i was already at the corridor lerhs norr.
    and yes yes.
    i hadta hold my breathe in the lift lehh.
    'cause the person who went in the lift before i did smoked inside norr.
    seriously.
    i hate the smell of cigarettes.
    don't get me wrong ehh.
    i don't hate smokers alright.
    but anyways.
    who likes the smell of cigars lorr. -.-"
    just hope people would be more considerate.
    'cause there're kids and folks taking the lifts as well norr.
    alright nahh.
    back to the point hahs.
    i got home to find myself bombarded lols.
    "Why so late?"
    was the first question thrown.
    so i explained norr.
    blah blah blah and stuff.
    there're many others i don't remember le nahh.
    i don't really like being questioned at.
    especially with strict ones.
    makes me feel all nervous.
    as if i'm fighting a battle alone.
    and i don't really fancy that lols.
    i was hungry and tired lahh.
    wanted her to end it quick.
    aiyahh.
    then things did not go too well lahh.
    don't really wish to elaborate hahs.
    then i became hungry, tired and angry.
    sianx.
    budden all goes well afterwards lahh.
    understand that mummy was worried nahh.
    so jiu forget it norr.
    then then.
    after dinner jiu went to blog.
    and of all times.
    the computer chose to hang when i'm fuming. -.-"
    was too angry to sleep then.
    so went to watch tv nahh.
    turned in at 12 plus lols.
    and hadta wake up at 8 this morning.
    got tuition mahh.
    and then end up become no tuition.
    'cause new year's eve lols.
    i could've slept longer de lehh.
    but this is also why i can blog at so early in the morning lols.
    hao lahh hao lahh.
    i'm going out after this.
    so tatas for now.
    takkaires all! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Thursday, December 28, 2006


    hehex.
    i'm super duper happy today.
    and i'm so filled with love.
    much much more than any day this week hahs.
    aiyahh.
    but i'm still rather pissed from what i saw.
    shadn't elaborate though.
    but seriously.
    i detest attention seekers. >.<
    nevermind.
    there's still a whole lot of stuff that made my day.
    and i shadn't waste my time on such people.
    yeah.
    sometimes it's only a little something you do.
    that can really put a smile across someone's face. ^^
    don't know why.
    but the tags really cheer me up.
    and i wish karyan allthebest on her physics test.
    kambatte!
    and and.
    i'm also in need of a physics tutor lehh.
    the worksheets given already made me all dizzy.
    argh.
    that's no way to cope alright.
    anyways.
    i gave andy and alicia some tuition on maths today.
    had a sense of accomplishment ya.
    hope andy does well next year alright. ^^
    i'm a good sister hahs.
    o.O and i watched Operation Undercover today.
    not bad really.
    mainly 'cause there're yan daos nahh.
    but it definitely has a rather good storyline. ^^

    haish.
    and shadow's hasn't been feeling too well lately.
    by the way,
    shadow's one of my hamhams ya.
    i've got two hahs.
    the other's named rio.
    nownow.
    back to the point.
    shadow isn't as active as before lerhs.
    he wasn't even moving much last night.
    perhaps it's the weather bahh.
    'cause he sleeps in the open instead of his comfy bedding. -.-"
    don't blame him though.
    guess he isn't very much used to it nahh.
    and i'm so so worried.
    'cause i love him very much ya.
    i sincerely prays he does get well soon.

    well well.
    its's only awhile before we say byebye to 2006 ehh.
    and i wanna end it nice and sweet.
    my new year resolution's probably for everyone around me to be happy bahh.
    no matter i know them or not.
    'cause i came across this somewhere lately:
    "Nobody really cares if you're miserable,
    so you might as well be happy."
    it's really meaningful alright.
    what's more than living with happiness ya?
    and it's priceless somemore.
    no one can take this from anybody.
    so be happy alright people. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Wednesday, December 27, 2006


    urgh. urgh. urgh.
    some freakstar's making my day all messed up.
    dude. what the hell are you trying to prove?
    don't act like some angel when you ain't.
    what shit.
    oh shut up alright.
    i don't need this now.
    i ain't stupid honey.
    i know myself.
    and i know what i'm doing.
    so don't go assuming you know me at all.
    'cause you don't alright darling.
    and for all the crap.
    i don't give a damn.
    so get out of my life baby.
    and stay out.
    this is easily the most frustrating day of my life.

