Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Clicked "New Post" and realized I've got nothing to post about -.-"

More to come...soon(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Went to bed rather early last night.

Is that why I felt that the night was longer than usual?

I guess it is.

Woke up at 4.22 am covered in sweat.

And in the stillness of the night,

I distinctly heard my own heartbeat pumping rapidly against my chest.

I had awoken from a dream.

It felt so real that for awhile,

I thought I was at peace.

But it didn't take long before everything vanished and I panicked.

I couldn't go back to sleep after that.

Each time I close my eyes I look back into that face I'm too ashamed to face.

I know that the scene in my dream will never come true,

and I wouldn't have that courage to apologize to you in real life.

I thought I had those memories kept away,

locked up in a safe at the back of my head.

But I guess they found a way.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, June 27, 2011

For the first time,

I saved more Junsu pics than Jae's.

Like ALOT more...

He totally owned it.

Like totally.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Bam!!!

First day of the week and how you folks doing?

I guess things are starting to light up for me,

with more stuff to do and more missions to accomplish.

Just completed something this afternoon and is feeling so proud about it heh.

Also,

tuition has resumed as my kid's back from his long trip.

Received his message on Friday that says: "老大我回来了, 星期一补习"

老大 sehh.

This boy damn cute,

though he does gets on my nerves sometimes,

when he doesn't wanna do his work >.<

But I guess,

boys will always be boys.

Sometimes you love 'em,

and at other times you think they stink.

But yes,

now that I'm giving tuition again I feel like I've got...well, just something more to do.

Lol.

But anyways,

I'm gonna get even busier pretty soon,

with camp coming up and stuff.

Ohh well,

will see how it goes^^

JYJ FTW!!!

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Came across so many wonderful quotes today.

And the number 1 goes to:

"People just want us to compromise with the world,

if that will make me lose you,

I will go against the world."

The world is making too much noise lately.

We cannot stop the noises,

but the least we can do is shut them out.

As for number 2,

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for,

the evidence of things not seen"

- Hebrews 11:1

"Always",

to me,

refers to a long, long, long time.

In fact,

it means forever to me.

And forever,

I'll keep that faith.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, June 25, 2011

And To Mr Tang Junhao,

this is for you,

in the case whereby you see this,

I'll keep to my promise for the supper next week,

which we've postponed for God-knows-how-long already.

Yes,

supper next week.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

It's 01.46 am right now and the rest of the family's asleep.

I hadn't thought about posting anything tonight but I couldn't fall asleep and so,

have decided to spend my time here,

in this little happy space,

where I can be, well, just me.

Realize that there haven't been much to blog about lately.

Perhaps because I haven't been doing much either.

Or rather,

because there haven't been anything worth writing about these days,

in my life that is.

And writing about the unhappy stuff just makes me think about them even more than I should.

Yet when the lights go off and the silence seeps in,

the thoughts just come back knocking on my door,

so I guess it's just a matter of time I address them properly,

and give closure.

Since Tuesday I haven't been really happy (as you can interpret from my previous post).

What happened was,

I had a quarrel with my mum,

yes I know, again.

Actually,

my mum and I are very much alike in so many ways.

We share similar insecurities,

similar fears,

and of course, temperaments,

which is probably the reason why our arguments always end up so drastic,

because neither of us want to back down and give in.

Now I understand why pride is deemed one of the 7 deadly sins.

So,

each time we have a quarrel,

neither of us would want to take the first step to patching up.

And even if one of us does take that step,

the other wouldn't know how to accept,

and it may lead to a greater misunderstanding.

Actually,

I wouldn't expect anyone to really comprehend what I'm writing here,

because I myself don't exactly get it either.

It's just complicated.

Is it true that I'll only understand my mother once I become a mother myself?

How long will that be?

How long will it take for us to see each other's views?

Because I'm tired of waiting.

Because I'm trying too,

but I guess it's something she'll never see.

These few nights I kept thinking about what Andy said to me the other day;

that we have to learn to be independent,

to rely on no one but our own.

And he said he doesn't need anybody for company.

What does he mean?

I remember a teacher once taught us: "No man is an island".

And I believe we all get lonely sometimes,

and that having someone to rely on is a comforting feeling.

I don't mean to say I cannot survive on my own,

it's just that I like people's company,

is that wrong?

Sometimes when dealing with this brother of mine I can't help but sigh.

Is he going through what I went through 7 years ago?

The stage whereby-how do I put it- we just want to go against people.

And he's a rather dominant person,

in the sense that he wouldn't let you out talk him.

And even at times when he makes no sense in the things he says,

he would make sure you're the speechless one in the conversation.

Was I like that before?

They say "What goes around comes around".

Maybe I deserve everything that's coming back to me now.

Dad said to not take things too hard,

and I know that being the better person is to live and let live.

Building a family unit is never easy,

and it's giving me second thoughts on having one.

There was a time when I decided to write down all the things I don't like in my teenage days,

so that one day when I become a parent myself,

I will bear in mind not to do the same to my kid.

But right now,

as much as I love children,

the thought of having kids frightens me,

I guess it's too early to be saying things like that,

I'll just focus on what's important to me at the moment,

and that would probably be to seek that closure with myself,

as well as my sleep,

which is equally important to me right now,

judging from the time.

I haven't been good lately,

and I'm sorry for the times when I haven't behaved the way I ought to.

I'll be better tomorrow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And now for the happy thoughts,

in case any of you get the idea that I've been swimming in a sea of misery.

What else could bring me happiness in times like this?

It's funny how something so unrealistic and distant could bring me such joy.

But still,

I'm happy they've become a part of my life,

a dream I can go to at night,

without the burden of the day

-DBSK.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

The most ridiculous thing I heard today:

"If you're hurting you wouldn't be doing this to me"

I have been fine tuned to take everything in passing.

For every word leaving her lips no longer bears meaning.

And that everything she said is out of anger and frustration.

But how long do I have to take this?

I know I must try even harder today.

Try even harder to shut all of this shit off my mind.

Let the music sink in and leave everything behind.

Stop all the voices in my mind before I fall deeper into the abyss of sin.

Pray hard,

pray that all of this stops,

that no one comes in and bothers me.

Linkin Park's music keeps playing in my ears.

The lyrics hitting hard in my mind.

I let the volume take over everything else,

so loud that it'll drown all the noises outside,

so loud it might actually drown the voices inside as well.

But no,

the voices inside my head are domineering.

There're screams,

shrieks,

and yells.

They're calling for me.

They're telling me to let go,

to be free,

to leave this shit.

And I can't do nothing about it.

The only thing I can do now is to not stop.

Not stop typing.

Not stop the music from playing,

and when each song ends my heart skips a beat,

for fear that within that mere seconds of silence,

I might hear more voices from the outside,

for fear someone might call my name,

for fear that someone might notice my crying alone in the room.

What a loser.

Yes,

I can only carry on.

I need to keep typing.

I need to release that negativity.

Because the inside of me is dying to get out,

I can hear her screams,

alongside Chester's yelling voice.

But he's the only person who can tune down this insecurity I'm feeling.

The feeling that I might just do something stupid anytime.

The feeling that I might not be able to keep in.

Let the music blast through my ears,

seep into my mind and shut off everything else.

Let it take over, for now.

Don't ask,

for I don't know how to explain.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Just a while ago my mood picked up.

And before I knew it,

it sank,

deeper than it originally was before.

Why?

Why are happy moments so short-lived,

and we live most of our lives in negativity...

Whatever.

Since I've decided to use the laptop now,

(which was not intended),

I'll just immerse myself in this other world where I find myself a happier person most of all the time.

Initially,

I had abandoned the thought of using the laptop at night since I've to spend some quality time with the family.

But apparently,

the idea of spending quality time is restricted to my mind only.

I just realize no other person in the family feels this need and hence,

forget it I say,

forget it.

It's funny how I am always the person not spending enough time with the family when everyone else simply goes about doing their own business.

It's too late now,

I have my own business to do as well,

so bug off.

Haix.

Maybe all of these anger would have disappeared by the time I wake up tomorrow,

or perhaps even by the time I shut down this laptop,

but right now the flame's burning strong.

Irritated with my mum especially.

But deep down I know I'm just being sensitive and all.

Why do girls have to undergo all these emotional ups and downs?

All those tears for no reason?

Petty tantrums?

All that mood swings and insecurities?

My god.

Sometimes I wish I can shut off that emotional part of me and stop being such a little girl.

My mum had forgotten to apply the zam buk for me earlier and I'm irritated with her.

I know,

it's me.

But sometimes it just irritates me that to her,

only Alicia's leg matters. >.<

Okay it sounds really childish and I'm fully aware that being the oldest I have to be accommodating, understanding, blah blah blah.

But I don't want to be the oldest today,

or any other day that is.

But just for today,

I don't want to be a sister,

I want to be a child;

someone's child.

Haix.

And I don't know why while typing this crap my tears kept falling as well.

Why am I like that?

Alina you're mad.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, June 20, 2011

Sometimes living can be such a burden.

Sometimes I just want to sleep everything away,

wishing that I may dream my time away and when I'm finally awake,

there's not much left to think about since everything would have already passed away.

But the truth is,

no matter how far I run away,

the destination's still the same-

reality.

Such an ugly and cruel place.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Hi,
I've got an announcement to make.
I'M MADLY IN LOVE WITH DBSK.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Guess who?

It's the lips of an angel.

Saved so many photos today,

and realize I am like 8 pages away from the latest updates.

But,

it feels good to spazz everything at one go,

rather than in bits(:

So happy now hahaha :DD

Shall share some of my happiness with you(:

Where did JJ go?

Lol.

They went to Vietnam to attend the Asian Dream Cup and are back today(:

The Asian Dream Cup took place yesterday and I cannot tell you how lucky I feel that I have that KBS channel,

although most of the time the shows aren't very attractive to me.

But yeahh.

I spent the time watching a soccer match I couldn't even understand,

waiting for halftime whereby they would perform.

Initially it was said that they would perform 3 songs but it was reduced to 2.

It's a start though(:

and 2 songs are enough as long as they appear on my TV hahaha XDD

But then,

the sound system ain't all that great and there wasn't really enough coverage for the boys >.<

Ais but a bonus occurred when Junsu played during the last 25 minutes or so of the match!

Wahahaha! The crowd went high and you can hear cheers whenever he had the ball,

like he's already scored the goal.

At that moment I think not many people cared whether there was a goal anymore-.-"

They just cheered whenever Junsu had the ball XDD

Lol.

And I realize not only females want to touch my KJJ,

but even males as well,

regardless of age and place -.-"

Lol.

Zzz. There's no need to touch him like that!

KJJ is loved by all lol.

World peace with KJJ~

And they're back in Korea~

Ahh so jealous of Daphy now.

She can like go send them off and fetch them back every other day at the airport.

*SCREAMS*

All of them looked tired :\

You can rest well for now!!!^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Morning^^

Haven't used the lappy for 2 days and realize that I've missed out on quite a bit,

especially when I haven't visited my Happyland for a very long time (I think Ade Jung knows where. Kekeke XDD I have decided to call that place Happyland :DD)

Ohh and yes,

before I go on to spazzing,

I'll do a post on the day spent with beloved Buddy Wong^^

110611

We went to watch Xmen First Class that day(:

It was a pretty good movie,

even better than The Last Stand I would say.

And to sidetrack abit,

I dreamt of the Xmen last night-.-"

Anyways,

this is our half-eaten popcorn and a quarter-drank ice lemon tea XDD

I was surprised there were so much popcorn left when Buddy was munching and munching and munching away throughout the entire movie,

which lasted for more than 2 hours -.-"

Lol.

And there was alot of camwhoring that day,

ALOT.

As I cannot possibly post all hundred photos up here without risking jamming the system or something,

I'll just pick a number of epic ones to post^^

For more details,

please log on to facebook.com and click my profile(:

As in, my profile, Alina's profile.

Lol.

Yes yes, lame.

Anyway here are some of the photos we took that day(:

BIRTHDAY CAKE!

So cute right?!

Heheh!

I couldn't bear to cut the girl up,

nor eat her >.<

But I did anyway,

or she'll rot in my refrigerator >.<

And so I made another wish that day(:

While waiting for Buddy to finish her dinner,

I played with her camera and took so many artistic photos,

one of them being

THIS!

AND THIS!

I like this one in particular lol XDD

This is one of the best omg O.O

If I'm not wrong,

this is the final "normal" shot we took together.

Warning: The following photos may cause slight discomfort,

especially if you've just had a heavy meal.

You have been warned.

Lol.

I think this is the most common look we flash to each other -> -.-"

LOL.

Demented XDD

The sky is falling~

Another EPIC shot.

For comic relief only,

I am not like that!

LOL.

So are you all shocked by the weird things we do?

LOL.

I shall show you one normal shot then:

TADAAA!

An attempt to salvage my image.

Hahahaha :D

Anyways,

I had a great time that day Buddy(:

And I'll never forget PCN hahaha XDD

Let's go out again soon!^^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, June 12, 2011

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more

Lookin' back on
How it was in years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed

It was songs of love
That I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

Can we not start all over again?

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, June 11, 2011

HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME WITH BUDDY WONG TODAY^^

Will do a full post on our outing soon(:

Right now,

I'm very very absorbed in JYJ's concert in Busan which took place this evening.

Everything's so beautiful and overwhelming I don't know how to express it with words.

All I can say is...

JYJ YOU'RE AWESOME!

CASSIOPEIA YOU'RE AWESOME!

KIM JAEJOONG YOU'RE AWESOME!

PARK YOOCHUN YOU'RE AWESOME!

KIM JUNSU YOU'RE AWESOME!

OMG!

I wish I had special powers that will bring me to them.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

HELLO PEOPLE!^^

I had intended to post this on the 10th itself but because there were some problems with photobucket,

I couldn't upload the photos directly via the internet.

So, being the brainy now-20-year-old me,

I uploaded the photos onto photobucket using my handphone itself.

Hahaha!

Anyways,

even though this may have came a day late,

the feelings are still the same.

And as it's 1.30 am right now,

I may be able to write better with the quietness of the night.

I promised a birthday post,

so here it goes(:

070611

I spent the evening with my girls- Meihong and Vyvy.

Daphy was supposed to meet us as well but because she was ill that day,

she couldn't make it.

I must admit that I was quite disappointed not seeing her,

but health is still most important.

And anyway I know we'll be spending so many more birthdays together(:

Even so,

I enjoyed myself with Meihong and Vyvy just as well(:

We had Swensens that night and it was then that I made my first birthday wish(:

If you had been stalking my facebook,

you would see that there were many shots of this pose taken that day haha!

I think Vyvy shot me with continuous shots and because I took a long time making my wish,

or rather wishes,

it turned out there were about 18 pictures of me with this pose.

Hahaha!

Yeahh anyway,

we had an icecream cake that night,

and they even filmed a video of me unwrapping the presents >.<

Honestly,

I teared up quite abit seeing the presents.

It's not really about the presents but of the love and effort I felt from within.

In fact,

there have been a couple of occasions when I felt so touched by the love received from everyone around me :')

Anyways,

these are what I received from the girls(:

So pretty right?

it looks like a lunchbox to me(:

They were really sweet(:

And these represents the 4 of us(:

How can I not be touched?

Indeed(:

Actually,

this was what got my tears falling.

They each wrote an individual letter to me (except for Daphy cause they didn't get to meet her either, so I'll KIV her letter)

And their words were like candles,

shining their warmth into my heart.

At that point of time,

there was only gratitude.

I had never thought about being able to make such close friends in a place like university,

where there is no certainty about anything,

and everybody's just competing against everybody to reach the peak.

Yet,

here I am,

with one of the finest people I can ever have in my life,

people who I know,

will walk with me through this journey,

through my career,

and through my life.

And I really want them in my life till the very end.

080611

As buddy's working,

she couldn't exactly spend the day with me,

and so,

we spent the evening together instead^^

I went over to Bugis and we had dinner @ Pepper Lunch together(:

Even though it's a simple dinner,

it doesn't matter to me if I were spending with the people I love(:

Afterwards we headed to the street and begun a shopping spree,

at least she did.

And I can't believe we actually shopped till 10pm that day,

the shops were almost closing >.<

Lol.

Buddy didn't post the pictures up on fb and so I couldn't post them here.

But there's still more to come so there's no need to rush ;)))

Just know that I had a great time and I look forward to spending more time together again^^

I LOVE YOU BUDDY!^^

090611 Part 1

Qian-er came over in the afternoon to pass me this(:

It was really sweet of her to be coming all the way here to pass me the gift.

Qian-er is a friend whom I haven't been in contact with for a long time now,

and I'm also ashamed for not being in contact with her as often as I should.

But I have to say,

even though our paths are so different now,

and that the opportunities to meet are rare,

I'll always have a place for this friend in my heart,

because we still have each other in our memories,

and those memories, I know,

won't be easily forgotten(:

Qian-er! I do cherish you!

You know that right?

And I wish you all the best in your future endeavors and that things would work out the way you would like them to^^

MISSES <333

090611 Part 2

How do I begin?

Because with this friend,

there is no end.

The time spent with Ade Jung is never enough,

at least for me,

because there's always something to say,

something to share.

But I know I'll get to say everything,

since we've got forever to spare(:

We had dinner together @ Lailai that day^^

It was really one filling dinner.

We were both so bloated after dinner that we couldn't stuff down anything else.

Ade Jung walked home with me after that.

I think I'm fond of little things as such;

simply walking and having heart-to-heart conversations.

Just like that(:

And I received a meal,

a lovely card,

a hug,

and lotsa love that day(:

I really feel the effort,

I really do(:

To my Ade Jung forever,

I LOVE YOU~

SARANGHAE~

ASHITERU~

TE AMO~

WO AI NI~

5 different languages,

can you hear me?

Hahaha!

Anyways take care till the next time we meet again^^

100611

First of all,

I've got to thank this really important person,

for without her,

I wouldn't even be here in the first place,

receiving so much love from so many, many people.

And that person is my mother.

On this day,

she had to endure so many hours of labor before I could enter this world,

and it was because of her pain,

that I had a chance at life.

So thank you mummy^^

Had a simple celebration with my family today(:

Tadaa!

I had 2 cakes this year hehe :DD

Actually,

I feel very sorry to Alicia.

This cake was made at Icing Room this morning.

Alicia had mobility issues but still she insisted on taking the wheelchair down to JP to do this for me.

Of course,

my mum suffered too,

as she was the one having to do all the pushing.

But I was told that Alicia stood up to do the cake decor.

And when she got tired she had to sit down again,

and then stand up once more,

since the height of the wheelchair couldn't allow her to sit and do.

At that moment I realize how stupid and selfish I had been all along.

There I was, thinking of how my freedom would be taken away from me,

when my sister is there thinking of ways just to make me happy,

even when she's got her own problems at hand.

I am really not fit to be in the position of an elder sibling.

But from now,

I will work hard to be one.

Let's start from here okay?

Anyways she even included this in(:

Today, my love for Jae has to be placed aside for the time being hahaha :DD

But yes,

the bottomline is,

although there will always be times whereby we fight,

although there will always be times whereby we wished the other hadn't exist,

deep down inside,

we know we cannot do without the other.

I LOVE YOU ALICIA,

I REALLY, REALLY LOVE YOU!

And these were some of the presents I received from my family(:

Once again,

it's the words that brought such an impact to me.

I had a shock when I received this!

It's a gift from my dad!

But like ohmygod.

A phone?!?!

Omg I love my dad^^

This is from Andy & Alicia^^

This is just sweet(:

I like the star alot,

like alot alot^^

As for my mum,

she gave me quite a bit of stuff as well,

mainly stuff like accessories and such.

Then there's clothing and shoes as well.

Overall,

I really appreciate everything.

And I know how much I am loved in this unit.

Love is not something we need to say often,

it need only be felt by the heart itself.

And tonight,

I felt it, alot,

and I must have been an idiot for thinking otherwise before.

So in the future,

if I ever complain about not being loved enough,

do knock me in the head please.

Ohh yes, I also met Weicheng @ PM today and he passed me this:

There's alot of things in my mind that I don't know how to say,

but I guess a simple "Thank you" would suffice(:

Overall,

I am really happy,

not just today,

but for the entire week in fact.

Truthfully,

you people are the ones who made this day special.

So I thank every single person who may have wished me in person,

through SMS, MMS, FACEBOOK, TWITTER, or any other form of communication there may be(:

I am really, really happy(:

I guess words aren't really necessary anymore,

because you people should know that each and every one of you is important to me.

If my life's a jigsaw puzzle,

you people would no doubt be the puzzle pieces.

Any missing piece and I would not be complete.

Yes,

that's how important you are to me,

so be sure to keep me in your life.

Anyways,

it's 3am in the morning and I don't know how I survived till this time if not for "In Heaven" playing in my earpiece.

Initially I didn't have much of an impression of this song,

until I heard them sing in Japan's Charity Concert.

It's just... how do I put it...beyond amazing.

I now have goosebumps each time I hear it.

Jaebaby is such a wonderful composer :DD

And I really miss him tonight.

All the best for tomorrow's concert KJJ.

I was so happy to see the "SOLD OUT" today!

You guys own it all mannn.

JYJ FTW! XDD

YAY^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, June 09, 2011

This has been a sentimental morning.

All morning I have been watching vids of the boys,

and came across one with leader talking about the past,

where the boys played in the water together.

Out of a sudden I felt this warm fuzzy feeling,

comforted by the fact that he still speaks of those times,

those precious times.

But afterwards as I scanned through the fansites,

I saw shots of their schedules back when there were 5.

It really was horrible.

They had activities like every single day,

sometimes more than one each day.

And they had to be flying in and out of the country every other day,

so much so that they didn't even have the time to rest.

I never doubted the fact that being an artiste is a difficult journey,

but having to endure all that,

is just not humane.

Saw this in syc and I thought "Leaving wasn't the best option, it was the only option.".

Then,

I came across fan accounts of the charity concert that took place a few days back.

I don't usually spend much time on fan accounts but strangely,

this time I had an urge to read them.

As I read through the fan accounts one by one,

I felt a lump in my throat.

After so long,

they're finally able to perform in Japan.

Jaejoongie was so happy,

and I believe the other 2 were too^^

And I'm also thankful that they received so much love from Bigeast.

The support for them from Bigeast is indeed not to be matched.

Since Tokyo Dome I'm really impressed by their strength.

And I'm glad the boys have that place to go to,

where they will always be protected,

and know that there will always be people waiting for them to return home to.

Please take care of yourselves!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ohmy.

This is sucha fangirl post,

but yeahh,

I'm a fangirl today,

Jaejoongie's fangirl.

Hahaha :DD

Anyway,

I'll do a birthday post soon(:

have got plenty to post about(:

In the meanwhile,

take care everybody(:

P.S I'm in love with the weather this morning^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, June 06, 2011

When the music stopped,

I realized my heart followed.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, June 02, 2011

3 hours ago I posted something about happiness.

Now,

I have my answer.

Jaebaby: "Moving forward in a life wherein you really have to do your best is happiness, let's try our best together!"

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

I cannot tell you how happy I am to be living in a generation in which TVXQ exists.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sometimes I feel as if I were dying.

Other times I feel as if I were dead.

Is there happiness for sale?

If you know of it,

please tell me.

I'm desperately in need.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;