Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

Monday, February 28, 2011

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

Loss- 10 years ago I would say it is when someone leaves you and never came back again.

My first loss occurred when I was five or six.

My grandfather had a stroke that day,

and the next thing I knew,

he wasn't going to come back.

Back then,

I had no clue what loss was.

Grandfather was merely a man who hadn't been able to return home,

or so I was told.

I could hardly even remember his face;

all I could recall was the cries of my grandmother,

who I also lost a few years after,

when I was ten.

Still, the feelings of loss felt foreign,

they were like not mine to feel.

It was not until I saw my grandmother's motionless frame in that strange wooden box that I realized I was experiencing my second loss.

But what came as the most painful loss to me was the passing of my godfather.

I wasn't too old then,

but was old enough to know things weren't right.

Sometimes I still see the tears on my mother's face that morning in the back of my head;

I still hear her cries, and I can still see his face.

There was a point in time when I wondered why all of these had to happen to me.

I was merely a child, and what more can a child ask for,

than to wake up everyday to find all her loved ones still around by her side,

smiling and reassuring her that the day will go on fine.

Yet how come the truth is otherwise?

Why do I have to cope with something adults face?

I lost someone dear to me that morning.

The same man who said he will be there, even with a walking aid, to attend my graduation ceremony,

the same man who said he will be witnessing my wedding,

and the same man who said he will be there to carry my kids.

And the saddest thing is,

I didn't even get to say my goodbyes, to any one of them,

or rather, I did not manage to say all that I needed to say during those times we spent together.

I guess we are just so used to being able to see these people each day that it had never occurred to us the possibility of loss.

It's a little out of proportions but I think people ought to see this.

The contents may be a little disturbing but that's life out there- it's disturbing.

If my losses were unbearable, what would theirs be?

For a better tomorrow, promote world peace.

Children- Gifts that breathe.

Another reason for me writing this post today is also because I know that another loss is coming.

It has been 2 years since my last pet died.

And I know that the time is near for these 2 to go too.

One of them in particular has been showing signs of ageing and I've only recently uncovered a growth in his lower left limb.

Honestly, I thought I could handle it,

considering that I had pets before,

that they all left us eventually and that we had to learn to cope with it.

Yet, the feelings of loss is different every time.

Actually, we never intended to keep hamsters anymore since the previous occasion.

But we took them in because my dad's colleague's son didn't want them anymore,

after having kept them for approximately 2 months or so.

I've been thinking, if we hadn't taken them in they'd probably be left at some nearby garbage area,

like any other $10 hamster would be if no one wants it.

This is why I think that it's really important for those getting pets to consider really carefully,

be it for yourself, your friends, or your child in particular.

Animals do not make good gifts for young children!

Eventually the children run out of interest and like all the other plastic toys dumped into the corner of the room,

the pets get abandoned and neglected.

Please fight animal abuse, for they are not yours to abuse in the first place.

And cherish the work of nature, for you are part of nature too.

Loss- Now, I would say it is when the physical person leaves but the heart stays, wherever it should be needed.

There can be no loss as long as we are held together by this connection,

the connection which keeps our shared memories alive.

The connection's love,

and if I mean anything to you,

do bear in mind that I love you,

the people I think of every night before closing my eyes,

praying they'll be safe and sound when I open them again.

A little love is all it takes.

It can all begin with YOU(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, February 27, 2011

I know I probably won't be coming in tomorrow,
errr I mean later in the day 'cause I'm posting this at 1 am on a Sunday morning.
Lol.
So, I'll bid you all goodbye and goodnight for now as I won't be coming back again for some time due to the upcoming tests next week.
Take care everybody and to those who are having exams round the corner,
let's work hard together!^^
I'll be back!^^

Heading to bed now,
goodnight,
Bonsoir ^^

I'll see you in my dreams again tonight baby^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, February 26, 2011

However temporary,
he has shone a little light on my day.
And that alone,
is enough to get me through^^

KJJ<33333

Saturday's love.
Love this many many!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Feels like a screwed-up.
And the worse is there's nothing I can do about it.
Screw you, life.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, February 25, 2011

Sometimes I wonder if I really do know the people around me.
The very same person I'm talking to,
the very same person I'm laughing with,
the very same person I thought I knew,
do I really know you?
Or have we just been living behind this masquerade?
But a masquerade for whom?
For you?
For me?
Probably for the world to see.
I end this post with a heavy heart.
I hope that I'll be able to focus on what's right, not what is my right.

