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Photobucket Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

Photobucket KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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    Thursday, October 27, 2011


    Been awhile since I last updated.
    Thought I lost that feeling and it now feels kinda awkward to be writing again,
    since recently I've been writing in my diary instead.
    Now I've got to switch on that filter which filters what is to be said and what is not to be said.
    Anyway the past few days can only be summed up in one word "fatigue".
    This is not the first time I felt so drained and exhausted,
    but this is the first time when I felt like giving up so many times.
    Sometimes I wake up in the morning and force my eyes shut again.
    Other times I wake up and say "Life, you win. Take me away now."
    I just lost the will to carry on, somehow.

    But then I guess it's getting all better now.
    Cause project's over-
    the one which we spent sleepless nights on;
    which we stayed till 3am at night at Meihong's place chionging to complete.
    It could possibly be the hardest proj to complete ever in my academic life.
    But at the end of it,
    I believe we delivered the fruits of labour when we heard praises and well-dones from everyone.
    I'm thankful for that,
    thankful for my groupmates,
    thankful for my family for the understanding throughout,
    and for strength(:
    Because without any of it,
    I wouldn't have achieved what I achieved(:
    And in the midst of everything,
    certain issues happened which made me rethink many things.
    I'm not sure if I'm just being oversensitive,
    but sometimes you just make me feel so insignificant in your life,
    when you actually mean something to me.
    But because of circumstances in my life now,
    maybe I had made you feel otherwise.
    I guess words don't change anything now.
    And no matter how much I hurt inside or express how I feel,
    you'll never be able to get it.
    Because things have changed,
    I'm just no longer at the same place.

    On a brighter note,
    I have a feeling I did pretty alright for my skills assessment today^^
    It's a good pass hahaha XDD
    And we went over to Mei's place for mahjong to celebrate^^
    Shall turn in now,
    have a morning class tomorrow,
    and will post again soon.
    I can't wait for tomorrow to come actually.
    Running men plus The vamp diaries make a good start to the weekends!^^

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;