Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

Saturday, July 30, 2011

My favorite companion as of late- books.
It's been some time since I picked up a book to read.
And when I finally did,
that passion for reading is ignited once more.
I don't think reading is a hobby I'll ever get rid of.

This is the book that I've been reading these days.
I haven't finished it but up till now,
I haven't been disappointed,
so it's pretty much a good book(:
And I can't help but mention that the stuff written inside are indeed true.

Love is something we humans are often too selfish to give.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, July 29, 2011

Today just started out wrong.
Wayward wrong I'm tellin' ya.
It's been ages I've been this suay.
And this is my series of unfortunate events:
1. My mum had woke me up slightly later than expected.
2. My dad forgot to charge me phone, somehow.
3. I arrived at the busstop late, and realize I haven't got my wallet in my bag.
4. I phoned my dad and his cell was off. I phoned my mum, not expecting an answer.
And I was right. I didn't receive one.
5. I rushed home and waited like damn long for that lift to come down.
6. I waited equally long for the lift to come up again -.-"
8. When I finally arrived at the busstop 10 minutes later I was running super late and 502 came. The thing is, both of my ezlink cards had insufficient value -.-"
I was like "Uncle! Deng yi xia! Wo yao xia che!!!"
Lol.
I shoulda have killed myself there and then-.-"

And so my Friday started out like that.
Lol.
It's been this bad for a couple of weeks now.
I really shouldn't be doing anything on Fridays >.<
Anyways,
Conventus is officially over(:
No more rehearsals and aching arms from all that carrying and transporting.
But still,
I had a great time and despite all the long hours of rehearsals and everything,
the results were worth it(:
Glad to see both audience and performers enjoy every moment of it.
Also,
this event helped bring the Yr2s and Yr3s closer together due to the collaboration between the 2 cohorts.
I hope we'll be able to establish an even closer unit along with the Yr1s as well(:
Welcome to the family^^
This feeling of belonging,
I wonder,
how long will it last...
Are we together simply because right now,
we are together?
And when the day comes when everyone leaves and moves on to their separate ways,
will we still be as bonded as we are today?
Because this feeling is so precious to me,
I don't want it to end...
This place where I can go to,
these people whom I can turn to,
will I lose them someday?
Surely,
when the day comes,
some of us will fade away,
and I might not be able to remember each and every one of their faces.
So I suppose what's important is right now;
to create more memories together,
such that one day when we look back we can all say "We're all part of this family called nursing".
I don't want to think about what the future may bring,
where our paths will lead,
I just want to live in the present,
as much as I can,
and cherish as much as I can cherish,
today.

Ahhhh and I was so tired that I KO-ed the moment I got home.
And I had a nightmare that we had forgot to bring the props up stage in time >.<
Lol.
It's 12.30 now,
and I guess I should head to bed soon(:
goodnight everybody(:

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Jar Of Hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Listening to TVXQ songs makes me feel like I'm in another world.
And sometimes,
that's all I need to feel.
And that's something only the 5 voices can do.

There're some things that can never be replaced.

I start my everyday with the song "One",
and somehow,
this is the one song that can make my usually grumpy mornings,
well less grumpy(:
Conventus is tomorrow and I've gotta head down really early tomorrow morning,
like 8 am early.
I'm hoping things will run smoothly(:
Anyways,
it's the last week of holidays already.
Come to think of it,
I really hadn't done much at all.
And in a blink of an eye all that freedom is slipping off again.
Honestly,
school wears me off,
even though I enjoy all that company from friends and everything.
But still,
it tires me.
Had a good talk with my tutee today.
We didn't have much to do today and thus began talking about random stuff.
But it was these words that brought us into a whole new level of relationship today.
未来.
I learnt alot about my tutee today.
We discussed about our hopes,
dreams,
and what we would like to achieve in the future.
Surprisingly,
his words reflected strongly of his maturity,
and despite his young age,
he showed me a side that I'm really impressed with.
And it made talking with him a lighthearted thing,
it's as if we're on this same level of understanding.
Of course,
being the kid he is,
there are times when he's rebellious against schoolwork,
but other than that,
I realize he could have known as much about life as any 20 year old teen.
Perhaps it's the difference in culture that sets us apart.
He may not have received a great education since young,
as he was raised in China and came to Singapore only a couple of years ago.
But from what I can see and tell,
life lessons are equally,
if not more important than academic teachings.
I wish I had been so in-control of my life then.
Then perhaps I could have chosen a different path,
and not one littered with so much regrets.
But then again,
I probably would not have met the people I had.
The thought "Perhaps I could/would have met better people in my life" still haunts me frequently at night,
at times when I felt I need more assurance in life.
But instead of looking back,
I probably should look ahead.

