Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
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SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
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Saturday, March 31, 2007

hahax.
found out something new to play.
okays.
i seriously think that i'm slow luhh huhh.

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introducing dusty. lolx.

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and the famous DOODOO. lmao.

this is fun. ^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, March 30, 2007

konichiwa.
hahax.
i'm home early today.
despite the heavy pour huhh.
if fact i don't even know what for.
i just wanna get home luhh. >.<

yupp yupp.
mood's been in negative mode lately.
especially at home.
i get supremely frustrated at times.
and the slightest irritation can make me wanna kill someone.
ohh man.
i want my life back luhh...

and yes.
2.4 km run today.
energy draining to the extreme.
but worthwhile though.
especially when you're in it with a friend. ^^
afterwhich was physics.
apparently.
i was already half-dead even without listening in to the lesson.
and there's amaths test.
well.
it's one test i'm bound to flung.
*crosses fingers*
anyways.
chinese test returned and it's 16/20 hahs.
so i guess that's one thing to be happy 'bout bahh.
it's chicken rice for lunch and home sweet home.
andy and alicia were somewhere in dreamland when i got home.
-.-" it's a simpler life out there.

and also.
on my NO. 1 WANTEDLIST is a da DOODOO.
so i think piggy has got to spare me some coins.
[piggy's my lil bank.
got him from adeline for sweetfifteen.
muackiies ^^]

random thought: i wanna keep farm animals.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

edited version:
SWEET SIXTEEN TO IRA, FIONA AND HUILI!
stay happy people ^^

[currently homeworking]

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, March 23, 2007

o.O i'm so gonna miss my buddy luhh.
she's off to camp.
and is only back on sunday.
so that = a stagnant tagboard + a lonely me.
awww. >.<
but anyways.
just hope she does takkaires.
bet she's gonna have so much fun luhh.
eeew...
and you'd better miss me buddy.
'cause i will too. ^^
or else...
hahax.

and yes.
had pe today.
it was our all-time favourite 2.4 km run.
and i really felt like dying after the entire thingy.
besides the pressure up in my head,
i practically don't feel anything. o.O
lols.
then we had lessons, lessons and lessons.
till the end of da day.
and completed my ss homework in school.
then hung around with qian and clarence.
got home at 'bout 4 plus?
missed 2 buses while at the lights.
eeew.
super long wait after that lorr.
nevermind.
hooked the com as soon as i got home hahs.
'cause i promised qian to tag huhh. -.-"

yupp yupp.
i hope buddy enjoys herself and that she'll takkaires. ^^
also.
i hope qian will feel better luhh.
food poisoning she got there.
don't know what on earth did she ate luhh.
but just get well huhh. ^^
*TICKLES QIAN*

if there's one thing in this life that i regret,
it would be leaving you...
wo hai hen ai ni...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Sunday, March 18, 2007

i see the change.
and i feel your hurt.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

11.55 in the morning
and i've got nothing to do.
except for that homework lying on that table there luhh.
sianx. o.O
been 3 days since i last set my fingers on da keyboard.
was out luhh ya.
it's a family thing lols.
*recalls*
hmm.
daddy went for his eye check on friday.
all's fine.
but considering he's had 2 operations before,
it's thank god.
and we went imm.
did groceries.
did shopping.
mi and andy were fooling about luhh.
[we never had a thing for grocery shopping lol]
so we played spy. -.-"
it's a game of tailing people.
but apparently,
we were spotted.
nevermind.
then it's home sweet home. ^^
yeahh.
i slept like a log on friday night.
till 11.45++ in da morning.
i was amazed myself lols. o.O
but mi had a sweet sweet dream luhh.
it's something 'bout mi taking a mrt to england.
and to disneyland. ^^
okays.
it's a dream alright.
and off to cck.
'cause andy wanna play his arcade game.
then mi shun bian go walk walk luhh.
returned home at 'bout 6.
did some of mi homework and it's tv for the night.

came across this quote on the webby:
I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
It's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
That love is real, and exists in me.
- Chris Farmer -

[HE'S MY MAN]

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Thursday, March 15, 2007

finally.
my computer's revived.
he d/c-ed 3 times yesterday alright.
i was like signing in and out of msn loads of times.
*real irritating manx*
and he finally went into coma at 'bout 12.15 yesterday morning.
haish...
i've gotta send him for extreme makeover soon.

anyways.
went shopping yesterday.
spent all 20 bucks and now i'm officially broke luhh.
and for the first time in history,
i was late siax.
f.y.i. the chances for me being late when going out with huan is 0.0001 % luhh.
not that i'm early.
but she's well-known for her "punctuality" lols.
well well.
i've got valid reason de luhh.
first of all.
the bus just left when i arrived at the bus-stop.
so i had to wait for another 10 minutes?
and and.
it was red-lights all the way luhh.
and the bus moved slower than my hamsters.
i already feel sick by the time i alighted.
lols.
guess most of the details're in huan's blog huhh.
so i shall post 'bout the details not in her blog luhh?
okays.
met up with the two.
and then took the mrt to bugis there.
on the way it was laughin, laughin and laughin.
it wouldn't really surprise me if people had thought we were mental.
and yes.
the boys who looked at us were little boys.
and they were not looking angry luhh. o.O
the younger one was cute hao mahh.
[so ivan,
there's no need for you to settle scores luh huhh.]
yeahh.
arrived at bugis and i asked ivan where he wanna go.
and he led us out.
apparently he wants to go bugis village luhh.
but it was like burning outside lols.
i don't want luhh.
so hahax.
we went back in again.
so walk walk walk.
went lovely land.
precious thots.
and another "i don't know what name" shop.
then walk walk walk again.
and afterwards mi hungry.
ivan was too.
so went to eat luhh.
and off to bugis village.
walk again.
my legs were suan-ed luhh.
went first storey.
second storey.
third storey.
and back again.
again we asked ivan where's his bag.
and he said "qi shi gang cai yi jin zou guo lerhs"
i was like "huh?"
aiyerr.
he's one guy who wanna keep his shen mi gan.
so nevermind.
wanted to go someother place lerhs.
so walked back to bugis mrt.
we board the train before even deciding where to go luhh.
then buddy suggested that we go city hall.
'cause 1 stop nia lols.
i'm fine with it.
then it's walk walk walk again.
till finally i bought a drink.
and we sat down.
then mi mum sms-ed me say wanna meet luhh.
so off we went.
hahax.
but i needa throw da cup away first.
and there's no dustbin anywhere lols.
so we went into citylink.
it's amazing a dustbin is so hard to find lols.
and on the way see see stuff again.
and ivan was supremely bored...
then in the mrt lerhs.
i felt like a sardine.
packed really.
then it rained.
and buddy alighted.
good that she brought an umbrella along luhh.
"Next stop, Boon Lay"
so mi alighted with another pack of sardines.
long queue at da bus interchange.
mi managed to board.
but hadta stand nahh.
was feeling sleepy.
and unbalanced lols.
met mum and
it was like 7 plus when i arrived home?
hahs.
interesting day.
and thanks buddy,
i had fun. ^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

You're Still The One

[When I first saw you, I saw love
And the first time you touched me, I felt love
And after all this time, you're still the one I love]

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holdng on
We're still together
Still going strong

[You're still the one]
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

[You're still the one]
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holdng on
We're still together
Still going strong

[You're still the one]
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life

[You're still the one]
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night...

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

right now i feel like a puzzle.
and that the pieces don't fit.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

*yawns*
mi tired...
woke up like before the sun's even up.
'cause i gotta bring andy to his chess club competition at the jurong east stadium there.
yeahh.
competition worr.
so it's worth my sleep luhh.
and he's been feeling all nervous.
yeahh.
his heart was pumping 100 beats per minute alright.
anyways.
it's 7 rounds today worr.
till 6 this evening.
and 4 tomorrow.
so i'm gonna miss him...
chess pro lols.
hope he does well luhh huh.

yeahh.
been slacking since morning.
the clouds' been dark.
the weather's been cold.
and i'm like i don't know...
for one thing,
mood's like nowhere near me now.
except for moody-ness,
i honestly don't feel much...

well well.
it's 5 days till school.
and i don't think i'm feeling much of an excitement huh.
awww...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Saturday, March 10, 2007

i give my thanks to all the great friends i have. ^^
and
I LOVE MY PEEPS!

takkaires all ^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
JIN WEN!
stay happy always korkor ^^

hehex.
i'm in a pretty good mood today ^^
mainly 'cause of my bio results luhh.
shadn't boast but i'm real happy.

and and.
i happened to flip through my old photo abum recently.
it was like buried under so many piles of books and letters luhh.
hahs.
and i found my class pic taken when i was in kindergarten.
and i saw JIN WEN lols.
so i and him go way back in time. >.<
we were already classmates in kindergarten lehh.
hahax.
funny luhh.
he still got that smile now.
yeahh.
life's unpredictable ya.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;

Friday, March 02, 2007

it's yet another week.
and should i be feeling relieved or otherwise?
for one thing,
i finally can get some rest.
and for another,
it's homework homework and homework.
so what should i say?

and my mood's alittle upside down lately.
especially at home huh.
when i'm facing all those books and all that.
with questions i cannot answer in my head.
and i believe i've affected quite some people huh.
most of all my mum.
i'm so sorry to have caused her worry.
and many a times i've not been the daughter i ought to be.
i know she's trying.
and i know she's hurting...
i'm sorry mummy.

sometimes i just wanna runaway.
anywhere.
anyplace.
but i know everyone's going through the same thing.
so right now i'd rather be a support than a burden.

where am i now?

-With All My Heart, Alina ;