Today's all about "Play first and work later",
or rather,
"Blog first and work later".
Kekeke can't help it if the inspiration's flooding in as if a dam was just pushed open.
Many things happened lately,
and they happened so suddenly I couldn't even react properly.
And the worst part is,
all of them appeared at the same timing,
as if it was all pre-planned,
to screw my life T.T
Firstly,
there was Alicia's knee relapse.
She came home one day limping and complained of pain at her site of surgery.
She could no longer bear her weight and had to walk with 2 clutches.
And when I checked,
her knee was twice the size of normal.
Everyone went into a state of panic as we were afraid she had to go for another surgery.
It felt like a hopeless situation...
and there was nothing we could do but pray.
But thankfully,
after a couple of visits to the doc and undergoing rounds of x-rays and a MRI scan,
it was revealed that there's nothing major about it.
It was just a chipped off bone that caused the swell and she'll recover her ability to walk with the help of physio and exercises on her part.
So naturally all of us heaved a sign of relief.
But this episode made me realize that we cannot take her knee for granted,
because another relapse may come again,
anytime.
I can only hope that it won't again.
So problem number 1 was solved, somewhat.
Problem number 2 on the other hand has been bothering me so much I think I might lose my head.
But it's not something I can just vent it out and feel better about it.
All I can say is,
friends can bring out the best in you,
but also the worst.
I don't like being in the middle but it seems like it's the only way now if I were to keep our friendship together.
On one hand I don't wish to lose this person,
on the other hand I don't want to hurt another.
It's sad to be sandwiched in between.
I also want to be sensitive to everyone's feelings,
to let everyone feel at ease.
But in the end,
it's just me.
And it's tiring having to consider everyone's feelings,
like it's a natural thing for me to do.
And it's abit sad that I can't rely as much on the people I used to be able to :(
I think it's time for me to grow up too,
to be more independent,
and to let some people go,
because perhaps they have already left me behind.
This is definitely not a problem that can be solved any time soon.
I think it's only wise to take things one step at a time.
And in the midst of these,
I've to deal with another delicate problem.
I have ran out of things to say but it just seems that you don't understand...
or don't wish to understand.
But I do feel sorry that we have been running around in circles just to go back to the same place :(
On the bright side,
just in case anyone thinks that my life had been in turmoil out of late,
I'm now hooked on the TV series 步步惊心
and it's been my motivation ever since.
Catching an episode a day is somewhat better than chasing the entire series in a day cause it keeps my motivation levels up there haha XDD
So,
because of this,
my mood is brightening up alittle(:
And also,
the one person who had really been able to make me smile genuinely,
and cry- daphne.
Life would be alot tougher without her with me.
<333
Shall share pics taken on the day we went to high tea at carousel at royal plaze(:
With Cass and Shus(:
198 on the loose :DD
XOXO
Love @ carousel^^
With that,
I shall end my post(: