Monday, September 27, 2010
12.33pm.
tired but not sleepy.
ais.
i knew i shouldn't have gotten within 5 metres near the lappy-.-"
see what it's done to me.
what originally was a mere project review became something called "alina's happy time"
but strangely, even after 2 hours,
i still don't feel the happiness coming.
could it be because you weren't smiling wholeheartedly too?
you haven't been smiling wholeheartedly for a while now.
and i really miss it.
perhaps this time,
this time it's true,
i'm not gonna find another like you.
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
it's monday! X(
siannn ttm mannn.
it seems like only yesterday when i rejoiced over recess week.
and in a wink of an eye that feeling simply evaporated into the air,
as though it was never even there.
now all i feel is a huge boulder in my heart,
and it's probably not gonna go away till thursday,
when i clear a&p :(
a&p alone is already sucking the life out of me>.<
and the weekends too:(
i must have looked pretty awful yesterday cause alicia suddenly came and told me:
alicia: One day when you're old and frail, you look back at your good old days in university, wait, there's no good old days because you're always cooped up studying! There's more to life than that.
me: *sees light at the end of tunnel*
one thing about alicia,
she dont tell you what to do,
she'll have you think about the best thing to do.
and because of that,
i know that even if the sky comes crashing down,
im not gonna be alone:)
yes, it'll all be better after thursday(:
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Friday, September 24, 2010
JAEJOONG!!!
just couldn't get my mind off him!!!
especially with all those news about him lately,
and the PV that he shot (that melted not only my heart but my entire system),
he's my motivation to complete my work^^
speaking of which,
im really pleased with myself really.
all that discipline and self control,
it was really hardcore.
and im glad i made it yay!!!
it's another day of work tomorrow though,
but till it comes,
im gonna indulge myself(:
but im still abit cross that i can't really spend a good full day with dbsk and JAE especially:(
i really wanted to devote myself to watching the videos and catching up on the news.
hahahahaha yeahh im a fangirl:)
cannot be waiting till im 30 to start on that. XD
anyhoo,
alicia's writing a novel!!!
as in a real novel!^^
i read it, and i must say, for her age, it's freaking darn good.
seriously i wouldnt be able to write it.
and im really hoping she'll make it known cause honestly it's AWESOME.
im not boasting but her vocab's simply suberb.
my lil writer:)
we were saying that if her career path as a forensic scientist couldnt work out,
she could be a writer.
and im all in for that:)
i can be her first reader:)
yeahh mannn go alicia!!!
and yeahh is it just me or is time passing like damn quickly?
it's friday already mannn.
usually i'll be pretty darn happy but this friday just makes me damn sad.
cause it just means 3 days more to school:(
and that sucks.
i can't get enough of the holidays man.
even though i've been mugging and chionging assignments and projects,
i felt more carefree and less restrained.
but in school there's schedules and stuff that makes me feel like im always in a hurry for things to be done.
but right now im just plain happy^^
jae baby~
may i have the strength to go through whatever may come(:
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Thursday, September 23, 2010
some people simply have the natural talent of causing misery.
good for you.
is it just me or the hormones' doing that im feeling so glummy? ><
major shift of mood from my previous post.
it had been a great wednesday until late evening.
someone just went beyond my line and im grumpy since.
i snapped at my dad, snapped at my mum, snap snap snap.
i tried to tell myself that it's no big deal,
maybe sometimes people don't mean it,
or it's just a mere slip of tongue,
and that i should be taking it easy.
but i've been taking it easy for far too long.
sometimes i wonder if it's worth doing the things i did.
so much so that sometimes appreciation and advantageous are somewhat the same.
but people seems to like the latter more.
we are such ugly creatures;(
haven't done any studying today ><
but completed my interview for PIP @Novenathis morning,
which is why im feeling so damn sleepy now.
and im partly blogging to prevent myself from dozing off with nothing better to do than to look at the black TV screen and feeling pathetic for myself.
btw i waiting for the clock to strike 3,
when i head back to anatomy, which i did not cover this morning.
sleep and everything else will have to wait.
i just went to open the door for andy.
and within 10 seconds i feel my happiness level soar.
he's the one person who can do it.
even if it's some random comment,
he can make me happy with that^^
anyways im going off to study now,
hope that the next post will be plastered with an entirely different mood,
that is, an uplifting one.
me: what will you do if someone told you "to use your brains"?
andy: i'll say i'll use them when you start using yours.
me: lol.
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
breaktime!!!^^
which equals net time which equals dbsk+fb+blog time!!!^^
im so proud of myself today(:
only overslept for an hour this morning.
but considering that i slept @3am last night (this morning),
i fared pretty well(:
so after 6 hours of sleep,
im recharged again!^^
started my study routine with anatomy @11am and was just in time to grab lunch with mummy @1.30:)
had kfc today and felt so sinful afterthat.
i wanted to reduce food intake especially after monday's experience with the xiao long baos.
seems like my 49kg-target is further away now ><
anyways,
im giving myself a break from 1.30-3 for lunch and short entertainment before i go back to physiology.
didn't want to break too long cause the weather's too good and there's a limit for my resistance to sleep lol.
it's 8 minutes to 3 so im going off now:)
i'll probably be posting again tonight when im done with my active ageing project from 10-11.30pm:)
im giving myself more time to sleep tonight cause i'll be doing an interview early tomorrow morning^^
enjoy the day people, it's raining^^
sometimes, all you need is time management:)
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
AHHHH!!!
2.09 AM IN THE MORNING!!!
i wouldn't mind if i were up staring at my darling jaejoong till the wee hours of the night, morning, whatever.
but i was up doing my active ageing project:(
and even so, im only halfway there:(
the slides are somewhat completed but the report isn't anywhere near completion.
and im feeling the stress already!!!
everywhere people are rushing deadlines!
even though we only have 1 midterms exam to study,
we still have 2 major projects :(
and either im too stressed or simply over-paranoid
but i could hear the tutors critisize my work back in my head while i was doing it.
have mercy!!!
but seriously since this is the first couple of projects we're getting,
i dont have a clue about what the standards are like and it's freaking me out big time.
all those stuff about plagiarism keeps ringing in my mind.
like one wrong move (click) and i might end up in prison for the rest of my life:'(
okay maybe not prison, but i'll definitely not be able to clear uni if i went that way:(
screw that.
im gonna leave my worries for tomorrow.
as of now, im heading into the comfort of my bed and into the tender arms of jaejoong~ ^^
i hope i can be strong enough to resist the urge to go back to sleep again when my alarm sounds @ 8 tomorrow morning!!!
sleep well people!
sweet sweet dreams~
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
first of all,
i had an AWESOME first day of recess week:)
my day started @ 8am when i woke up to see the glorious rays of sunlight shining through my window.
okay the light was kinda hurting my eye and that's why i actually got up ><
headed to school at 11 am to meet up with my active ageing group members to discuss our project at a place called THE NUS BUSINESS SCHOOL.
apparently,
i had never stepped foot into that godly place and daphne and i ended up being 2 suakus asking for directions around the building.
even with directions, we got lost and ended up at biz canteen 30 minutes late. oops =X
dominic was already there when we arrived (he's a very efficient and knowledgeable guy:) and did i mention his incredibly broad social network? LOL. for one, he has friends like everywhere we went. and he gets to say "Hi" at least once in every 5 steps LOL)
anyway our discussion merely lasted 2 hours before we drifted off onto other irrelevant subjects hahaha.
but as i mentioned, efficiency is a trademark of our group. XD
in fact, i feel really fortunate to have them as my teammates.
for me, they're already one of the best people i've worked with,
where fun and work can co-exist(:
so thanks guys!(:
afterthat we lunched at biz canteen under the recommendations of yansiew(she's from business),
where the food is, sad to say, 10x better than science.
i had a fulfilling lunch and headed to queensway with daphne and gen to print stuff.
we later went off to vivo and gen wanted a place with power plug to charge her phone and to makan.
so we searched around from secret recipe to ljs to carl's junior.
carl's junior had one so we kinda chilled there for a while.
chat about all the randommm stuff untill a cockroach appeared and scared us away ><
(window) shopped and headed to holland v for xlb dinner with 1/2 the nursing cohort.
(for pictures, please do go to my fb, im quite sure the photos will be up by tomorrow^^)
so yeahh im currently xlb-phobic.
ate like 2 days worth of food can ><
but overall, it was all FUN & Laughter:)
im strongly convinced that we made quite an imppression on the staff with all our noise and our orders (we had like >40 baskets of xlb per table)
seriously those guys can eat mannnn.
anyway, i shall boycott xlb for some time now hahaha.
but i really love it:)
steamboating really brings people together and i really felt like we were family.
i never knew simple gestures like taking food for one another could be so heartwarming:)
in a way, it's bonded us and made us closer within that 2 hours:)
i love our nurses family:)
speaking of family,
im on better terms with my family:)
i think sometimes it's not a matter of what we need,
but what we do not need,
and in this case,
we really didn't need all those misunderstandings that came our way.
but ultimately,
they're my family.
the truth is, my blood runs in them and theirs in mine,
so i guess it all boils down to being able to give and take:)
i shall not be affected by it anymore:)
i love my family too:)
and yes,
i was supposed to meet ade jung in the evening today,
but because of my delay @holland v i couldn't reach in time:(
and being my sweet ade jung, she told me to go home lest my mum worry:)
i'll drop by tomorrow ade jung!!!^^
and buddy, thanks for the messages in my tagbox:)
even though we haven't had much time to spend together,
i hope that nothing will drift us apart:)
study hard but don't neglect your health too:)
i'll see you soon!!!^^
it's the little things you do that really reaches into my heart:)
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
haven't been posting lately.
