Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
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Saturday, August 30, 2008

bleahx. >.<
buddy,
you must be enjoying yourself now huhh. >.<
hahax.

okay.
firstly,
i feel the need to say this:
Don't do this.
Don't put on a facade and smile at me.
Don't tell me things you don't mean.
Don't assure me things you can never achieve.
Don't hurt me again like you did.

alrighty.
im done.
and don't question me about that.
i have no wish to explain.

haiz...
there are much running through my mind lately.
and before i can finally sink into the situation,
another comes along.
and right now i feel like a deck of shuffled cards.
all out of place.
i need time.

and george,
im sorry for our conversation today.
im sorry for your pain.
im sorry for your helplessness.
im sorry i was the cause.
im sorry you feel that way.
it's okay.
i am to blame.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, August 24, 2008

it has been raining for a long long time now.
so the sky's been tearing too...
but i like rainy days though.
the weather's fine for cooping up in my room.
anyway,
the weekend seemed to have only just flashed by.
im not all that ready to return back to school really.
and im glad that the holidays are soon to come.
i need some getting away.

原来是这样...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

pw-ing lol...
hahax.
guess im gonna sleep late tonight. >.<
and surprisingly im not very sleepy ehh.
hahax.
im actually quite happy lol.
anyways.
had a chat with buddy today. ^^
lalala.
i find myself so much more updated.
and alittle less troubled. :)
thankyou ahh buddy <333

i don't like the mind games.
i don't like this suspense.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, August 15, 2008

lalala~
SINGAPORE'S TABLE TENNIS TEAM GOT INTO THE FINALS^^
watched the match in school today ehh.
with a group of people in the GO lol.
then got so friggin' high ahh.
nearly got myself a heart attack lol.
and thankyou ahh weijie.
'cause i kept asking him the score then kept hitting him lol.
>.<
aiya.
hope can watch finals in the GO lol.
so cool ahh.
bleahx. >.<

and ohh.
got 3 tutorials to do this weekend ehh.
and im so not in the homework mood ahh.
partly 'cause i want watch "ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni" ehh.
watch halfway halt very uneasy lol.
so i needa spare time out man.
random: i seriously think dylan is a better man and a better choice ahh.
lol.

and ivan.
you owe me one lol.
im gonna do you a big favour man.
lalala.
bleahx. >.<

hmmm.
and yeahh.
'll probably be returning to huayi on teacher's day lol
rather happy actually. :)

another random thought:
i <333 jay.
hahax.
'cause just nice got his song on radio lol.

and lately,
i felt pressured.
i felt pissed.
i felt troubled.
i felt glad.
i felt happy.
i felt sorry.
and there came a time when i felt protected.
even for a moment,
i felt your presence.

"Someone else will hold dear what you don't.
so don't let it bother you man.
'cause it won't be there no longer."

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Monday, August 11, 2008

my love will get you home boy.
my love will get you home.

restlessness is in the air today.
*yawns*
stayed up last night to watch the basketball olympics lol.
and i woke up at a freaking 7+ today worr.
wahhsehh.
im proud lol.
bleahx. >.<

anyways.
im sick ahh.
besides the cough im having now,
im ill and drained.
yeahh.
ill and drained.
im like in some game i don't have control with.
and i certainly don't have control over the End Game button.
and it's making me feel freaking afraid.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, August 08, 2008

chill out.
watcha yellin' for?
i hate it when you hafta yell likethat man.
yeahh.
i hate it.
and FYI.
you're so getting on my nerves.
yeahh.
im pissed.
but im largely pissed at myself though.
for telling you so much when ya don't even get a thing man.
boy am i naive. >.<
so much for my friday.
national day somemore.
bleahx. >.<
im looking forward to a better tomorrow man.
a better tomorrow.

anyways,
that's the pissedoff side of me for you.
and here's the happy^^ side lahh.
firstly,
i <3 RONO TEE ehh.
basically 'cause it's yellow lol.
makes me feel all cheery hahax.
and now im all over yellow. >.<
gosh.
i feel so random.
zzz.
and secondly,
it's a longlong weekend. ^^
so im gonna keep that smile.
and you're not gonna spoil it again. no.

andhorr.
i did something i seriously find dumb yesterday.
i reformatted my phone lol.
yeahh.
reformat.
= delete all current data.
=.="
and to think i did that man.
all my images and messages disappeared into who knows where lahh.
and im left stunned for like 10 seconds. -.-"
wahlao.
then my mama was like "kiang tio hou, mai gei kiang".
zzz.
heng my songs and contacts still inside ahh.
or else...
@$%&*^%^$ !!!
hahax.

and that's all for today.
thankyou and have a nice day lol.
>.<

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

wahh.
im blogging under my block lehh!
hahax.
yeahh.
downstairs worr.
under me block^^
'cause im using someone's lappy lol.
bleahx. >.<

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, August 01, 2008

wahh.
like so long never blog le ahh.
miss me ehh people. XD
hahax.
anyways,
im quite happy today lahh.
'cause i got to celebrate me birthday again ^^
along with jinxian, laypeng and jean.
yeahh.
me 17th birthday lol.
hahax.
but must admit that i was rather touched ahh.
and super duper surprised lol.
'cause initially i thought the cake was meant for jean nia.
and my birthday is like abit faraway lol.
but still,
thankyou ahh 08S07 ^^
for the card and prezzie too.
and we're gonna have our class tee soon le. ^^
i actually suggested red in colour lol.
auspicious ehh.
zzz.
-.-"

ais.
anyways.
im just glad that the weekends are here.
i need some air man.
i need some air.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;