Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Wednesday, August 25, 2010

yay time for another not-so-frequent entry(:
im pretty satisfied with the way things have been going.
i feel like im living another life altogether,
one that is inspired to serve.
and im glad that this is where my path leads me.
may i continue to have this strength to move forward in my direction and to keep the faith(:
anyways,
did a blood glucose test during lab session yesterday.
we were supposed to have our fingers pricked in order to draw blood for the testing.
and yeahh we all took turns to prick our friends.
it may sound sadistic but it's all part of the learning process.
cause we know how it feels like to be the one being pricked and the one pricking somebody else.
rather than we poke ourselves. ><
ohh initially i thought it would hurt man,
as in the injection hurt.
but in fact it's just a temporal prick.
still, i was shunning away from the needle so much that my tutor had to come reassure me lol.
i think i did better with the pricking somebody else part(:
and yes, we're having a field trip to the healthzone tomorrow^^
sounds like a preschool kinda thing
but im actually quite excited^^
i remember the last time i went was when i was barely 13 i guess?
yeahh it was so long ago i can't even remember.
so im looking forward to tomorrow, even though it's gonna be a long day.
8 to 4 i guess.
gotta wake up at 5 :(
and is it just me or we're all getting busy?
i've got projects flooding in already.
1) active ageing project discussion dateline tomorrow
2) 2 reflective journals on monday; one of them graded.
and my most infuriating citation quiz, which thankfully, is 3/4 complete.
time to get my engines roaring.
okiee i shall end here for now.
i hope you're all doing well(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, August 19, 2010

helloooooo:)
havent been able to post as frequent as before,
that is, as compared to the past couple of months,
when i posted like everyday. XD
yeahh cause uni life isnt exactly that slackish for me, unfortunately.
but i'll post whenever possible:)
my blog isnt the only thing i feel like i've grown apart from.
there's my family too, especially from andy and alicia.
sometimes i feel im not as important to them as they are to me.
i guess, that happens.
but i've learnt to take it in my stride.
and like i said "not caring is my best possible defense".
anyway,
im having anat and physio later in the afternoon.
it's a love-hate relationship between me and these two.
i love it cause i took bio before and it's not all alien to me, which makes me feel slightly reassured.
i hate it cause biology had never been my best friend and although i've had it since sec 3,
i never really was in love with it.
it was just a subject i had to take to advance to the next level.
but ultimately,
when im in the final stage of my academic life,
im still taking bio,
which i swear i never thought would happen.
ohh well, you cannot have your cake and eat it.
Lol.
sometimes i wonder,
what's the point of having a cake but not being able to eat it?
then what?
let it rot there?
hmm. then i'd rather not have the cake but eat it.
i wonder who came up with that... strange.

ahh lately,
it's been decisions, decisions.
i've been trying to make up my mind for a very long time now.
yes or no?
even though there's no wrong or right.
sometimes, i want to be really quick and decisive,
but also, sometimes quick and decisiveness lead to bad consequences.
but i don't want to be wishy washy either,
for in the end, the impact only stays deeper and lasts longer.
i know how it feels, so i'll never want to repeat it on you.

i guess i shall just end off here.
getting ready to head to school.
1pm till 6 today, without breaks.
lol.
i think im attaining my immortality liscence soon.
havent been eating correctly these days,
not like it's a good thing,
no one should be skipping meals btw, especially the most important one - breakfast.
and i've only skipped it once, that is, yesterday,
when i was rushing like crap,
which brings me to the topic of how irritating it is when lecture notes are to be printed on our own,
and when there are like 74 slides in one file,
this, i shall elaborate (rant) further in my next entry.
till then,
eat right and take care^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, August 14, 2010

time flies and it's been more than a week since my previous entry.
and also the end of my first week in school(:
honestly speaking, the week had raised much uncertainties in me.
i was actually questioning myself if this was really the path i want.
but yeahh im coping.
i guess i can only move forward(:

friends are one of my greatest assets,
for without them,
i wouldn't be where i am(:
thanks(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

TUESDAY a.k.a FLAG DAY(:

i've done flagging before but nothing can be compared to what we did yesterday.
thank god for the weather.
although it had been really really sunny,
but at least it didnt pour(:
which would've been awful.
anyway,
our group was positioned in harbourfront,
which was convenient since it's just a 15-minute busride from nus.
so we stayed there from 8.30 to 12 noon.
it was there where i felt extremely unlikeable.
Lol.
people were treating us like plagues,
while a majority of them would pretend not to see us at all.
but there were a handful of kind souls though.
even so, my impression of office people (a majority) remains perfectly intact;
a bunch of proud and arrogant people;
living as though their time is most precious ><
apparently, we couldnt achieve much at harbourfront,
so devon and me went to join the others at telok blangah crescent
where they were flagging from door to door,
which is why i mentioned about flag day being different.
i've never done or even thought about doing flag from units to units in residential areas before!
it was a much better way, i must say.
and the residents are way better than those we met on the streets man.
they were friendly and more than willing to donate.
one incident that touched me was when an ah ma came down to look for us and offered money to buy us drinks.
we rejected the offer of course,
but it made me see that even the elderly holding on to a walking stick bothers to take the time to do a little something for charity.
to those healthy and self-obsessed group of people who thinks that stopping for 5 seconds to do a donation is a waste of time, shame on you.
and so we did flagging for an effing 8 hours ><
afterthat my hip felt as if it's gonna disconnect from my waist any moment.
i was already rather tired before that cause i stayed overnight in school on monday.
and considering that i didnt sleep at all, i was already dying by the time i got home yesterday.
bathed, dined and crashed till 11 this morning.
although im still aching, im fully energised(:
can't wait for RAG Day this friday(:
my schedule for the remaining week is pretty packed btw;
although im not certain if im going,
im scheduled to return to school to help out in last-minute RAG stuff.
RAG Day on friday,
popo's house on saturday(:
and movie on sunday.
im watching airbender by the way.
free tickets from my mum's workplace.
so no harm catching it.
i don't know if im hanging out with ivan afterthat.
TBC then.

check out the time and we're having mcdonalds XD

happy stayover(:

that's it then.
have a good day people(:

guys who are gentlemanly are indeed more charming(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, August 01, 2010

ahh freak.
i posted a considerably long post a while ago.
and the body just evaporated.
what the hell.
blogger should keep up with the times.
i might just switch to myspace.
grrrr. >.<

-With All My Heart, Alina ;