    p.s. i'm not refering to anybody in particular.
    mood's just kinda low.
    and i wanna thank karyan lols.
    for being right there where i want her to be. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Sunday, December 24, 2006


    heyyies!
    great day i had really.
    received many many many prezzies!
    thankyous santa!
    hehex.
    i was guai this year norr.
    nownow.
    let's see.
    there's a teddy bear.
    but not that one from More Than Words nahh.
    that was kinda expensive.
    but mine's as ke ai anyway. ^^
    and and.
    there're pens as well. -.-"
    0.28 blue-black.
    reminds me of my birthday prezzie from joel hahs.
    he bought me 5 such pens.
    *gan dong*
    hahax.
    back to my christmas prezzies.
    i also got a little sweet ankle bracelet.
    love it.
    want it.
    and have it.
    andy alicia also made cards for me.
    awww. so sweet ehh.
    and i received something else too.
    hahs. but not to elaborate. ^^
    and i'm waiting for yours ya. >.<

    christmas countdown tonight.
    and it's gonna be fun.
    i'm so there. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Saturday, December 23, 2006


    awww.
    i'm all alone at home.
    the rest had gone out.
    cos i've gotta complete my assignments ya.
    and i'm feeling all lonely right now.
    and the sky's looking all glum.
    cloudy once again.
    looks like he's gonna cry again.
    and i'm starting to miss him again.
    though i saw him just last night in my dreams lols.
    but i still want his presence.
    makes me feel comforted.
    and i miss buddy too.
    want her to lame with me lols.
    what's going on inside of me lately?
    sometimes i wanna be surrounded.
    yet at times i wanna be left alone.
    urgh.
    i hope my mood gets better
    before tonight.
    i wanna enjoy.

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!
    officially 12 today!
    eew. then he gets to receive both birthday and christmas presents at the same time lols.
    bleahx >.<
    anyways.
    be happy always bro!

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Friday, December 22, 2006


    woolala.
    came home from x-mas shopping hahs.
    bought a prezzie for buddy.
    bought a prezzie for andy.
    bought a prezzie for blah blah blah and etc.
    wahh.
    didn't knew shopping could be so tiring.
    my legs are so damn suan-ed right now.
    went jp then to ckk then back again.
    and after 6 hrs of walking, shopping, eating, choosing.
    i'm home again.
    home sweet home ehh. >.<
    yupp yupp.
    my plans for tonight.
    it's tv once again.
    i haven't finish my vcds yet.
    so tatas! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    was dragged out of bed this morning.
    for andy's orientation at jyss.
    he's now officially a JYian!
    too bad he couldn't make it to hyss.
    so it's easier to take care of him that way.
    but still. it's alright.
    anyways.
    helped him carry his huge load of books back home.
    *ache ache*
    wish him success in his new school hahs.
    hope he gets use to it.
    and it's his birthday tomorrow.
    and i'm yet to get him something lols.
    *shhhshhh*
    hahs. >.<

    well well.
    i'm done with my chinese reviews.
    two more to go.
    and i've gotta shop for christmas presents too.
    hahax.
    i'm awaiting for christmas. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Thursday, December 21, 2006


    1. Where were you 3 hours ago? home.

    2. Who are you in love with? ...

    3. Have you ever eaten a crayon? -.-"

    4. Is there anything pink within 10feet of you? alicia?

    5. When is the last time you went to the mall? let's see. last friday bahh.

    6. When was the last time you saw the person u love? last night. in my dreams lols. >.<

    7. When was the last time you drove outof town? i can't drive just yet lols.

    8. Have you been to the movies in thelast 5 days? nahh.

    9. Are you crazy? maybe?

    10. What was the last thing you had drink? iced milo.

    11. What are you wearing right now? t-shirt. shorts. what'd you think lols.

    12. Do you wash your car or let the car wash you? how do i let the car wash me?

    13. Last food that you ate? scrambled eggs.

    14. Where were you last week at this time? em. on bed?

    15. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? yupp yupp.

    16. When is the last time you ran? it has been ages since i last did that.

    17. What's the last sporting event you watched? on tv? swimming i guess.

    18. What is your favorite animal? hamhams!

    19. Your dream vacation? honeymoon in paris. ^^

    20. Last person's house you were in? i don't remember lols.

    21. Have you been in love? yupp yupp.

    22. Do you miss anyone right now? more than anything.

    23. Last time you drove a car? are kiddy rides counted?

    24.What are your plans for tonight? movies!

    25. Who is the last person you sent a friendster message to? i don't remember lols.

    26. What is the next trip you are going to? outing trip? overseas trip?

    27. Ever go camping? yupp yupp.

    28. Were you a honor roll student in school? huh?!

    29. What do you want to know about the future? o'levels questions? hahs.

    30. Are you wearing any perfume orcologne? nope nope.

    31. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit? don't reckon so.

    32.Where is your best friend(s)? in school perhaps.

    33. Who is your best friend(s)? WONG LIHUAN lols.

    34. Whats your favorite song? i've got lots. Love You So by Natalie maybe?

    35.What are you listening to right now? stickwitu lols.

    36. Do you collect anything? used to be stickers hahs. but not anymore.

    37. What does your last inbox text message say? "Hihi. Can chat?" lols.

    38. Do you like chilli sauce? uh-uh. no spices for me.

    39. Last time you took a shower? 4 hours ago.

    40. What is your height ? 163?

    41. Are you someone's best friend? yupp yupp.

    42. Are you rich? duh. i'm currently broke.

    43. Are you smart? tough question lols.

    Name 5 person to do dis quiz .
    uh-uh. ain't gonna sabo lols. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    now now.
    what on earth is happening to me?
    i'm stressed.
    yes. STRESSED.
    and so i don't wanna be bombarded
    with questions i really cannot answer.
    i wish you'll understand ya.

    anyways.
    today's the day for andy's posting.
    hope he'll get into the school of his choice ehh.
    and he's been so fidgety all day
    it's starting to bug me. >.<
    all the best to him nonetheless.

    well well.
    it's rain, rain and rain again.
    tsktsk.
    and my cold's getting better.^^
    and my plant's growing well too.
    i believe everything's gonna work out ya.
    and and.
    saw the tatty bear at More Than Words.
    at CCK there.
    aww. it was so CUTE.
    i want i want! >.<

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Wednesday, December 20, 2006


    *ahhchoo!*
    yes, i caught a cold.
    tsktsk.
    but it's a slight one nahh.
    so no worries still.

    anyways.
    i had a nightmare last night.
    was breathless 'cause i felt squashed by something.
    a hand maybe?
    that's in my dream nahh.
    then i was mumbling something.
    which i do not remember or even understand lols.
    hahs. then i woke up.
    and realise my soft toys are all over me. -.-"
    so that's why i felt out of breath lols.
    that's in the middle of the night lehh.
    i couldn't really sleep well after that.
    and that was when my nose started running lols.
    i did not even turn on the fan lehh.
    and it was still cold.
    i had blankets up to my head lols.
    o.O
    rough night for me.

    and yes.
    finally the sun is out.
    woolala.
    warm and sunny.
    and windy too.
    just the way i like it.
    good day to all. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Tuesday, December 19, 2006


    wahh.
    FINALLY!
    YOU'RE REVIVED!
    F.Y.I.
    you's my computer
    he's been dead since 12 plus?
    gotta refresh
    refresh
    and REFRESH!
    gosh. but i was patient ya.
    was fuming at the same time though.
    then.
    he hanged.
    that was the last straw.
    i was actually doing something on microsoft word lorr.
    and he died on me like that.
    urgh.
    nevermind.
    as long as he's fine now.

    haiz.
    SO MUCH TO DO.
    SO LITTLE TIME.
    gosh.
    i watch as time flies by.
    and there's a damn lot of stuff i haven't complete yet.
    say, english project
    chinese reviews.
    and my plant.
    oh man.
    it isn't growing.
    basically 'cause there's no sun?
    been raining lately.
    so it wouldn't grow.
    c'mon.
    grow lahh please.
    anyways.
    it wouldn't help if it grows now.
    'cause there's no soil. -.-"
    i'm using water culture ya.
    but will be buying soil this coming friday.
    and will be doing our english project this coming friday.
    and i'm actually supposed to go IKEA this coming friday.
    all in a day's work.
    no worries.
    i'm actually rather organised.
    or am i?
    hahax.
    it was like 2 hours ago before i realised today's the 19th.
    great.
    i'm only left with like 2 weeks?
    and 2 weeks it is.
    to complete everything.
    *sighs*
    hahas. bu yao jin.
    i still have christmas to look forward to hahs.
    i want presents lols!
    and till then i'm still happy! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Monday, December 18, 2006


    first of all.
    gotta apologise to ivan.
    realised something only this morning.
    heyyies.
    don't feel neglected lahh.
    especially not by me ya.

    so here's something for you:
    When one door of happiness closes,
    another opens
    but often we look so long at the closed door
    that we do not see the one
    that has been opened for us
    Helen Keller

    go search for your open door.
    perhaps then you'll feel better. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    wahh.
    sad morning lahh.
    everything is like so against me.
    hurmphx.
    feel so alone all of a sudden.
    mood swing?
    perhaps.
    but mostly is 'cause andy alicia don't wanna play with me norr.
    they're like living in their own world now.
    then leave me alone.
    *sadsad*
    but nevermind nahh.
    i still feel kinda relieved.
    'cause i just finished my english reviews hahax.
    left 1 more though.
    kambatte!

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Sunday, December 17, 2006


    grand opening of my blog hahs.
    17 Dec 06

    must thank charmaine lols.
    or she'll keep suan-ing me ehh.
    Thank Yous! >.<

    anyways. chilled out at the beach yesterday.
    at sentosa there.
    lols. it wasn't exactly "chilling" though.
    cos all was hot.
    and i say HOT
    the sand. the waters. gosh. and the boys.
    yan daos everywhere hahas.
    *weetweet*
    the return journey was most tiring.
    had to practically drag myself home.
    it was fun nevertheless.

    the holidays are coming to an end lerhs.
    *sulks*
    gotta play as much as i can?
    that is if i can lols
    then its gonna be a new beginning.
    hahs hope all goes well till then lahh.

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;