Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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2E1`05 4E1`07
NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Tuesday, April 17, 2012

It's been awhile...
Haven't been able to fork out the time to update at all.
The past couple of weeks were like a ride on a never-ending roller-coaster,
in a never-ending tunnel.
Don't think I'll be able to pull through if we were to go through that again.
Thinking back it's as if things were moving at double speed.
Immediately following the submission of Med Soci paper we had to rush our Med Surg project,
every single day,
from morn till night.
It felt terribly like last sem again,
only this time with 3 members working instead of 5.
Haven't even got time for family,
not to mention updating a post.
But thankfully it's over now,
and I can heave sigh of relief that I've survived long enough to live past the end of the sem.
What's left now is just the exams,
which are just as draining.
But the good thing is,
I get to study in the comfort of my home,
at the very least(:
As I've mentioned a gazillion times,
this semester is the worst one yet,
be it academic wise or in my personal life.
It's like everything chose to fall apart in the semester.
Often I wondered if I had been overly-sensitive towards everything that's happened,
but time after time it's proven that my gut feelings were right after all.
This morning I woke up with the same troubled heart I had in so many mornings before,
but in a way, it was less burdened.
The conversation with Jiayan last night helped sort things through more or less,
it's funny how we're so alike in so many aspects,
but that's also very comforting to know(:
Ah I guess there are some things that I figured I could only figure out myself,
despite the help I've been receiving from some friends these couple of days.
好人难做,
曾经以为只要做到人人快乐,
自己也会快乐,
可是原来,
最终最不快乐的人是我自己,
因为不管我怎么努力,
都无法做到人人快乐.
I just don't learn, do I?
Because I cannot please everybody,
because sometimes for things to work out,
some people have to lose.
But nobody likes to be at that end,
and in the end,
nobody's happy.
I guess it's about time things change,
与其让自己难过,
不如放弃一些人,
一些事,
反正人生就是有得有失.
而且,
那个 '好人'
我自认做不到.
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Alrighty,
shall just end here.
Gotta be hitting the books again,
and time is so not on my side.
Stress levels are at an all-time high >.<
It's byeeee for now then(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;