Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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2E1`05
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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

DOWN MEMORY LANE

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Saturday, June 28, 2008

ohh i spent the longest time alone today.
and maybe it's just what i need.
sometimes it seems to me a good thing to get away from people for awhile...
ohh and sorry ahh george.
'cause my phone didn't tag along today lol.
anyway,
intended to blog last night de.
but i spent the entire evening on 6 episodes of some drama series my mama rented instead.
mygod.
and can't believe i actually survived till 2am lol.
i recall being so tired i wanna cry already. -.-"
but for some reason i felt rather frustrated and upset afterthat luhh.
i was definitely not emo lahh.
anyway andy and alicia were still playing luhh.
i didn't want to talk.
i didn't want to see.
i didn't want to sleep. -.-"
so went to my dad.
one thing 'bout my dad is that his words have got this cooling effect lol.
and by the time i went back into my room the lights were already off.
crawled onto bed.
laid there.
listened MP3.
eyes stinged.
tears flowed.
and i dreamed...
yi shui jiu shui dao tian liang lol. >.<
woke up at 12plus ahh.
yeahh yeahh.
im stunned myself. -.-"
andthen jiu went out.

ais.
actually it doesn't really matter anymore,
actually i don't really matter anymore.
it's been quite awhile,
it's been perhaps too long.
alittle teary,
alittle weary.
so finally,
it's farewell from me.

GOODBYE TO YOU

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, June 26, 2008

urghh.
just realised i've got myself an ulcer lol.
painpain lahh.
not to mention irritating. >.<
it hurts when i talk.
it hurts when i drink.
it hurts when i chew.
eee.
'cause i kinda skipped lunch today,
then was rather hungry when i got home de norr.
but mr ulcer here made me lost all appetite. >.<
urghh.
hurry and heal.

and ohh.
i feel so awful today luhh.
mainly 'cause of the chem test lahh.
arghhh.
didn't really study yesterday lol.
sigh sigh.
yesterday at 8.30pm i was already yawning like mad lol.
ermm.
so i decided to rest awhile norr.
thought awhile wouldn't hurt much mahh.
so at 8.30 yesterday... ...
me: ehh andy. wake me up at 9 later ahh. i want study.
andy: ya ya.
at 9.
andy: oi. wake up. 9 liao.
me: hurrr. 5 minutes lahh.
andy: wahlao.
and the above process went on till bout' 9.40 i think. -.-"
i woke up,
and sprinted for my own bed. -.-"
'cause i was sleeping in my daddy's room then.
arghh.
so the point is i didn't study for chem lahh. >.<
arghh.
shall drown myself in coffee next time if i have to.

urghh.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, June 21, 2008

o.O
i just got to know my timetable for monday lol.
according to the message i received,
8.00 to 9.30 - bio practicial
9.30 to 10.30 - break
10.30 to 11.30 - maths lecture
11.30 to 12.30 - civics
12.30 to 1.00 - break
1.00 to 2.00 - GP
2.00 to 3.00 - maths tutorial
3.00 to 4.00 - pc
wahhsehh.
im feeling goddammn stressed right now.
just realised there's gonna be a chem tutorial test when school starts.
just realised photosynthesis is in the bio test.
just realised im so dead.
and avril lavigne's singin':
and everything's a mess~

wahlao.
if time is gonna stop oneday,
let it be now lahh.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

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alina.taoyan.nic. ^^
taken at settler's at holland v there.
good place to relax lehh.
got all the games you can find.
hahax.
and i love the fries. ^^

and horr.
i haven't got to know my new timetable lehh.
feels rather uneasy siax.
cannot pack bag lol. >.<
ehh.
i want pack bag lahh.
i want pack bag.
-.-"

and i haven't read through organic chem.
and i haven't finish studying for bio test.
and i wanna watch tv for the whole of tonight.
and i am seriously out of time.
and i wanna die. >.<
mygod.

on a postive note,
i think i spent almost all of my assets yesterday lol. -.-"
ehh shopping relieves stress lahh.
and i believe i've contracted the "gotta shop like mad before school reopens" virus.
im losing it.
lalala.

hahax.
and buddy,
here's life to my post:

life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life
life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life.life

100 lives lehh.
gosh.
more than the lives of 10 cats lol. -.-"

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
yesterday~
all my troubles seemed so far away~
mygod.
now i've lost it. -.-"

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, June 19, 2008

arghh.
of all times photobucket has to be under maintenance when im doing uploading.
>.<
RAHHHHH!!!

and it's one of those restless days...
one of those "what am i doing?" day...
when everything just falls out of place.
arghh.
and there's nothing on the tv norr.
i've been switching channels sitmultaneously for like god knows how long.
and the weather's so hot.
and my brother's playing his PS3.
and my mama's kajiao-ing me.
hahax.
this is called finding bone in an egg lol.
aiya.
i want eat icecream luhh.
arghh. -.-"

painful as it is,
alina says byebye to
- daydreaming
- latenights
- slacking
- sleeping till the sun's right above me head
- sitting on my sofa watching tv and munching on potato chips
- just doing nothing
- my dear, dear holiday >.<
*sniff sniff*

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

ALINA SAYS THANKYOU TO:

BUDDY! <333

SOOKYING!
QIAN!
AI'DE!
SHUYEE!
CHARMAINE!
SHIRLEY!
TAOYAN!
SHENN!
STEVEN!
WEICHENG!
ERVIN!
JINWEN!
EUGENE!
JUNHAO!
GEORGE!
PARTNER!
NICHOLAS!
SHAWN!
JOEL!
ROYSTON!

AND TO ANYONE I'VE LEFT OUT HERE,
I STILL THANK YOU LUHH. ^^

ohh.
andand.
i realised only yesterday that today's justin's birthday as well lol.
LOL.
hahax.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN! ^^

anyways,
im happy luhh.
and may i remain this happy for a whole lot more "365 days"

BUDDY,
thank you for everything luhh.
you've never failed to make me feel so loved and special. ^^
and that little something you placed outside my house today,
along with all the surprises,
im touched luhh.
but because of your very presence,
im more than happy already. ^^
*hugs*

lots of love,
KID

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

before i begin lol,
HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN TO SOOK YING ^^
sorry i couldn't turn up today ehh. =(
anyways,
hope you had fun ^^
andand,
a little something for the birthday girl:

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a 3 layer cake lehh.
ohmygod.
hahax.
okay luhh.
im so not good at this.
the mouse is hard to control kays. >.<
i can do so much better with a pencil lol.
anyways,
happy birthday sookying! ^^

and yes!
i've succeeded in conquering mr written report ^^
oh boy am i happy.
hehex.
and i rewarded myself with icecream today. ^^
it's about time lol.

hahax.
and i've been busy helping andy with some history project thingy.
i must admit,
im a nice sister lol. >.<
hahax.
he will get an 'A' man!

hehex.
and i miss you too buddy! ^^

hahax.
im a happy girl. ^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;