Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Saturday, January 24, 2009

my 200th post...
im guessing it wont be a very happy one lol.
anyways,
im very tired siax.
went all over the place today to deliver new year goodies to my aunts.
i have four aunts lol.
and here's my route:
jurong to cck to woodlands to bukit gombak.
blah. XD
and my shoe was like killing me.
zzz.
intended to hang out with my cousin to shop for his clothes after dinner lol.
then end up my mum say gotta go out buy more new year stuff. -.-"
bleahx. >.<
*moaning-in-process*

and a fire broke out near my block in the early morning today.
it was really bad sia.
almost four storeys are charred along with a bird cage hanging on the corridor.
i feel sorry for the neighbours nahh.
and the poor bird in the cage.
have wings yet cannot fly off T.T
but i heard no human casualities occured.
so thank goodness.

the emotional rubberband is at its limits today.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, January 23, 2009

wahh.
like so long never update liao siax.
no wonder my tagboard abit stagnant lol.
anyways,
as stated in my previous post right.
my computer was not feeling too well lol.
but after a trip to the doc,
he's well now, apparently.
it turns out that he's running low on battery. >.<
oh well.
so let's see...
nothing particular happened this week ehh.
except for two very very depressing tests. T.T
maths in particular lol.
bleahx. >.<
you can see me in the "US" programme for sure. T.T
and then there's the decorate your notice board thingy.
skipped my cca for that lol.
then now im afraid i'll get a scolding. T.T
ais.
and ya.
for some reason,
i feel like im on an emotional rollercoaster lately.
happy. sad. angry. annoyed. happy. sad. angry. annoyed.
sometimes i frighten even myself...
speaking of frighten,
i find myself sleeping into nightmares more often.
it was only last night when i dreamt of virus-infected humans chasing after me. >.<
and i cannot protect the people i want to protect.
i dont like these dreams siax...
on a brighter note,
i went shopping today ^^
my dad bought me more clothes to stuff into my already overwhelmed wardrobe lol.
as quoted from my mum, "if my wardrobe's human, he would have suffocated." -.-"
that's really an overstatement lol. >.<

it dawned upon me that fate indeed has a way of doing things-
make it happen or have it collapse.
sometimes one person really isn't enough to change much.
im beginning to doubt the power in my own hands.
control really isnt within me today.
or perhaps it hadnt been in me in the first place.

do anything but cry alina.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, January 12, 2009

zzz.
something's seriously wrong with my computer lahh.
number one.
he cannot sign in into msn.
number two.
stupid popups are appearing in like every 10 seconds.
and number three.
the machine keeps telling me to send error reports.
blah. >.<
ais.
so much for my very anticipated weekend.
havent even do much slacking then gotta go back school liao.
and "the vicious circle" repeats.
zzz.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

You might think
I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

arghh.
i feel like a walking zombie.
havent been sleeping well lately.
last night in particular.
i was told that i sleeptalked lol.
alicia said i was saying something like "the one i love is not like this..." in chinese.
and then i was mumbling something else incomprehendible.
like what the heck is wrong with me...
anyways, besides stupid nightmares i had,
there's this other problem: i think i woke up at approximately every hour.
like some alarm clock which was not hit in the snooze button.
i guess this "insomnia" pretty much came because andy's heading for his camp today. T.T
he's going trekking up some mountain in malaysia,
which is thrice the size of bukit timah hill lol.
that kiddo did not even once camp out in singapore and now he's going over to malaysia. T.T
so in order to honour his first camp trip,
i woke up especially early this morning specially to see him off lol.
and when he hugged me i was practically a running tap already.
sometimes i really hate this emotional problem.
it rips me of my mood.
anyway,
i'll miss you lil bro.
no one to lame with.
no one to bicker with.
no one to stuff me under the covers at night. T.T
well,
guess i'll have to rely much on homework to keep me occupied and pass my following 60 plus hours.
then there's my pri school chalet,
which im only going for the bbq, i guess. >.<
that wx convinced me to go lol.

and yeahh.
something im really happy about:
i rearranged the setting in my room lol.
it's completely different liao.
now my bed's right next to the window.
and right infront of me is the radio.
instead of that stupid door.
a change in fengshui~
haha.

so now im off to homeworking.
byebye people (:

i see you even in dreamless sleeps...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, January 05, 2009

this is just downright crappy...
all of it just doesnt make sense to me.
who am i doing this for actually...?

-With All My Heart, Alina ;