Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

NI HAO AH!^^
I'm finally taking a break from all that studying and on the lappy for the first time in days >.<
Have got quite abit to update so I reckon this will kinda be a long post haha XDD
First things first.
Met up with Ade Jung on the last day of school before the study break for dinner at a steamboat restaurant which name I forgot to take note that day haha^^
The only thing that I remember from that restaurant was "以食为天 " haha.
It was a new experience cause I hardly travel that far,
and it was only the second time I had steamboat with friends XDD

Had icecream before dinner.
Sinful but hey, it's icecream :DD

Ade Jung ah,
even though we don't meet up often,
I'm always there if you wanna say anything,
but even if I'm not the one you wanna share your unhappiness with,
I still hope you don't keep everything to yourself(:
Cheer up!^^

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Saturday was spent organizing and planning my schedule for this week.
I was so pleased that I had started out earlier this sem so that I don't have to cram all the work and revision within one week,
which would no doubt be suicide >.<
So after completing all the miscellaneous work and stuff,
Andy and I went to Serangoon to my Grandmama's place to collect the food she had prepared for us.
Lunched at Nex with Andy and I realize that it's been a long time since the both of us had our meals together on our own.
It was nice spending time with him cause we don't usually get to talk as much at home when we have our own work to do.
So it was a well spent Saturday afternoon(:

There isn't much to say about Sunday except that I cleared yet another 2 sets of Pharmaco notes.
Proud accomplishment^^
Went to bed early that day for another battle with pharmacology the next day.
Woke up at 7 Monday morning and had Mac breakfast with abu before she went to work.
The weather was great and I remember telling myself so many times before that I need to wake up early on a holiday to just experience the fine weather outside,
and I'm glad I have this week to do it,
and I actually did it,
despite hitting the snooze button so many times before I drag myself up >.<
We talked about many things over breakfast,
talked about Alicia, Andy,
my work, my personal life,
mum's work, and problems.
She was more worried for Alicia than anything because it seems that Alicia has kinda lost the drive to do more for her life.
And I can understand that.
Having undergone 2 surgeries and suffering a relapse only recently,
it's only naturally that she feels despondent.
So I had to comfort my mum and at the same time,
find a time to speak to Alicia.
And suddenly I felt a little more grown up,
such that I am now able to share my mum's burden,
like really share it with her,
and because of that,
all the more I feel I need to grow up and put more emphasis on my family than all the other petty things in my life.
So after a filling breakfast made up of 3 hotcakes and orange juice hahaha,
I went home to study again.
Took me till 3 plus in the afternoon before clearing another 2 sets of notes and went to fetch Alicia from school as she's still on crutches.
Thankfully first day of school wasn't that bad,
except for the additional workload.
I'm thankful that she has friends for support.
A handful of true friends is indeed sufficient(:
Had a good long talk with her when we came home and I think it's a good start.
She has now begun to exercise again and scheduling her time(:
I think with more encouragement and motivation she'll do fine(:

Tuesday was more or less the same except that Cass and I had a conversation over the phone last night.
Phone conversations are always a pleasure :DD
Wish we have more time for that, really.
So that kinda sums up the night(:
A pleasant phone conversation with a friend^^

Ahh don't know why,
but I can feel that I'm a lot happier these days,
especially after that conversation with Jiayan,
because she made me feel that all my problems seem so insignificant as compared to so many others.
Cannot help but feel ashamed,
cause come to think of it,
the problems I deem "problems",
aren't really problems at all,
if you get what I mean.
It's just my personality to amplify every little thing to make them seem larger than life -.-"
And if it's something I alone cannot solve,
then it's not considered my problem,
which makes me a whole less burdened.
做人有时候真的要懂得看开
Sometimes there's also no additional energy left to be bothered too much,
In the end 只要做到问心无愧就已足够
I pray that this thankfulness I'm feeling will never cease and that I'll always find happiness in even the smallest of things(:
Of course, I hope all of you will too^^

-With All My Heart, Alina ;