Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Being alone can be such a bore sometimes.
But recently,
I began loving the times I get to spend on my own.
Just myself,
the music player,
a pen,
and a few pieces of paper.
I took up writing again.
The first piece I wrote today was a letter to myself.

It may seem foolish,

but I deem it necessary.

To the 40 year old me,

if you are reading this,
it must have meant that the world has yet to end.
Thank God for that.
So, how have you been doing?
I would expect a lot of changes in life by then,
besides the extra wrinkles and accumulated fat.
Other than that, are you doing well?
I'm guessing we would have gotten married by then.
Is he a good man?
I haven't got much faith in that something called love,
but if you had chosen to say yes,
then he shouldn't be all bad.
I'm hoping we've got kids too.
3 is the max,
did you go further than that?
But then again,
2 is alright as well,
considering the soaring costs of living.
Whatever it is,

just don't grow old alone.
And how's mum and dad doing?
I hope they're healthy and well.
They ought to have retired by now,
hopefully.
Unless the government decides to raise the retirement age again.
I hope mum isn't working anymore,
she should be enjoying life by now,
going on holidays and spending time with the kids.
Did you do that for her?
And dad's probably working as a volunteer in a church.
Are you doing volunteer work as well?
I can picture their happy faces even with the grey hair and perhaps loose teeth.
As for dad he must be bald by now.
But even so, by the grace of God,
he'll be a man of peace.
The other 2 must have started a family of their own as well.
Are the 3 of us still as close as we are now?
Even though we each must have gotten our own lives by then,
I hope the relationship stays.
Did we keep that promise to have family gatherings every week?
Do we still eat Milo cereal together while watching TV?
And how about work?
Are you still working as a nurse?
I guess we aren't working in a hospital anymore.
We wouldn't last night shifts for long hahaha.
But, never stop giving, I hope you remember.
And yes, did TVXQ come back as 5 again?
And are you still a fangirl as you were 20 years ago?
But then again, a voice in my head has already given me the answers.
I hope you were there to witness that glorious moment when they returned.
And our friends,
do you still meet them?
20 years is a long time...
But don't forget the people you once said "Friends Forever" to.

Give these people a call now.

Lastly,
take care of your health.

And, even though you're 40 now,
and there must have been times when you felt that time has taken a toll on you,
such that living was a burden,
don't forget that you're never alone.
So, don't ever, ever give up.

P.S I hope you're braver now than you were 20 years ago.

Don't be afraid to chase the dream you once forgo.

It is about time now.

Love,
the 20-year old me.

Have you ever wondered what you would be like 20 years from now?

Will you have accomplished what you had set out to do years and years before?

Will you still be able to recall the little details about life as clearly as you do today?

It matters to me,

if I had lived my life the way I planned to live,

if I still keep in mind the important things.

Because the battle with age and time is one we can never win.

And one day,

my memory will take its toll on me.

But I want to remember,

everything's that's important to me.

So who else better than myself to remind me.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;