Friday's Gift(:
Enjoy the remaining weekends(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, February 24, 2011

They say the higher you go,
the harder you fall.
Today, I experienced "The happier you are now, the sadder you will become later."
I should have known better.
That happiness is like a drug.
You feel high at one moment and the next it's cold turkey.
Why is this happening?

Today's the day when I don't think abut tomorrow

<3333333333333333333333333333

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Woke up at 10.30 today and decided forget it,
I'll chill in the morning and study in the afternoon instead >.<
Cause usually I'll get up at 9.30 and start studying at 10.30 >.<
But anyways,
today marks the end of my A&P revision.
I've only got the physiology part of the respiratory system left;)
But still, there's still Immunology to study,
so I still haven't got the right to relax yet :(
But thankfully, Immunology is MCQ based,
which makes me extremely thankful as I know nuts about this entire mod>.<
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Lol.
And this Heaven's Postman makes me 爱恨交加
It's taking forever to load and I can never finish the show >.<
Bleahh.
And the song's not out either.
Bleahh.
I'll find other stuff to do!
LOL.
And I'm dining with the girls tonight!
So won't be coming back till tomorrow!
And I just realise the weekends are round the corner again.
The week passes like damn quickly omg.
Needa studyyyy!
Bye for now!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Dreams- A form of escape from reality in a surreal way.

I believe there's a better place out there,
where neither tears nor pain exist.
Where people live in harmony and peace.
Where we can all be free...
But I also believe,
that place is beyond our reach.
Perhaps the only place of refuge for now,
is in our sleep.

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

If life is truly a dream,
can I wake up now?

Wednesday's work of art- Surrealism.

I'm quite pleased with this.
One of the favourites(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Strangely,
my fingers are shaking as I'm typing this.
I don't know how to best describe the way I'm feeling now.
Overwhelming excitement?
Yes, to a large degree, yes!
Intense nervousness?
To an even larger degree, YESSSSS!
And also this crazy madness that's burning so strongly inside right now,
after seeing this...

LIKE SERIOUSLY, YOU JUST KILLED ME, NO DOUBT 'BOUT IT.

Okay, I can't write anymore,
it's a mess up there in my head >.<
I'll post something more decent again hahaha:DD

And this is for Tuesday!

YAY!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, February 21, 2011

LOL.
I realize...an hour on the laptop is pathetically insufficient for me.
But nonetheless,
it's better than nothing XDD
I gotta work fast to make full use of it;)
Apparently, I'm having my break now.
Just accomplished part 1 of my agenda in the morning, and will be moving on to part 2 after lunch @1.30 pm;)
Ahh I would like to post more pictures but I'm running out of time.
Will come back again soon!
Have a great week ahead people!^^

P.S A JAE a day keeps the frowns away~
My way of thinking of him:

This is for Monday(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, February 19, 2011

HELLO HELLO!
Hahaha!
Today marks the start of my recess week!
Lol.
I don't know if I should jump for joy or sink in sorrow cause recess week has 2 meanings for me.
Number one, I get to sleep late and wake up late, not having to fret about school;)
Number two, it's meant for mugging;(
Ohh well.

Anyways,
I had my first taste of freedom last evening,
when we had a Westies (+ Northies and Easties) Chillout @ Meihong's place :DD
It was awesome funnn^^
We ate, played, ate, watched DVDS, ate and played again XDD
Lol.
I was still crunching chips at 11pm omg. >.<
And thankfully there were no complaints from the neighbours,
we were like crazy loud over there, especially after Sam came over XDD
SABOTEUR!!!
Andand I finally learnt how to play Mahjong!
Hahaha!
All thanks to Gengen, my awesome teacher^^
She's a pro mannn:DD
Overall,
it was an enjoyable time and I hope we can have more of such hangouts,
which I'm very certain we will hahaha:DD
Enough of the fun and games,
it's time to get back into the studying mode.
Mug hard people, and after this we will let loose again!:DD

You awesome friend,
thanks for everything!
From the venue to the games to the food,
all you bao ka liao (covered it all)!
The next chillout session we'll Journey to the East hahaha :DD

That's all for now,
I'm heading back to the books!
It's the mugging period for some,
don't get too stressed up and take care of your health.
You might not have limits but the body and the mind do,
so remember to take a break at the appropriate time!
Seeya all XDD

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, February 18, 2011

It's #ChangminDay!

To Shim Changmin,

To Choikang Changmin,

To TVXQ's maknae,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY^^

Why is it also a day when looking at old photos makes me upset?

Why is it also a day when listening to old songs makes me upset?

I felt that it was a waste that things became this way,

and I still do...

Ais it's not a day to be thinking this way,

I'm just happy it's your birthday!

생일축하합니다

Saengil chukha hamnida!^^

TVXQ's maknae, always!

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Anger

Because it is based on an exaggeration,

anger is an unrealistic mind;

the intrinsically faulty person or thing that it focuses on does not in fact exist.

Anger is also an extremely destructive mind that serves no useful purpose whatsoever.

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So the point is,

there's no point in me getting angry.

Especially when it is with regards to something as nonsensical as this.

I really don't have time to play along with you,

neither do I get the mood,

so shoo.

I'm supposed to be a happy, relieved girl today,

and I still am.

Won't let anything affect my joyous mood for having cleared 40% of my psychology mod grades.

The test today was fairly alright,

though I had expected myself to be able to fare better than I did.

Honestly, I'm slightly disappointed with my performance cause I spent so much time revising on this module.

But whatever,

it's over now^^

Don't really have much to write today,

so I'll let photos do the talking(:

Gifts received from Valentine's Day A.K.A International Friendship Day(:

Okay at one glance it looks like tissue paper, which it is,

but it's actually a flower made using tissue paper.

I think that's the beauty of it-

that something so beautiful can be made out of something so ordinary.

I think that's our friendship(:

This is from Ivy Tan(:

Sweet sweet sweets(:

From my soulmate Daphne(:

Muffins from Meihong(:

This curbed my hunger in lecture that day XDD

This is from Alvin, my secret Valentine's Day pal,

just someone we had to write to on that day.

And I was Alvin's secret pal haha :DD

And this!

Is my gift from BUDDY WONG(:

Seeing her today after a long long long time made me realize that I actually miss her so much :(

I'll see you after recess week buddy,

and I hope your teeth gets better!

Take care!^^

Supposedly there're like more sweets and chocolates but in my boredom during lectures,

I ate them all.

However, I've kept all the love in here <333

and they won't be forgotten(:

And I hope the people around me received my love just as well too^^

What about you?

How have your Valentine's day/ International friendship day been?

Ahhha!

Now for some random stuff.

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

When life gets boring, find something worth doing!

Camwhoring!

Lol.

I was too bored from studying,

bored is not a good word.

Tired, I would say.

I was too tired from studying :X

AND THIS!

IS MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE!^^

(Can you spot the heart in there?)

Kekeke XDD

Haven't got much time for him lately due to all the studying and stuff.

I've come back to you KJJ!

But I've gotta be going again soon,

to mug for my other modules.

Will spend these couple of days wisely with you haha XDD

And YES!

CONGRATS!

The Seoul Central District Court dismissed both lawsuits filed by SM Entertainment against JYJ~

That's another step to victory for the boys. Yay!

Despite all the problems,

I'll embrace life with a frown turned upside down(:

For I know there're still people worth putting on a smile for.

So despite all the crap you're throwing at me,

I won't make a sound.

And I'm not gonna try to talk you round,

for I know we're like opposite poles of a magnet-

there'll always be repulsion.

It's life, so live it(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Typical day.
Typical routine.
Typical life.
Typical me.
I just read that change, be it positive or negative change,
contributes to an increase in stress levels of the individual.
How sad.
But the saddest thing is, change is the only thing that's constant in life,
which makes stress a constant as well from the way I see it.
Decided to take a break from all that studying before I go bonkers from all that information overload >.<
I think at the rate I'm going,
I'll have stress for company till late April.
The couple of months that follow will be tough,
but I'll hang on,
and work hard till the day we meet again(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

"What was the worst pain that you have experienced?"
This is the question for my reflective journal.
I have no idea if I should write about what I honestly feel or should I simply cook up something just to hand in to the teacher.
I think in this context,
fabricating a story is easier than writing what I feel is the most painful.
It's another long night for me,
as I'll be preoccupied with this journal writing thingy.
Perhaps this is a good thing,
the quietness of the night allows me to think.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, February 14, 2011

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYBODY!^^

LOVE IS IN THE AIR~

But sadly, the air's too filthy for me to feel anything :(

All the pollutants and stuff >.<

In the past,

Valentine's Day's a day I would look forward to,

for it's a day to spread the love,

not only between couples alright,

but also between family members and friends as well.

So I'll be rather hyped up and though I didn't have a special someone to spend this season of love with,

I was happy.

But this year,

the loneliness hits me harder than usual.

Only when I take a closer look at the world around me did I realize I actually felt lonely.

I could only watch while the faces around me fade into the background along with their laughters,

and all became dark in here.

And when the lights come on again I realize I'm alone on this strange path.

Is it really true?

That as we grow older we lose people?

Though the older we grow, the more people we know...

I think, perhaps the truth is,

the older we grow, the more we lose ourselves.

Suddenly, I miss the days in primary school,

when we thought recess period was heaven,

catching was like the funnest game ever,

and friends were made to last forever.

But I guess at the age of 19,

the world is a more complex place and people just ain't the same anymore.

I'm just weary.

But I don't think any amount of rest will relieve me any further.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Icecream!

It's been a while since I had icecream!

It's been an even longer while since I had it along with my brother and sister.

I remember we used to sit at the gate in a sunny afternoon and just lick our icecreams while chatting about anything under the sun and laughing away.

Today, that feeling of bliss returned to me again, however temporal it was.

I love the afternoons spent together,

the afternoons without a care in the world(:

I wasn't in a good zhuang tai cause I just woke up from my nap.

My hair's just crappy :X

I've been feeling so sleepy these days, in the afternoons especially.

I think it's probably thanks to the weather,

which makes sleep so irresistible.

But I guess it's also because I've been getting up at 5.50am daily and sleeping past midnight.

I'm looking forward to the weekends...

But I guess even then, I wouldn't be able to get enough sleep.

My relatives will be coming by on Saturday,

and there's definitely much to do.

Ais.

I'm just so overwhelmed >.<

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

I'm kinda tired right now but I happened to drop by to print the notes for tomorrow's lecture so decided to type a quick post.
Lately, things haven't been going well and I must admit,
I'm quite distressed.
It's like whatever can go wrong, will go wrong.
I'm really frustrated.
Was it something I did?
Or was it something I didn't do?

They say, Life's a ride.
And I'm guessing my car just crashed on the highway.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

LIKE THE SUN THAT SHINES OUTSIDE YOUR WINDOW
I WILL BE WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO
THROUGH THE NIGHT YOU’LL FEEL MY HEART STILL BEATING NEXT TO YOURS
RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE FOREVER I WILL STAY
TILL THE MORNING COMES MY PRAYERS WILL SPEAK THE TRUTH
LIKE A WHISPER ON THE WIND MY VOICE WILL CALL TO YOU

CAN YOU HEAR ME? CAN YOU HEAR ME?
‘CROSS THE DISTANCE WORDS TAKE FLIGHT
CARRIED ON THE WINGS OF ANGELS
ARE THE PROMISES THAT WE BOTH MAKE TONIGHT
I AM YOURS

JUST BELIEVE THAT I WILL BE HERE ALWAYS
THAT OUR LOVE WILL LAST THE REST OF OUR DAYS
‘CROSS THE MILES I’LL REACH FOR YOU AND IN MY DREAMS
YOUR MEMORY WILL BE STRONG ALL THROUGH THE DARKEST HOURS
I WILL KEEP YOU CLOSE AND WHEN THAT’S NOT ENOUGH
EVEN THOUGH WE’RE FAR APART ANGELS WILL LIFT US UP

CAN YOU HEAR ME? CAN YOU HEAR ME?
‘CROSS THE DISTANCE WORDS TAKE FLIGHT
CARRIED ON THE WINGS OF ANGELS
ARE THE PROMISES THAT WE BOTH MAKE TONIGHT
I AM YOURS

I'm so affected by the impact of this musical I can't imagine how it would be like for me to watch it live.

History in the making- Tears of Heaven.

And,
I was browsing through my Pictures folder and realize that I've only got 1 of Uknow's photo in it.

I forgot why I chose to save only this pic when there's like hundreds and thousands to choose from.
I like him more in this image by the way,
rather than the image he has now.
But anyway,
This is the one and only- UKnow Yunho!
Happy belated Birthday^^

And since I've posted about our Junsu and UKnow,
and I intend to post about Chunnie and KJJ,
I shall not forgo Changmin

Nuclear expert Changmin.
He looks like an assassin to me.
But either way, he's just as appealingXDD

Chunnie~

LOL.
This is like one of the funniest thing I've seen today...

JaeJae!
Why so charming?^^
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Anyways, I realized I hadn't mentioned much about my CNY holidays.
Technically speaking,
I only spent the first couple of days doing things in relation to CNY,
that is, visiting, receiving angbaos, eating, visiting, receiving angbaos, eating, and eating , and eating again,
the rest of the days were spent nuaing at home, hogging on the television and watching rented DVDS.
One of the shows I caught over the weekend was:

This! Laughing Gor.
It's a HK movie revolving around triads and cops.
I found myself falling in love with the HK showbiz all over again.
Their shows are just awesome.
Especially the TVB dramas,
some of the best dramas are produced here I would say.
I would want to marry into Hongkong if Korea is not possible :DD
Lol.

It's almost 1.30am and I guess I ought to head to bed soon.
5 hours of lecture tomorrow and I don't intend on burning out halfway.
So, goodnight everyone!
I'm off to bed!^^
But before that,

That's what I did for lab today!
Camwhoring. LOL!

Jaljayo!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Awww...
How I wish the holidays would never end :\
Been enjoying too much these couple of days that I lost the mood of "schooling".
Holidays is just an unsatisfiable want of students, like me especially.
It's been a pretty good CNY for me^^
Love the angbaos,
love the goodies,
love all the slacking and the chilling.
But I think it's almost time to set these aside,
to prepare myself for the crazy deadlines to meet.
I've got so many assignments due the end of this month,
and so many tests to study for :X
And I didn't fulfil my agenda for yesterday so everything has been pushed forward.
I think I won't be seen much in lectures in the coming days :X
Gotta learn to note the benefits and loss here.
I don't see much benefits in attending some of the lectures these days and I don't really see the loss in not attending them either.
Lol.
Ahh shall end here then.
Work is impatient.
Gotta head off to my A&P T.T
Have a great week ahead people(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, February 04, 2011

How have you guys been enjoying CNY?^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

What a beautiful day!^^
This was taken from the busstop just outside my school.
It's really nice, don't you think?
That the sun has finally come out of hiding and the pretty clouds hanging in the sky.
It looks like a sign to an awesome day.
I haven't felt this carefree for quite a while^^
And this time, I really think I can get to relax for a couple of days before I start my drive again(:
I'm gonna leave school and everything that comes with it,
at the back of my head and simply enjoy this festive season,
alongside my darling TVXQ!
OMG thanks Ade Jung for lending me the Concert DVDs!!!
I'm so excited I could barely think of anything else~
T CONCERTTT!!!
5 IN THE BLACKKK!
Best CNY EVERRR!
Hahaha!
Anyways I just had my Reunion Dinner.
Awesome steamboat!^^
Won't be any photos 'cause I was too engrossed into eating to do anything else haha!
That's it for my diet plan.
It's goodbye for now.
The food are simply irresistible!
And I'm visiting my popo's house tomorrow,
which makes it even more impossible to resist eating XDD
Shall end here for now,
I'll post again soon!^^
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE PEOPLE!
It doesn't matter if you're Chinese, Malay, Indian, Caucasian, whatever,
JUST ENJOY THE HOLIDAYS!^^
We deserve it haha!
And after this break we'll make a dash for our goals, or rather,
assignment deadlines!!!
Let's work hard then!
But for now, let's play harder!^^
Once again,
Happy Chinese New Year!!!^^

P.S
I just couldn't resist this,

SUUUUU CUTEEEEE!!!
AHH ADE JUNG DID YOU SCREAM?
Hahaha XDD

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

OMG OMG!

THANKS TO ADE JUNG'S PHONE CALL EARLIER -.-",

I COULD NO LONGER RESIST THE URGE TO USE THE LAPTOP!

JUST WATCHED JUNSU'S PERFORMANCE OF "CAN YOU HEAR ME" @ THE PRESS CONFERENCE OF TEARS OF HEAVEN!

I think I'm now in heaven~ :DD

Even though the video lasted for barely 5 minutes,

I can hardly breathe when I watched the scenes.

Omg it's simply touching~

How I wish I can be there watching it live.

The musical will commence tonight and I hope it'll be another great success for Ade Jung's Junchan^^

Yes! Hwaiting!^^

OHH! This is the scene which stole my soul!

Today's another rainy day,

though the rain came on and off,

unlike yesterday,

where there just seems to be an unlimited supply of water from the sky.

Was that the legendary "Tears of Heaven"?

Hahaha even the skies are wishing our Junsu great success on his musical haha!

Anyways,

Andy and I were played like fools by the weather today.

One minute it was gushing winds and heavy rain and the next minute the sun comes out shining -.-"

So whenever it rains, we had to rush off to bring in the clothings and close the windows.

And whenever it stops we had to take them out again and open the windows -.-"

I think I did that for more than 3 times today -.-"

Andand,

I managed to study 2 chapters of my psychology notes,

which is part of my agenda for today.

I think I'm on the right pace^^

Hahah!

I don't know if it's visible here,

but it's evidence of my work^^

One of the many pages I read and wrote notes on(:

I'm rather pleased with myself I must say^^

And I also wrote down my To-do list for the week as well!

Tadaa!

It's not very visible either but the point is,

my list is almost filled-.-"

Thank goodness the holiday's pretty long(:

Alina likes^^

And yeahh,

just wanna share something I thought funny,

I pasted this on my daddy's door the other day,

reminding him to hand me $30.

And see what he did haha!

Ahhh my dad's so cute^^

And see who I've got here!

CHANGMIN!!!

Ohmygod I've never seen him in this light before~

I love the way guys look when they're driving.

There's always this charm...

Our Changmin has grown.

Such manliness!

Omg The Killer Stare O.O

Hahaha this seems like a post of pictures.

Shall add one more which I find worth posting,

An island in a house- A Cat's Island.

And how can I forget...

my KJJ :DD

Awww that smile~

You've got some funny accessories huhh.

Previously it was Raichu, now it's a monkey XDD

Ahh shall end here now,

it's past 6.30 and I haven't had my shower yet.

I won't be dropping by tonight as I'll be studying.

Till next time,

take care people!

I think everyone's busy with the CNY preparations XDD

Take care of your health and don't have too much junk food!

Seeya!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

YAY!!!
I'm done with the assignment I've set out to complete by tonight- my PBL research,
and right now I'm soaking in this sense of accomplishment(:
Initially, I thought I wouldn't be able to complete this 'cause I'm really tired:\
And I thought I would have to leave it for tomorrow instead.
But, a little willpower made it all possible haha!
Nahh, I just don't wish to waste my time doing the research when I could be studying for my psychology module instead-.-"
And also thanks to the voices of TVXQ singing to "You're My Melody" on repeat throughout the night that I'm still able to retain this last bit of energy >.<

I'm in love with this song~

Especially when Junsu sings

"It's your love, your love
You, who let me hear love...
You are my rhythm, my life's gift"
Really love the way he sings it here.
I'm mesmerized haha!

Ahh it's just such an awesome song,

I like~

:DD

Anyways, I've decided not to attend school tomorrow,

so as to focus on studying my psychology.

There're only lectures tomorrow anyway

-a day worth ponning XDD

Ohh and I received my first angbao of the year^^

It's from my tuition kid's mummy(:

I really didn't expect it,

so I'm really glad^^

And chatted with Ade Jung on the phone earlier.

Feels like a long time since I last chatted on the phone this way,

like really, really chat

-talking about random stuff, complaining about life, fangirling over our boys.

That 30 minutes made my day(:

Over time,

some friendships stay the same way while others sway.

I'm glad ours hadn't changed(:

Seeya soon love!

It's 1.12 am now,

and I should be heading to bed!^^

To those who are still chionging work or mugging their heads off into the dead of the night,

turn in soon!^^

P.S

JAEJOONGIE~

What's with the Raichu sticker?!

You cute cute boy^^

I'll see you in my dreams!:DD

-With All My Heart, Alina ;