Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

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Been awhile since I last updated.
Thought I lost that feeling and it now feels kinda awkward to be writing again,
since recently I've been writing in my diary instead.
Now I've got to switch on that filter which filters what is to be said and what is not to be said.
Anyway the past few days can only be summed up in one word "fatigue".
This is not the first time I felt so drained and exhausted,
but this is the first time when I felt like giving up so many times.
Sometimes I wake up in the morning and force my eyes shut again.
Other times I wake up and say "Life, you win. Take me away now."
I just lost the will to carry on, somehow.

But then I guess it's getting all better now.
Cause project's over-
the one which we spent sleepless nights on;
which we stayed till 3am at night at Meihong's place chionging to complete.
It could possibly be the hardest proj to complete ever in my academic life.
But at the end of it,
I believe we delivered the fruits of labour when we heard praises and well-dones from everyone.
I'm thankful for that,
thankful for my groupmates,
thankful for my family for the understanding throughout,
and for strength(:
Because without any of it,
I wouldn't have achieved what I achieved(:
And in the midst of everything,
certain issues happened which made me rethink many things.
I'm not sure if I'm just being oversensitive,
but sometimes you just make me feel so insignificant in your life,
when you actually mean something to me.
But because of circumstances in my life now,
maybe I had made you feel otherwise.
I guess words don't change anything now.
And no matter how much I hurt inside or express how I feel,
you'll never be able to get it.
Because things have changed,
I'm just no longer at the same place.

On a brighter note,
I have a feeling I did pretty alright for my skills assessment today^^
It's a good pass hahaha XDD
And we went over to Mei's place for mahjong to celebrate^^
Shall turn in now,
have a morning class tomorrow,
and will post again soon.
I can't wait for tomorrow to come actually.
Running men plus The vamp diaries make a good start to the weekends!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Just felt like I should write before heading to bed.
And since lecture's at 11 am tomorrow,
I don't have to get up so early.
But still,
it's gonna be a short post cause I've been up too long the entire day and my body just wants to sleep now haha XDD
Anyways,
it's been sort of a rushy rushy day today,
especially in the morning.
Just as I was about to leave home for school,
Daphy called and said her plagerism report isn't out since 3 am last night.
That was when we all went into panic mode and started switching on laptops and stuff.
I thought I'd be cazy late but thankfully the bus came just in time(:
And then we rushed to ALCNS to have reports submitted only to find out that the dateline of 9am isn't exactly accurate as the submission box was still there when we left at 9.30 -.-"
So much for the rushing -.-"
Anyways,
I had fun today(:
Played mahjong again today!
Except that today was with Gen and Alvin instead of Daphy and Jiayan as they had something on.
I think my skills have improved,
all because I played with the true pros today hahaha XDD
We're having another mahjong session again next Thursday!^^
This time with Daphy and Jiayan^^
Gen and Alvin left ealy as they're gonna have dinner at home while I had dinner with Mei in her home(:
We had quite a talk and I had a good laugh looking at her childhood photos hahaha :DD
We talked about things we usually wouldn't talk about in school;
topics we never discussed.
And I think we got closer through that,
considering that I never knew the Mei before then.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen after we graduate.
Will we still be as close as we are today...?
I really hope so,
because I never wanted distance to change anything.
But then again,
a one-sided effort still is insufficient.

I think a relationship,
be it a relationship between friends, family members, or even a couple,
is like a plant,
and being a plant,
it needs to be watered and nourished.
Our plant, on the other hand, seems to be withering.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

I don't care what anyone else says.
I believe in DB5K and that's it.
End of story.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

MORNING EVERYBARDY!^^
While most people are still asleep due to either partying out last night or chionging assignments till the wee hours,
I'm already up hahaha XDD
Not to boast but yeahh,
I'm quite proud that I managed to drag myself out of bed after battling my other self who wants to continue the sweet slumber >.<
So here I am,
but the sad thing is,
my adviser is probably still sleeping T.T
Cause I need his help to complete this assignment >.<
And so,
I've got nothing to do but wait now.
That dude fell asleep last night halfway through our conversation LOL.
Like who will fall asleep in msn...
I don't really get this man hahaha XDD
Ahh alright,
shall do some other stuff first then.
Till later,
byebye!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

HELLO!^^
Just realize it's been more than a week since my previous post.
Been busy with tests, projects and stuff,
so much so that I hardly have the time to sleep,
even though I try never to compromise sleep time hahaha XDD
Anyways,
as I've mentioned before,
October's gonna be a mad, mad month.
Imagine just after my paper I've gotta work on my assignment,
and immediately after the assignment I've got a project at hand.
How I wish the semester can quickly end XDD
Life has been just so-so since my trip back.
It's all about chionging this and chionging that,
it's the time whereby I feel I need to relax and some alone-therapy is preferred too haha XDD
Been thinking about doing crafts lately.
I need a new hobby!
And scrap-booking seems fun!
Even though I heard it's not a cheap hobby.
A scrap-booking set already costs 50! -.-"
I shall keep that on hold,
until I have more $$$ and more importantly,
time >.<
I'm trying to live everyday being thankful,
I think I've become happier that way(:
I think this year is really a year of change,
and even though I am usually someone who dislike changes in my life,
I'm actually quite happy with it,
for it is a good change(:
And even though there are times when I still regard the world unfair (because I'm also human),
I know now where to find strength(:
I want to live each day trying harder to undo the wrongs yesterday.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Somehow JaeJoong looks so unhealthy as compared to the way he was T.T
Seeing him that way feels kind of hurting.
Anyways,
I'm very pleased and comforted by everything he said in the interview(:
Thank you, JaeJoong for everything you said(:
I love you(:

Ohh and I had a nice little gathering with the girls, Char, Qian-er & Buddy Wong^^
Even though it was merely a brief meeting,
I'm happy we met^^
Till next time,
take care everybody^^

The paper that's been causing me so much burden and stress is finally over.
I'm thankful heehee^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Because of the coffee I didn't have for a long time and finally drank one cup this morning,
my stomach is protesting with cramps T.T
Dear stomach,
it's not my fault that I have problems keeping up -.-"
Anyways,
it's been a while since my previous post and I thought I probably should update something here,
even though my life basically revolves around school work now.
I foresee October to be one hell of a month for me,
considering the overwhelming workload I have on my hands now,
not even mentioning the additional ones to come.
As of now I have one major test to study for and two projects to work on >.<
I should have played harder during the holidays, like seriously.
Anyways I'm taking a short break now before I continue with the respiratory system ohmygawd.
Feels like all the happiness in the world has just been sucked away by this ginormous vacuum cleaner.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;