Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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BUDDY
AIKSONG
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GUOTING
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KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
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SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
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VANICE
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WEIJIE
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Monday, November 14, 2011

Doing a post on the first day of study week doesn't seem like the right way to go.
Haahaa.
But being the diligent me,
I've already finished what is to be revised today(:
And in fact,
I'm actually ahead of schedule,
and sunbathing in pride now hahaha XDD
Anyways I thought I'd come in and write something,
before time erases this website from your minds and mine.
Lately,
how do I explain this?
I guess life as of late can only be summed up in one word- contradiction.
I'm happy and yet I'm also upset.
I want this, but I also want that.
I kinda like him, but I can't be with him.
Yes,
just when I believe I finally found something I want to hold onto,
and someone who feels the same way too,
something called "directions" had to appear.
Because we're potentially moving in different directions,
I really doubt if we'll end up in the same destination.
And I don't wish to start something that I can't see a future in,
because this is important to me...
And because he's important to me too,
so we can't afford to get together and then leave halfway,
because that would be too painful,
yes,
much more painful than if we hadn't started at all.
I've been putting much effort into work,
into going on and on about revising,
just to keep the thoughts away from my mind.
But still,
the thoughts come back haunting each night,
and even with the insecurities I feel,
with the fear that I might like him more and more that I'd let everything else fall to the back of my head and just go ahead,
I still carry on the wait.
I know I have to put an end to this somehow,
but maybe it's just not right now.
I don't want this to be on the top of my to-fret list now,
cause there're other things like the finals I have to worry about.

I miss the boys alittle more today...
Can't be happier I have these distractions in my life.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;