Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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2E1`05
4E1`07
NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

DOWN MEMORY LANE

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DESIGNER: ice angel

Brushes: aethereality.net

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

what am i doing
i want you near
and yet...

wo de xin, ni dao di dong bu dong...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, March 15, 2008

hey people.
i wouldn't be able to use my phone for the time being ehh.
'cause i misplaced my charger and the batt is now flat lol.
so till i get to replace my charger,
don't contact me through my hp arr. >.<

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

please
i don't want to be part of this.
this game you're playing.
it's hurting us both.
it's beginning to strike fear in me.
how am i to have you understand.
we will not go beyond that line.
please...
loosen the grip on me.
leave me some air.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, March 06, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN WEN~
^^

many more birthdays coming up...
im going broke lol...

it's pressurizing.
it's wearing me out.
how can i let you see
without even hurting you
that we cannot be.
im really sorry...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, March 01, 2008

woke up real late today...
in fact i wish i hadn't woke up at all
honestly,
i really didn't want to open my eyes...
last night was a torture
my body felt weak
i was really tired
but i couldn't get to sleep
and when i did,
i would jerk up again out of a sudden.
my soul was neither here nor there...
im afraid...

got lost in deep thoughts last night
and in the morning
i realised i've lost faith in the thing i've so believed in
perhaps it wasn't even real.
perhaps i only chose to believe it 'cause it was the motivation for me to move on happily.
the truth is
i've let myself fall in.
and im the cause of whatever im feeling right now.
im the knife going through my heart.
i know it.
perhaps i've known it long ago...
just that i chose not to see.

it is a pain.
like tongue on ice.
i see the pain love can bring.
and now im unsure of my next move.
please...
i'd rather not have you than have you and then lose you.
so please don't love me and allow me to
unless you know you won't leave me behind
'cause i know i won't be strong enough then...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;