overwhelmed with schoolwork and stuff.
it's no surprise that you can still see me in school at 8pm any other day.
and i guess it's also because of this i've become distant, my family in particular.
i don't know why this is happening but it's like some chemical reaction had occured;
an irreversible chemical reaction.
a reaction that will not bring us back to the way we used to be anymore,
at least that's the truth for me.
sometimes, most of the time actually, i wonder if im the problem.
perhaps i am.
i'm beginning to feel that there's no common topic between us anymore.
or im just tired of talking anymore.
they either don't understand or probably don't wish to understand.
i feel more misunderstood than ever and definitely more lonely than ever.
why is it that everyone can have their own say,
but it's never my turn to speak.
you hear me, but did you really listen to me?
you don't listen, because listening is bad.
listening is bad, because it is the truth.
and you never liked the truth.
at least not the truth that you loved denying.
what do i go back to?
a home? or a house?
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
okiee after this post i'll be left with less than 6 hours of sleep.
btw im waking up at 7.30 tomorrow :\
ohh no, i haven't been chionging homework.
i was surfing the net for leisure hahaha.
oops XD
but im not one who indulges in pleasure before my work is complete.
so, im proud to say that i've completed my homework the day it's given(:
anyway, just felt the sudden urge to post.
yepp.
revised alittle on anat today and later realised that it was really not much since some of my mates have completed like 1 entire chapter already:\
so much for my satisfaction.
then went to school early to go for my blood test,
one that will definitely leave me with a trauma.
it was the most painful jab i ever had and it's totally left a mark there.
no joke, my arm still bear evidence of the jab.
there's this red mark on my vein now ;(
who says you can feel assured with an experienced nurse?!
and by "experienced", i mean... yeahh... she's not exactly young.
i shall not subject my arm to such torture ever again haha ><
okiee i guess that's all for now!
i doubt i'll be posting again till friday,
it's gonna be a busy busy week since all of my lessons are stuffed in 4 days.
till then,
take care(:
&&& goodnight(:
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Thursday, September 02, 2010
sometimes i wonder if you've ever given much thought for me.
it's either one of those times when im being plain moody,
or one of those when i actually mind being taken for granted
i have my tantrums too,
much more than that,
i have limits,
and you've just exceeded it.
i should stop finding excuses for you to make myself feel better
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
1.14 am and im still chionging my work.
just completed my research on cataracts and im quite proud of it(:
not that sure if i did the right referencing though but... yeahh.
and for some reason im not that sleepy(:
not very awake also,
but at least not to the extent of collapsing on my desk.
i guess it's partly due to the songs in my playlist that kept me going.
in fact, Love in the ice has been playing like since forever.
so i guess it's the only song that has been keeping me going(:
and since im done with my work and experiencing a temporal rush of endorphin in my veins because of that,
i decided to post(:
anyway, i would say it's been a productive day.
completed and printed my citation quiz for tomorrow
and uploaded my research on ivle.
it may not seem much but it's actually alot of work.
i spent like hours on them kay XD
okiee now that i feel the endorphin subside,
i've decided that to sleep now is the best choice,
considering that i have to wake up early tomorrow,
not to go to school, but to study anat:(
see see, im so hardworking!
but yeahh that's what everyone's doing now,
even though it's been barely a month since school started,
we're all mugging!
mug, mug, mug!
btw,
i think the person who invented the dictionary function in handphones has just made the world a lazier place.
im sorry but i realised ever since i used that function in typing my smses,
i pay little to no attention to my spelling elsewhere,
so much so that i kept committing stupid mistakes in writing/typing,
at the back of my head thinking that someone/SOMETHING will change the spelling error for me.
it's good, but it just made us more stupid than ever.
i shall switch back to a non-dictionary style from now.
aww.
and my stomach's growling at this point,
to remind me before i ravage through the cabinets to find food,
i had better retreat to me ever welcoming bed.
i can't believe i wrote so much in such a few minutes.
it seems that i've not only matured, ade jung, i've sped up in the things i do hahaha.
usually it'll take me more than 10 minutes to write such a lengthy post,
but now it all seems to piece up and without any intervals,
i've ended my post.
nitenite people(:
-With All My Heart, Alina ;
Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities.
For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next.
But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly.
I came to be me on 10th June 1991.
Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying.
Family and friends are my life.
At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD
Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have.
Now you know how to make me happy.
I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart.
I'm majorly affected by the people around me.
Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse.
Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^
KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY 