Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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2E1`05
4E1`07
NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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DESIGNER: ice angel

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

yuppedee doo. XD
im done with i&r.
my previous draft had got red ink all over. >.<
man jiang hong, if that's what you call it lol.
ahah anyways,
i think this weekend was rather wellspent ehh.
devoted most of it to music lol.
cannot help it ahh.
recently got lotsa good music. XD
and yeahh.
shadow's discharged.
and other than the fact that he hates taking his medicine, he's actually much better le lol.
XD

i guess i must have really loved you...
and to think i actually still do...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, October 18, 2008

why is there "one good thing after another" and not,
"one bad thing after another"?
anyway,
i think these people are just plain optimistic lol.

and the latest is,
shadow's going for his surgery next week.
yeahh.
surgery.
went to the vet last night.
was told he's growing a tumour.
i didn't know hamsters can have tumours too.
anyway, it's a relief to know he'll be getting some help.
we're checking him in next thursday.
i hope it'll go well.
i mean he's like so very tiny can.
and it hurts to know he'll have needle going into his little body.
before this,
i was silently hoping he'll be taken away if he were to go through any more pain.
cause he was bleeding before we took him to the vet.
and it wasn't the nicest sight really.
so if he were to go through more than that,
i'd rather he'll be taken away...

haix...
in fact,
i already feel more love than i ought to have.
so even if it won't work out,
im glad i still have so many people around.

i don't want any regrets...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, October 17, 2008

why of all places you had to appear right in front of my eyes...
why of all the things you said this had to be a lie.
i was supposed to wipe off the past.
i had intended to let it pass.
but today you made me realise,
certain matters i cannot decide.

a twist in fate
and i became two months late.
i should have told you five years ago.
more than ever, i know i shouldn't have let go.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, October 04, 2008

crap.
restlessness's in the air...
*yawns*
the thought of op is freaking me out.
arghh.
i never liked presentations man...
although i certainly love to talk right.
but presentations're really not mah type.
and did i mention im doing the intro...
*faints*
let's see... i'll need plentiful of guts...
and probably an ampliflier(if that's how it's spelt lol) too...
im hoping october ends quickly...
there's still chinese alevels to go...
and after da saddening chinese promos...
haix...
*disheartened*
and there's i&r to come somemore siax...
o.O
quick quick pass ehh...

went out today to shop fer dumbbells or whatever's it's called fer andy.
that latter want train lol. >.<
i was teasing bout him wanting to impress girls.

saw an old friend today...
it was very much unexpected...
somehow it rekindled something kept away for so long, and so deep.
you look so much happier now...
like i knew you will so long ago...
and im glad to see you doing well...
so well... like it never existed...
and im sorry that, even after so long, i still couldn't find the courage to speak to you...
face to face at the least...
till the next time we meet on the streets again,
goodbye...

jasper, yes, 那时的我, 很快乐...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, October 03, 2008

haiya.
im okay luhh.
just needed to let it out abit.
other than that im alright.

p.s. 明天以后 rocks.
thankyou ahh ade ^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, October 02, 2008

WHAT.A.LIFE
yeahh.
what on earth have i gotten myself into.
and where the heck did i led myself in.
alrighty. all i can feel is stupidity right now.
yeahh. kill yourself alina.
it's not that i don't know.
i know i have to look forward.
i know i oughta be the last person to have that "it's all bad" feeling.
people are facing life a whole lot harder can. i know lahh.
and i know all that's left is to just let it freaking go. let it pass. it's not gonna save anything.
but damnit.
it is there man.
it is there.
and what's worst is.
im the one im upset with.
im the one im frustrated with.
you can't do anything right can you?
i am sorry, but
shit. im not okay.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;