<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Photobucket Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

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    Monday, January 29, 2007


    woots woots.
    guess what?
    NO homework today!
    *cheers cheers*
    don't be stunned but at times like this,
    it's a miracle we don't get any homework for the day alright.
    [ hahax. i might be alittle exaggerating here. but just a little okay]
    ^^
    what's more.
    NO tests this week!
    *choi choi*
    cannot say so early lols.
    but i do hope there won't be any.
    *crosses fingers*
    now now.
    no big happenings lately.
    just that cross-country's coming up.
    on next monday.
    and that = 2 things.
    number 1 would be a good thing.
    that is the early dismissal for the day.
    and number 2?
    man it would be the marathon itself.
    >.<
    and how far is the run they say?
    honestly i don't hafta be psychic to know that my limbs're bound to ache after the entire thingy.
    the thought of it makes me feel all wobbly.
    urgh.

    yupp yupp.
    heard a song hot at mrt stations and buses with mobile tvs.
    it's actually regarding an advertisement nahh.
    and i find it rather meaningful lols.
    especially after listening to it for loads of times on my way to school and back again.
    here's part of da lyrics
    lols.
    it's actually the chorus nahh:

    But see your true colours
    Shining through
    I see your true colours
    That's why I love you
    So don't be afraid to let them show
    Your true colours,
    True colours are beautiful,
    Like a rainbow.

    Everyone's beautiful,
    One way or another. ^^

    and and.
    DANIEL ONG visited our school today!!!
    yes yes. DANIEL ONG!
    that guy from 98.7 FM.
    LOL.
    funny guy.
    glad i didn't miss assembly today.
    had fun lols.
    and next week's my turn to bond.
    yeahh.
    -.-"
    hahax.
    so lastly.
    be sure to tune in to 98.7 FM today.
    and tomorrow.
    and the day after.
    and the day after after.
    and the day after after after.
    -.-"
    just tune in everyday. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Sunday, January 28, 2007


    I LOVE MY PEEPS!!! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Saturday, January 27, 2007


    i'm upset oh yes i am.
    in fact.
    it's actually due to mood swings plus alittle depression nahh.
    a minor one though.

    anyways.
    enjoyed the concert last evening. ^^
    [i was expecting the concert hall to be bigger lols]
    yupp yupp.
    then it was bout 12 when i arrived home.
    all tired and extraordinarily sleepy.
    so hurry hurry go bath.
    that i didn't even realise that the heater's OFF.
    -.-"
    and i can swear the water's ice cold.
    really.
    i have no intention of reliving that feeling.
    and that painstalkingly long bath.
    *shivers*
    like when has my bathroom became the north pole.
    and so that explains why i contracted flu last night.

    but after that.
    i felt energentic.
    -.-"
    and that = a bad thing.
    'cause i would have nothing to do.
    and i'm definitely not in the homework mood.
    uh-uh.
    so i watched tv instead.
    and by the time i slept it was like don't know what time liaox.
    hahax.
    and i woke up at 11.35 this morning.
    to think i still feel tired lols.
    especially with all that homework on my table.
    urgh.
    and and.
    saw something on *****'s ****.
    [the words are censored so as to protect the identity of another]
    and felt conforted.
    'cause at least someone understands my situation and not see it as if i'm lucky to have that kind of treatment.
    i doubt you guys know what i'm talking bout lols.
    but i believe only buddy does nahh hahs.

    and yes.
    i'm done with bio.
    and english.
    not something to be proud of anyway.
    lols.

    guess that's all bahh.
    do take care ^^

    p.s. oh oh. i learnt something from qian yesterday.
    that Lmao actually means "laugh my ass off".
    i know i'm slow lols.
    Lmao.Lmao.Lmao.Lmao.Lmao.
    -.-"

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Tuesday, January 23, 2007


    i'm down.down.down.i'm
    down.down.down.down.down.
    yes.
    mood swings again >.<
    and it's funny i can laugh one minute and sulk the next.
    but no worries.
    i'll be fine.
    anyways.
    intended to post something yesterday.
    but all my time was spent on the net.
    searching for that geography thingy.
    had a real hard time lols.
    'cause certain figures differ from some others.
    but this ain't my point.
    the point is.
    i received something real sweet yesterday.
    so thankyous buddy!
    love ya lots. ^^
    and once again.
    i feel blessed.

    yupp yupp.
    shall end here.
    and yes yes.
    i hope buddy will be better soon.
    'cause she felt terrible today.

    p.s and yes, with you, i know i can do it. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Saturday, January 20, 2007


    OVERLOADING!
    OVERLOADING!
    someone save me!
    so much to do.
    so much to overcome.
    yet such limited time.
    and my heart sank at 8.38 this morning.
    it really did.
    someone up there please help me.
    i know i'm gonna make it.
    i just don't know how...

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Sunday, January 14, 2007


    BUDDY!
    i'm so sorry if i've made you unhappy again. =[
    aiyerr.
    forgive me nahh.
    don't wanna see you all upset.
    and especially 'cause of me again. >.<

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Saturday, January 13, 2007


    went shopping today ^^
    and bought many many stuff.
    got files.
    got accessories.
    and and.
    i bought a black tee.
    from op derhs.
    'cause there's a sales going on mahh.
    or not?
    but stuff there were considered pretty cheap nahh.
    so i suppose there's a sales lol.
    and it's been some time since i last bought a tshirt.
    yupp yupp.
    i was supposed to post yesterday.
    but was asleep nahh.
    guess what.
    i slept for about 14 hours last night lehh.
    lols.
    i did not even had my dinner. -.-"
    was real tired ya.
    a part of it was due to the rain though.
    made it all cozy.
    and it's also thanks to the rain that i was totally drenched by the time i got home. -.-"
    i was practically a luo tang ji norr.
    'cause i didn't had an umbrella with me mahh.
    so hadta walk under the rain.
    lucky my bag's waterproof lols.
    or the worksheets would've became tissue paper.
    anyways.
    i'm left with amaths 5 yrs series homework nia.
    the rest were done yesterday.
    in school lols.
    maths were kinda hard.
    but i completed it anyway.
    didn't really get it till buddy taught me hahs.
    alright.
    i'm off to the television.
    enjoy the weekends people. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Thursday, January 11, 2007


    eeeew.
    weird weird day i had today.
    though all was still pretty awesome till 2 in the afternoon.
    when i took that weird 99 bus.
    it wasn't exactly weird nahh.
    but a minority of people who came up was definitely strange.
    yupp yupp.
    back to the bus.
    it was all so cramped up.
    but i found myself a seat nevertheless.
    then 2 boys boarded the bus.
    also from hy de nahh.
    both sec 1 ehh.
    real childish ya.
    and at this particular time when i say childish.
    i actually mean pure lameness.
    2 grown up sec ones actually found it something funny to sit with a girl.
    and on a public bus somemore. -.-"
    when i saw that i was like what the...
    then when they talk.
    they talk as if they want the entire world to hear them.
    awww.
    and they swore.
    wahlao...
    on the bus lehh.
    like pul-lease nahh.
    show some consideration for the folks up there.
    and wearing school uniform somemore. -.-"
    then later on.
    many many kids boarded the bus.
    the thing is.
    they're all pushing one another lols.
    then this primary school boy was arguing with one of his mates
    saying "Stop it lahh!" and blah blah blah.
    'cause the latter was like teasing him mahh.
    hahax.
    then what made me rather pissed was like some kid.
    or perhaps teenager.
    or whoever..
    was like pressing the bell for so many countless times.
    so it went "ding dong" then "ding dong" then "ding dong"
    and "ding dong" "ding dong" AGAIN.
    duh?!
    i'm surprised the driver didn't get all frustrated and just make a wrong turn.
    lols.
    just kidding nahh.
    but really.
    if i were to be the driver.
    i couldn't take that.
    irritating you know.
    bleahx >.<
    now you see.
    even in a 20 minute plus drive in a bus can incur so many stuff.
    life's really pretty interesting hahs.
    now now.
    at least i learnt something ya?
    to not take the 99 bus home lols.
    take 185 instead nahh. >.<
    hahax.
    here's all.
    gotta take my dinner lerhs.
    so sayonaras!
    and takkaires all! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Wednesday, January 10, 2007


    hahax.
    was bored and did a quiz.
    guess what?
    my true love's sign a Cancer lol.

    Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
    Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!

    Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
    A fellow homebody, you know how to make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

    hope it's true hahs. >.<

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    been a couple of days since i last posted?
    hehex.
    yeah well.
    started school proper this week.
    and till now it's been going on pretty well. ^^

    yupp yupp.
    hope you guys had a good start as well. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Sunday, January 07, 2007


    o.O i'm sian-ed.
    and my bones are like practically breaking.
    it's simply ache ache ache. >.<
    well well.
    had tuition this morning.
    was pretty tired though.
    'cause i watched tv till 12 plus last night.
    and and.
    ate mummy's ai xin zao can lols.
    yum yum. ^^
    then came home to watch ah wang hahs.
    real heartwarming ya.
    it's the last episode lerhs. =[
    and it's a good one.
    then had mummy's ai xin wu can lols.
    yupp yupp.
    afterwhich i helped alicia with her homework.
    hadta make dollar notes for her maths lesson.
    they're obviously fakes nahh lols.
    had a hard time doing norr.
    must align the numbers properly.
    but i was rewarded hahs.
    with bubbletea bleahx.
    lols.
    yeahx.
    was "reorganising" the cd rack lately.
    it's time to spring clean lerhs lols.
    then came across this edmund chow's cd.
    the cd's a few years back le nahh.
    so took out to listen.
    then heard the song "peng you".
    lols.
    so long never listen le nehh.
    but it's great still. ^^
    used to listen to this song when i was like only 39 inches.
    well i was exaggerating nahh. >.<
    didn't really understand the lyrics then.
    now the feeling's different lols.
    yupp yupp.
    also been repacking my drawer.
    man.
    it's only when spring cleaning then i realise i have a whole lot of stuff hiding in my drawer lols.
    dug out many many many many stuff really.
    like greeting cards i received since preschool.
    and prezzies too.
    bookmarks, diaries and blah blah blah.
    some of which hadn't seen daylight for years.
    hahax.
    read through all the cards.
    reminds me of so many sweet moments. ^^
    both in preschool and in sec school.
    there're also class photos nahh.
    from sec 1 till sec 3 derhs.
    and neoprints were like here and there.
    tsktsk.
    didn't realise my drawer was so messy hahs.
    but now that i've done the packing,
    it's real neat lerhs lols.
    yesh.
    so that's all folks.
    and p.s
    i hope someone out there will cheer up. ^^
    in fact.
    i hope everyone out there will cheer up nahh.
    it takes 41 muscles to frown and just 16 to smile alright. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Saturday, January 06, 2007


    sianzation.
    fed up with some lady at the mall today.
    she was like talking so damn loud to that phone of hers.
    and nothing coming out of her trap's nice.
    don't reckon anyone in the right mind can take all that norr.
    there're already many people staring at her le lorr.
    but she's still oblivious to her surrondings.
    then when she finally realises it.
    she just won't shut up still.
    should've heard all the rubbish she's talking about.
    and she just goes around reprimanding people without even getting the facts right.
    as if anyone owe her something ehh.
    haiyo.
    if you wanna gain respect,
    you'll first hafta respect others alright.
    urgh.
    just my luck to bump into her lahh.
    but didn't hang around for long.
    didn't wanna ruin my day for anything ya.

    ps. and i'm sorry to xXLonerXx if i've said anything you find offensive.
    but honestly.
    it wasn't you alright. ^^
    so i hope we'll clear this up.

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;



    yeah.
    heard a pretty good song lately.
    and love the lyrics.
    check it out.^^

    "It Ends Tonight"
    Your subtleties
    They strangle me
    I can't explain myself at all.
    And all the wants
    And all the needs
    All I don't want to need at all.

    The walls start breathing
    My mind's unweaving
    Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
    A weight is lifted
    On this evening
    I give the final blow.

    When darkness turns to light,
    It ends tonight
    It ends tonight.

    A falling star
    Least I fall alone.
    I can't explain what you can't explain.
    You're finding things that you didn't know
    I look at you with such disdain

    The walls start breathing
    My mind's unweaving
    Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
    A weight is lifted
    On this evening
    I give the final blow.

    When darkness turns to light
    It ends tonight,
    It ends tonight.

    Just a little insight won't make this right
    It's too late to fight
    It ends tonight,
    It ends tonight.

    Now I'm on my own side
    It's better than being on your side
    It's my fault when you're blind
    It's better that I see it through your eyes

    All these thoughts locked inside
    Now you're the first to know
    When darkness turns to light
    It ends tonight,
    It ends tonight.

    Just a little insight won't make this right
    It's too late to fight
    It ends tonight,
    It ends

    When darkness turns to light
    It ends tonight,
    It ends tonight.

    Just a little insight won't make this right
    It's too late to fight
    It ends tonight,
    It ends tonight.
    Tonight Insight
    When darkness turns to light,
    It ends tonight.

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Friday, January 05, 2007


    wheeeee~
    bonding camp was fabulousa.
    had so much fun today ya.
    especially during the captain ball's game.
    the boys in our team were pretty awesome.
    so li hai hahs.
    i feel so so proud. ^^
    and i do agree that boys usually look their best when dealing with sports hahs.

    aiyahh.
    sudden rush of emotions.
    i miss so many people out of the blue.
    even though they're right here with me.
    if i really can have just one wish.
    i would want time to stop.
    and don't know for whatever reason,
    i'm so afraid that i'll lose what i have now.
    my friends especially.
    mates as well.
    and also buddy.
    each and every one of them holds a special place in my heart you know.
    and i feel all so sad having to think about the end of 2007.
    time really flies ya.
    it seems like just yesterday i entered hyss.
    and i can still see the imgae of the then-buddy sitting behind me when i first registered in school.
    but even so,
    these memories shall remain ya.
    forever and ever it'll be with me. ^^
    awww.
    ain't want mushy mushies no more.
    anyways.
    i was really pissed some time ago.
    by some jerk overpowered with insanity.
    don't really intend to elaborate.
    but i'm fine le nahh.
    all thanks to dear korkor.
    taught me so much.
    and he's always there when i'm really down norr.
    makes me feel so blessed hahs.
    honestly.
    i feel real lucky.
    and i'm really thankful. ^^
    so to someone up there,
    I THANK YOU!
    i wanna watch tv lerhs.
    so it's tatas for now.
    and nitenite people.
    sweet dreams to all. ^^
    but before that,
    thankyous to korkor.
    and thankyous to char.
    I LOVE MY LIFE AND MY 4E1! ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Thursday, January 04, 2007


    wahahax.
    good day ya'll!
    it's the second day of school
    and i'm super pleased.
    not exactly 'cause i'm back to school
    but 'cause i've fulfuilled another of my WANTS!
    woolalas.
    guess what?
    i bought THAT TATTY BEAR lerhs!
    and a real big one too.
    seriously.
    the bear would fetch $72.90 at CCK's More Than Words lehh.
    but i bought it for just $25.90.
    it was sold at a Special Price lahh.
    and i'm so so happy and thankful as well.
    'cause i want it for so long lerhs lorr. ^^
    heyyies.
    but it ain't imitation alright people.
    hahax.
    good stuff ain't all expensive derhs ya.
    anyways.
    wanna wish qian a Happy Belated Birthday hahs.
    'cause i was rather tired yesterday.
    so didn't manage to blog lols.
    yupp yupp.
    went for the Social Etiquette Wokshop today.
    so no lessons norr.
    hahax.
    one word:
    SHIOK!
    fun nahh.
    and did i mention funny?
    hahax.
    well.
    we ate out lunches at the hotel there too.
    wooooo.
    yum yum!
    and i'm so looking forward to tomorrow.
    bonding camp hahs. ^^

    yes yes.
    and andy didn't attend school today.
    high fever ya.
    he wasn't feeling too well since last night norr.
    it's too bad 'cause he'll be missing on quite alot.
    hiking tomorrow mahh.
    perfect time for bonding with his mates.
    but nevermind nahh.
    it's his health i'm more concerned with.
    but guess he's pretty alright now.
    or how can he be playing gameboy norr. -.-"
    lols.
    so with all my love,
    i shall end here. ^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Tuesday, January 02, 2007


    wahh.
    don't know what's wrong with my stuff today.
    computer hanged
    and my handphone jammed.
    hell. what's going on?
    wanna delete some stuff from my phone and that thing doesn't even allow me to. -.-"
    and my computer.
    he's worse.
    gateway's faulty.
    urgh.
    what in the world...
    that isn't the way to start 2007 lehh.
    ruined my mood.
    bleahx. >.<
    anyways.
    went library again today.
    and did the recording thingy.
    we hadta do it for several times before we finally perfected it hahs.
    had fun though.
    it was laughs, laughs and laughs all the way.
    then had lunch with buddy
    after which we went shopping hahs.
    alright.
    shadn't continue.
    hadta have my shower lerhs.
    tomorrow's first day of school.
    awww.
    i dread waking up so early in the morning lorr.
    gosh.
    the sun isn't even out yet lehh.
    and i hadta be pulled outta bed.
    i don't want! >.<

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;

    Monday, January 01, 2007


    HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

    lots and lots of love,
    sweetheart`ified__alina]]

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;