Wanted so much to blog yesterday but for some reason,the blogger system was down so I couldn't.
Perhaps it's not a bad thing after all,
or I would have sprouted a whole series of vulgarities and probably ruin the good side of my image haha XDD
After a night's sleep,
I have calmed down and will now post with a peaceful mind.
Seriously,
I was really, really pissed off yesterday.
Was it just coincidental or is Friday the 13th indeed one bad day?
I am able to accept all that has happened during the first 4 days of attachment,
telling myself the road cannot always be smooth sailing and that adversities will definitely come.
But what happened last night was the ultimate.
It totally triggered me off.
I cannot reveal too much but the story generally goes like this:
The doctor just ordered to stop the IV drip for one patient and because as student nurses,
we're unable to perform the procedure,
I had to look for another nurse to do it,
and it must be done asap or blood clots would form.
So,
I went off to find a nurse,
who then directed me to another nurse.
The nurse then pulled my hand, dragged me over, and told me that she's not in charge of that bed and added:
"Hi dear, let me tell you my sad story,
I have 3 kids to take care off,
1 husband,
and actually we've overworked...
and blah blah blah..."
I didn't catch the rest of her shit because I was too busy cursing away.
But the bottom line is "She just doesn't want to do it"
and then she directed me off to another nurse.
Damn it.
You think you're the only one who've overworked?
HELLO,
I am on a no-pay job here okay,
and it's not like I'm doing any lesser than you are.
I work the exact same 8 hours shift as you are and while we are clearing up your shit,
what are you actually doing?
And why are you telling me you've got 3 kids and one husband to take care of?
Do you think I bother to give a shit for how many people you've got to look after?
If you're so overworked,
you effing quit the job, go home, and look after your 3 kids and 1 husband.
Don't you ever, ever throw me the shit that you gave me again.
And how the hell am I suppose to know which bed you are in charge in?
You people there don't even bother to know our names.
What are we to you?
"You, come here, do this."
"You, come here, do that."
Nevermind if you don't bother knowing our names,
so don't come and assume that we ought to know yours too.
Now you listen to my story, I don't give a damn for you and this shithole.
There's so much problems going on in this hell of a place I cannot mention here.
It is suffocating that I have to suppress my anger inside and can only talk about it within the four walls;
all because there's a reputation to protect,
and that reputation's not even mine in the first place.
All I can say is,
if you think that the hospital, especially the p ward,
is a place full of loving tender care,
please think again.
I swear I will never bring my own kids or even encourage anyone I know of to come here for treatment.
I swear.
No one over there deserves the slightest respect,
no one.
Integrity is the fundamentals of all principles;
and that is one thing you people do not possess.
What makes you come into nursing in the first place?
The money?
The stability?
But definitely not a loving heart that you don't have.
Initially it was just disappointment.
But right now,
I'm more disgusted.
Okay,
I'm done venting my frustration.
Hahaha I think there's no difference whether I calm down and write or not,
since the more I write,
the angrier I become.
This is definitely the worst I've come across so far.
But on a positive note,
I guess it prepares me for future obstacles as well.
And also, motivates me to work harder so that the next time I return,
I will change the entire management.
You people just wait.
All of you will be able to go home and look after your children and husbands.
Hahaha.
I wish there were more room for voices.
The freedom of speech is indeed important.
If the system is good,
we let the people know.
Likewise,
if the system sucks,
all the more we have to warn the public.
This is the healthcare system,
and it affects every single one of us.
Something ought to be done.
Anyway,
today's a happy day(:
First of all,
I need not return to that hell of a place.
Second,
the weather's been awesome,
AWESOME I say.
Just the way I like it(:
Third,
I'm catching a movie later in the evening heheh!
Time to chill yo.
Or the stress and anger might just kill me.
Ohh and yes,
fourthly,
Junsu's version of "That man" will be out today!^^
Can't wait! Hahahaha :DD
Alrighty,
I need to do some work before going out.
Have got research to do for our presentation next week.
Can't wait for next week to come and end either.
Yes yes,
shall leave now,
byeeeeeeeee~
Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities.
For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next.
But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly.
I came to be me on 10th June 1991.
Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying.
Family and friends are my life.
At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD
Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have.
Now you know how to make me happy.
I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart.
I'm majorly affected by the people around me.
Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse.
Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^
KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY 