Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Monday, August 22, 2011

HELLO HELLO~
Well, this is the start of the week.
Monday blues yes?
Today seems like a rather touchy day for some of the people around me,
or am I being overly sensitive again haha?
I wish I were.
Anyway,
because last week was so well spent and happy jolly for me,
I had somehow expected this week to be the same,
and when it didn't,
I began to feel low again.
I guess I haven't learnt that nothing happens the same way twice;
and most importantly,
to live in the moment while it lasts.
I just hope that things will start to pick up as the week progresses.
But it ain't all sad and dull for me either.
For one,
it's been a rather short day at school,
like 4-hour-short,
and I had my hair cut today-
fringe to be exact(:
And lastly I gave tuition just a while ago.
I would say it's a pretty well-spent day then.
But yeahh,
my tutee was alittle over the edge too,
although he reverted back to normal again by the end of the lesson.
I could hear a voice at the back of my head saying "What the heck is wrong with these people today?"
Lol.
Honestly,
there's an entirely different feel to some of the people I interacted with today.
But anyways,
a new day will begin soon and I don't want to broad over whatever that has passed but rather look toward a better tomorrow.
I hope Tuesday would be a good day for the people around me and thus for myself(:
Because lecture doesn't start until 11am tomorrow morning,
I have more time to myself tonight.
I feel like writing everything down;
my happiness,
my spiritual peace,
my gratitude,
my fears,
my worries,
I want to write everything down.
But on second thought,
this may not be the right place afterall.
I can only place part of myself here but not my all.
So,
some things are better left unsaid,
or in this case,
untyped(:
In short,
I'm just thankful for the daily blessings I receive-
the very fact that I can open my eyes and see the sun every morning,
that my family is healthy and well,
that I have my friends with me,
that even though my life is not a smooth-sailing journey,
I can still look up and know that someone's watching over me,
fulfilling my every need and giving me the strength to carry on.
And because of that,
I know that I am blessed.
And because of that,
I need to strive to be a better someone,
someone who is more deserving of the blessings I never worked for.

Ahh and yes,
I just had the time to slowly look through all the updates I've missed out recently.
And I was like OMG.
I cannot finish reading everything can.
Lol.
There's just so much that some articles I just scanned through or simply read the headings.
Hahahaha I'm so sorry to my Cha Muwon,
I seem to have neglected him too much since school started.
Even my WGM is on halt :/
But then,
even though I've been busy lately,
I kinda like the pace in which I'm going.
Certainly,
I don't like to work under stress or at an extremely fast pace.
So,
this moderate speed is just what I need.
I think I've found the balance haha.
A balance between work and play,
between family and friends.
And I really want to maintain it this way.
All I want to say is,
I'm happy now;
when I'm penniless I don't feel poor,
when there's noises everywhere my heart feels silent,
and even when I'm alone I don't feel lonely.
I'm really happy(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;