Anyways,
the conversation came very abruptly but somehow,
I actually liked where we were heading.
At that point of time,
I realize he's actually the one I feel most comfortable with tonight,
someone I can share everything with,
everything I felt would be too naive to share with the people around me.
And to be honest,
it's nice to have someone I can turn to,
to talk about things like that twice a week,
for 10 minutes or so after the tuition.
It's just like a counselling session.
And I'm glad I can have a part in his life as well,
not as a teacher,
but as a friend(:

This is my first tutee,
and a very special one at that.
I might not be his teacher forever,
but I hope to be his friend for a long, long time.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

"And be kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another."

-Ephesians 4:32

To say is one thing,

but to do is another.

But may the spirit work in my heart and enable me to do what is right.

I believe that in the palm of the Almighty,

nothing is impossible.

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Isn't this just beautiful?

This is my dream.

New Zealand-

a place where I've wanted to go to ever since I learnt of its existence.

In fact,

it's a place I wanted to reside in.

And recently I find myself more and more in love with this place.

The environment,

the working pace,

the life,

it's everything that I could ever want in my life.

And this is a dream that I really want to pursue.

Maybe not now,

not even 10 years from now,

but one day,

one day when I finally can afford to settle down,

this is a place I'll go.

It is like a setting in a dream.

The pastures, the sky, the everything.

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And,

introducing SEXYJAE:

Jaebaby had a haircut and although I don't really take a fancy to it 100%,

he's still hot XDD

I LOVE YOU^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

25072011 marks a very special day.

I was just about to go to sleep and had already laid down on bed.

Then,

I decided to check my twitter one last time.

mjjeje tweeted thrice.

And I got excited,

so I waited for the trans.

At that time I was thinking it would be okay if I had fell asleep first before the trans come out.

But then,

another tweet came out.

And Ade Jung tweeted saying she saw Yunho's and Changmin's names!!! O.O

Lol.

I almost fell out of bed.

This time was more than just excitement.

I feel my heart beating like crazy.

Anyway, I'm now BCLS certified haha,

but this will come later.

So I waited,

I cannot bear to lie down anymore,

I sat up waiting,

and finally,

the trans came.

LIKE OMG SUN.

Mr Kim might have just caused a worldwide earthquake.

“I don’t know if i should say this…but I miss Yunho and Changmin…they are our members no matter what people say and they all know it better than anyone else. people might say I’m being silly…but I miss them after a long time.

— Kim Jaejoong, Twitter

I couldn't really fall asleep after that,

even though I had been so tired earlier due to all that energy depleted in the BCLS course I attended in the day.

It's the first time he mentioned their names.

Not as "other members",

but as "'Yunho and Changmin".

And that alone,

is more than sufficient.

I worried about fanwars as well.

What would the stans say?

As expected this morning when I checked out the comments in jyj-based sites,

it wasn't very pretty,

and i didn't bother to finish reading anyway.

It's nice to read the comments in syc though,

'cause they are people who truly believe in OT5 and are hoping for their comeback.

And one day,

these 5 people are gonna stand on the same stage again.

And when that day comes,

it'll be one of the best days of our lives.

You're a good man JaeJoongie,

they're all good men.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, July 23, 2011

There are good days and bad days.

Unfortunately there are usually more bad days than good days.

And more unfortunately,

today is a bad day >.<

Sucks to be me now.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, July 21, 2011

It's funny how I had the thoughts all sorted out beforehand and when I finally sit down to write,

they get jumbled up again >.<

Must be the songs playing in my headset now.

They really dictate how you may feel at that point of time.

I shall switch to a song of slower pace so that I can write this post in calmness and peace.

Hahaha.

Woke up to a relatively beautiful Thursday.

The weather this morning was brilliant,

and I really love the smell of the morning air,

until it was polluted and corrupted with all kinds of nasty smells,

be it from the vehicles zooming away or from some other place.

As usual, the first thing I did after waking up was check my phone,

for messages,

but more importantly,

for tweets.

And last night,

our Junsu tweeted.

He is the light amidst the darkness.

Believe,

because faith is a very powerful thing.

Even if there may be many more mountains to cross in the future,

we will climb them together,

AKTF.

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Now,

for the less fangirl side of me,

and I can tell you it's a completely different personality.

Haven't been too happy lately.

It's like the peak period for troubles,

not only of my own,

but of the people close to me as well.

Problems just come flooding in.

I finally felt for myself what is "一波未平, 一波又起".

There's the relationship issue going on with my friend,

and sometimes I feel so helpless.

Other than being a listening ear,

I really can't do much for her...

I wish I was better...

And there're the many internal struggles I'm facing.

I'm tired of having to be so cautious of the steps I take,

of the decisions I make.

I want to let loose for awhile,

not having to think of anything else and just be free.

But in reality,

that's not possible for me.

Because one wrong step and I may look back with regrets.

And I've got enough regrets for now.

Sometimes I just wish I'm not me.

Perhaps living someone else's life could be easier?

But then again,

living has never been an easy thing.

Anyways,

life's not all that bad.

There are moments when I felt happy as well,

like last night when I spent the evening with my mum @ Jp.

Like when I can just chill and watch the TV.

Shall just enjoy the rest of my holidays before I go for attachment,

speaking of which is approximately 2 weeks later ohmygosh.

Can I have longer holidays hahaha?

I think I've gotten used to life as a sloth,

waking up at ungodly times,

not having to worry about homework and tests,

being able to sleep as and when I want...

Ohh shucks.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I used to have great aspirations;

having a successful career,

earning lots of money,

living in luxury.

These haven't changed.

Who wouldn't like a life without worries?

But,

as I grow older,

I have other dreams to achieve.

There are people out there who need help,

one way or another.

I don't strive to be a saint,

I'm just another ordinary person trying to make a difference,

however marginal.

I always believed there's a reason I'm in nursing.

And one day I'll make it all worth it,

for I know now where my journey leads.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Disclaimer:

I'm just saying this out of general.

So if you're not guilty,

this blog post shouldn't affect you.

Men.

Boys.

They're all the same.

Don't tell me different,

cause the truth is,

it ain't.

Because of you she's losing sleep.

Because of you she doesn't even have the appetite to eat.

Because of you she's crying alone everyday.

Because of you she's hurting inside on her own.

And what the hell are you doing?

Enjoying life with another chick in your arms.

Damn you, like seriously.

Do you boys/men enjoy doing this?

Lead a girl on and toy with her feelings?

Trample on her heart and leave it to bleed?

Damn.

If you never had the intention to bring her happiness,

don't say things you never mean.

You people utter the words "I love you" like it's some sort of greeting.

You effing flirt with the girl and when her heart's finally yours you effing shove her away like dirt.

Is this some sort of game to you?

Is a girl's heart an effing game field?

Don't say the word "forever" like you mean it.

Because "forever" means a lifetime if you don't know.

And if you cannot fucking deliver,

don't fucking say it.

I effing don't like it when somebody takes my friend for a fool,

especially when you go around breaking her heart like that.

Do you know how much tears she shed?

How many nights she woke up with you in her head?

A close friend of mine was crying to me today telling me all about this a-hole.

This guy had her played like a fool for a year,

going on dates,

sending her gifts,

whispering sweet-nothings,

leading her into thinking they really had a thing going on.

And when she finally plucked up the courage to tell him how she felt,

the shit begins.

She wrote it in the form of a letter but he never gave a reply.

They continued going out after that.

And that idiot had never brought up the issue about the letter.

It wasn't until recently that my friend asked then he gave her an answer.

Guess what.

That bastard's actually dating another girl,

and all this while he had never said anything about it.

And if my friend hadn't asked,

he probably wouldn't have said shit.

You know,

it's perfectly all right to not love a girl,

even though she may love you.

But you fucking take the responsibility to handle it well and not give the girl false hopes thinking that she stands a chance at happiness with you.

Do you know how much courage a girl needs in order to confess to a guy?

And in exchange for that,

you gave her crap.

But the worst part is,

after all the shit you put her through,

you had never bothered to give her an explanation,

the reasons why you would torture her that way.

Not even an apology, nothing.

You lousy piece of shit.

To all the players out there,

I hope you all rot and burn in eternal damnation.

Yes, I said that.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, July 17, 2011

There're just so much going on I don't know where or how to begin.

Perhaps I can only sum it up with this one word: Secrets.

Since when have this started?

So we're keeping things from one another now?

I admit that I've been sensitive with regards to this matter.

And why was I?

Because you're family.

Had you been some other person,

I wouldn't have bothered.

And in exchange for that you must have thought I was having some of my crazy mood swings again.

I have never expected any of you to change because of me,

so don't expect that I can change because of you either.

This all happened because recently,

I realize Andy and Alicia have been keeping things from me.

I know that it's not much of a big deal but such things have an impact on me.

It's like you don't feel as important to the people you deem important in your life.

And the 2 of them were once very important to me.

But now, things have changed.

People change.

We used to be inseparable.

We used to be honest about everything.

We used to be three.

But then again,

they're "used-to-bes".

Turns out I'm the only one who hasn't got past the old times,

the only one who is still living in the memories,

when I should have let them be.

I'm not saying this because I'm still mad at them.

But because I realize it's really time to move on.

There was a time when they took up the center of my life,

but now,

that position has shifted.

I should be living more of my own life now,

not having to be overly concerned with theirs.

I guess I have been doing that for too long now,

so much so that Andy commented that "I didn't know I've got 2 mothers."

Even though it hurt then,

I've come to see that I've involved myself with their lives for far too long,

and it's time I take a step back.

And because of this,

I haven't been nice to my parents either,

especially my mum.

And I'm sorry she had to endure it when she wasn't even part of this shit.

I'll be a good girl now and do my part,

more of a daughter,

and less of a sister (:

And there's the JYJ issue.

This one I really don't know where to begin.

It's like we just got smacked right in the face without knowing any of the shit.

Firstly,

JYJ got cancelled out of KBS Jeju event,

and we don't even need to guess who's behind everything.

And then there's the case regarding the song.

And now my twitter timeline's just spammed.

Everything's such a mess and everyone's confused.

But beneath all of this,

I saw baby's sincerity...

He is the man who,

despite all that obstacles and hindrances,

wants to do the right thing.

And this is why,

we can believe in him,

in JYJ.

SM you can go die.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, July 15, 2011

《你知道我爱你》

你的每个呼吸都让我心动

你的一颦一笑都让我颤抖
远方的你可知我在想你
不管有多少时空阻隔我都不停息

站在雪地的你是多么美丽
你穿着我送你红色的大衣
你对我说今生若不能一起
我愿意开始等你直到我们永不分离

你知道我爱你真心真意
你知道我永远都不放弃
这人世间纷纷扰扰
只有你值得我去珍惜
我知道你爱我胜过自己
我知道这份情此生难寻
这雾已经慢慢升起
我们的爱已变透明
映在月光里

I remember there was one time when I had to listen to this song every night before I could fall asleep.

It's an old song,

like really really old.

But I think listening to old songs have this special effect on people,

like it takes you through a different time and space.

And for me,

I feel a certain peace,

especially when I playback CDs from Westlife or Celine Dion.

Anyways,

I used to like the guy who sang this song- 邱澤

First noticed him when he acted in the drama 雪地裡的星星

Can't believe I still have the disc.

And even though the storyline's kinda lacking and half of the time I don't know what I'm watching,

because of him I just kept watching -.-"

Lol.

Seems like I'm already a fangirl since a decade ago.

Hahahah I also realize I have a weakness for guys who exudes a sad aura and often look like they're gonna fall into depression.

Lol.

Alicia would probably comment that I'm being quite a sadist >.<

But that's just in another world of my own,

in real life it's still better to be with a happier person(:

Anyways,

photobucket worked,

like finally.

But then,

I don't have photos that I wanna post hahaha!

Jaebaby's recent pics ain't very appealing to me,

seems to me that he aged abit.

And his smiles look alittle forced as well.

Ohmyjae.

He's gonna be so much more tired now that he's filming.

Take care baby! <333

Ahhh seems like I'm quite free lately.

Every afternoon passes by in laziness and sloth.

I feel as if all the weight I lost during camp has been returned,

by the double.

And I ate Mac for lunch today,

all the more sinful ;(

But then,

I'm gonna be washing my hamsters' cage later on in the afternoon.

So that's something to occupy myself with(:

Awww this is such a random post hahaha.

I just dumped everything that's on my mind,

so it's all kinda jumbled up.

I did try to make it flow as much as possible.

Ahhhh it's so long for now,

I gotta get busy!

Seeya all soon^^

And ohh yes,

I'm watching HARRY POTTER tomorrow!

I think it'll be so epic I'll watch it again and again.

Gosh gosh gosh XDD

Can't wait.

Tatas people! XDD

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I N S P I R A T I O N - less

I want to be doing something productive today.

But,

unfortunately,

nothing comes to mind when the word "productivity" is mentioned.

Let's see,

I have already packed my wardrobe,

cleared my drawers,

rearranged my shelves,

and tidied my bags,

what else can I do?

I'm actually quite sick of being a couch potato but I don't wanna go out either.

I wanna do something productive at home hahaha.

And I'm guessing blogging ain't gonna add to my productivity either.

Ohh shucks :/

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Ohh Alicia's home!!!^^

We gonna do more packing today wahahaha XDD

I love packing.

Like love.

It relieves my stress and makes me feel good hahaha XDD

So bye bye.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Being alone can be such a bore sometimes.
But recently,
I began loving the times I get to spend on my own.
Just myself,
the music player,
a pen,
and a few pieces of paper.
I took up writing again.
The first piece I wrote today was a letter to myself.

It may seem foolish,

but I deem it necessary.

To the 40 year old me,

if you are reading this,
it must have meant that the world has yet to end.
Thank God for that.
So, how have you been doing?
I would expect a lot of changes in life by then,
besides the extra wrinkles and accumulated fat.
Other than that, are you doing well?
I'm guessing we would have gotten married by then.
Is he a good man?
I haven't got much faith in that something called love,
but if you had chosen to say yes,
then he shouldn't be all bad.
I'm hoping we've got kids too.
3 is the max,
did you go further than that?
But then again,
2 is alright as well,
considering the soaring costs of living.
Whatever it is,

just don't grow old alone.
And how's mum and dad doing?
I hope they're healthy and well.
They ought to have retired by now,
hopefully.
Unless the government decides to raise the retirement age again.
I hope mum isn't working anymore,
she should be enjoying life by now,
going on holidays and spending time with the kids.
Did you do that for her?
And dad's probably working as a volunteer in a church.
Are you doing volunteer work as well?
I can picture their happy faces even with the grey hair and perhaps loose teeth.
As for dad he must be bald by now.
But even so, by the grace of God,
he'll be a man of peace.
The other 2 must have started a family of their own as well.
Are the 3 of us still as close as we are now?
Even though we each must have gotten our own lives by then,
I hope the relationship stays.
Did we keep that promise to have family gatherings every week?
Do we still eat Milo cereal together while watching TV?
And how about work?
Are you still working as a nurse?
I guess we aren't working in a hospital anymore.
We wouldn't last night shifts for long hahaha.
But, never stop giving, I hope you remember.
And yes, did TVXQ come back as 5 again?
And are you still a fangirl as you were 20 years ago?
But then again, a voice in my head has already given me the answers.
I hope you were there to witness that glorious moment when they returned.
And our friends,
do you still meet them?
20 years is a long time...
But don't forget the people you once said "Friends Forever" to.

Give these people a call now.

Lastly,
take care of your health.

And, even though you're 40 now,
and there must have been times when you felt that time has taken a toll on you,
such that living was a burden,
don't forget that you're never alone.
So, don't ever, ever give up.

P.S I hope you're braver now than you were 20 years ago.

Don't be afraid to chase the dream you once forgo.

It is about time now.

Love,
the 20-year old me.

Have you ever wondered what you would be like 20 years from now?

Will you have accomplished what you had set out to do years and years before?

Will you still be able to recall the little details about life as clearly as you do today?

It matters to me,

if I had lived my life the way I planned to live,

if I still keep in mind the important things.

Because the battle with age and time is one we can never win.

And one day,

my memory will take its toll on me.

But I want to remember,

everything's that's important to me.

So who else better than myself to remind me.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Okay photobucket has officially pissed me off.
BIG TIME.
Been trying for so long now and that damn thing just wouldn't load my photos.
Freak it.
But then again,
this hasn''t been my day at all.
Right from the moment I woke up I knew it wasn't gonna be a good day for me ;(
Like damn.
Why do all of these only happen to me?

But whatever.
I'll calm down and try to do up a good post.
I'm using Free Image Hosting right now.
I hope this thingy works :\
Gosh can't help my cursin'.

Alrighty I shall begin:

050711

"Confidimus autem de cura" (literally means confidence to care)-
the theme for Nursing FOC 2011(:
It's been a good 4 days and I believe everyone,
both seniors and juniors likewise have bonded in ways we never thought we could.
For the juniors,
new friendships were forged,
and for us seniors,
I guess our bond with one another became stronger as well.
It's difficult for me to write down in detail everything,
cause there're just so much memories and also feelings that I don't know how to describe in words.
Shall post some of the pics taken from the camp then(:

This is the first day in camp(:
While the Yr 1s are getting to know each other through games and icebreakers,
some Yr 2s are camwhoring...
Ooops XDD

Also on Day 1.
Meimei and myself are station masters in charge of a game called "Happy Bunny".
Very disturbing experience.
Very.
And not to mention, stinky as well.
Check out all the food on the table that's not to be eaten.
You'd get it.
And yes,
I learnt how to play Monopoly Deal from Meimei that day too!^^
Day 1 was mainly about getting to know one another and warming up for the days that follow(:
The 198 spent the night at Daphy's house that day.
We should have more sleepovers in the future hahaha XDD

The night passed by too quickly and before we knew it,
it was morning.
Had to report to West Coast Park by 8 that morning and the 3 of us woke up around 6,
washed up and walked over to the Macs @ WCP for breakfast.
It's been a long time since I had breakfast @ MacDonalds and it was so enjoyable kekeke XDD
Best.
The weather's really insane that day.
And I can't tell you how thankful I am for not being one of the players on the field.

So while the OGs are playing out in the field,
we were slacking in a corner hahaha XDD
After the morning sports games we headed back to the hall where they played water games.
Pretty fun I must say.
But it's also pretty gross as well;
with all that tomato sauce and stuff...
Again,
I'm thankful I'm a senior wahahaha XDD

We decided to stay in hall that night cause they had a room to spare and so Daphy and I shared the room.
Lol.
I'll carry those memories of us to the grave.
Epic moments.
Epic.

Day 3 started really early too.
First I was stationed at HPB and then we headed off to Sentosa.

With Daphy, Meimei and Lanelle^^

The weather's just as bad that day.
I was tanned TTM.
The sand was like burning and I salute all of those who played that day.
It wasn't all that smooth sailing cause one dude dislocated his jaw.
But thankfully,
nurses are forever prepared and so the medical team took care of it and he was back later that evening.
We had finale night that evening and it was epic fun.
Everyone was so damn high we were dancing like nobody's business.
Lol.
And at the end of it all we were all so tired we headed to bed at around 3am while some of the rest (mostly the Yr !s and their OGLs) continued to party on their own.
Chatted quite a lot with Daphy that night and I probably told her some of my deeepest secrets in my blurry state.
Lol.
And the day ended with laughter,
and more laughter.

Day 4 came quickly.
It was mainly about handling out prizes,
thanking everyone involved,
and loads of phototaking.
Overall,
it has been a satisfying experience.
I wasn't in the least interested about participating in camp at all due to all the workload.
But in the end,
it was worth it all.
To see the juniors unite in such a way reminds me of my own camp a year ago.
I hope this bond continues on for a long long time,
such that one day we can call ourselves one.

The SENIORS(:

Even though camp has now ended (and I'm glad it did),
the journey has just started for them,
and I hope that they'll be able to find strength in one another in times of distress and come together in this family of nurses(:
I'm aware that nursing wasn't the first choice for a handful of them,
but they'll learn to love it,
if they can see,
the rewards behind the giving,
just as we did(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, July 08, 2011

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO~

OHH YEAHH :DD

IM LIKKA BACK! :DD

Even though it's merely been a few days I feel like I've been gone for a damn long time 'cause the day in camp was much longer than the time I spend awake at home >.<

I'll do a full post soon after I've recovered from this post camp syndrome.

God all my muscles are aching >.<

And the weather's not helping,

I'm feeling alittle feverish >.<

Was supposed to go out tonight with Shus but because I'm likka cui right now I had to forgo the meeting >.<

Ahh shall stop end here for now,

me can't think well.

AND OMG CAMP EFFING ROCKED.

DAMN I LOVE NURSING.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, July 03, 2011

Hello hello^^

Haven't come in for a couple of days and there's like a number of updates to go through heheh.

First of all would be Mr Junsu's soccer match and xiahzart updates.

Even though he's not my bias but I can't help it if my eyes just dart off naturally in his direction,

all thanks to his hair-.-"

And the moves on the field...

like omg awesome.

A guy who knows sports really have plus points hahaha.

And then there's Jaebaby's new drama teaser.

Awww my love's so cuteee cannn,

and I can't wait for it to air kekeke :DD

Other than that there hasn't been much,

cause Mr Xiah took up most of the headlines in the fansites hahaha XDD

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And now,

let's talk about my life.

Went for FOC final briefing yesterday,

learnt the mass dance and felt my muscles tearing apart.

Went JP with mum and dad till late evening and turned in really early last night,

like 9.30pm-early.

Lol.

And today,

today felt like a pretty long day,

but satisfying(:

Spent the morning and mostly afternoon with my family,

while the evening was spent with my beloved BUDDY^^

Celebrated her birthday,

took many crazy photos on our way back and tadaa!

That marks the end of my day kekeke^^

Will post pictures soon!^^

Hope you enjoyed yourself today buddy,

I know I did, like always(:

Ohh and yes,

"A Young Man After God's Own Heart",

this is a book that I've just read and will be reading in the days that follow.

Realize I haven't been doing much reading lately.

In fact,

other than Anatomy & Physiology,

I haven't been doing much reading for a long time >.<

I need to read!

Recommendations anyone?

Anyways,

Andy received that book and out of curiosity I went to read a bit.

Even though it's just one chapter,

I've already found the book inspirational.

I believe the rest of the journey would be just as enriching and inspiring(:

Sometimes,

reading books meant for the soul could be good for the body and mind as a whole I believe(:

Because more often than not we're so occupied with dealing with our physical self that we neglect the spiritual body,

which needs to be nurtured as well.

Anyways,

grab a good book today people!

You never know what you can learn from it^^

Ohh and yes,

the week ahead will be a busy one for me.

Tomorrow will be spent mostly on packing and stuff.

I'll be giving tuition at night so yeahh,

busy busy me.

But I'll be taking time out in the morning to spam finish the Family Outing vids I wanna watch since Friday,

since I wouldn't be able to watch any of it for the rest of the week :(

Come Tuesday it'll be the start of FOC 2011^^

Gotta report @ Sheares Hall by 8 am and that's when all the fun begins lol.

I heard seniors aint gonna get much sleep so good luck to me.

This time round camp's gonna last 4 days and so I'll be back only on Friday.

As we're breaking camp at 12.30 noon,

it'll be 2 plus when I finally reach home.

And the best part is I promised Shu Huey I'll go for a gathering with her on Friday evening,

so yes,

I'll only get a good sleep at around 12 plus on Friday.

Ahhhh....

Lol.

Despite all that sleep I know I wouldn't have,

camp's gonna be a blast hahaha XDD

We have positive attendance,

positive people,

and most importantly,

positive energy!

Speaking of which,

I have to replenish my energy right now.

I'm heading off to bed people.

You folks have a good week ahead and I'll update again soon when I'm back^^

ANNYEONG^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;