Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Saturday, May 07, 2011

Fear- a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence of imminence of danger

Somehow I'm feeling really uneasy.

Yet, I can't exactly point out the cause of my anxiety,

for I myself am uncertain what it is.

Perhaps that's where the problem is- uncertainty.

It's ironic now that the exams are over,

I'm actually hoping it hadn't.

This way,

I wouldn't have the time to think about the issues that I've kept at bay for so long.

This way,

I wouldn't have the time to look at articles which I never thought would have such an impact on my heart.

This way,

I needn't be in this emotional turmoil that's killing me.

In fact, the second issue alone is enough to cast me into the abyss of sadness.

Just read an article about the 5.

Loving someone is indeed about letting go,

so that they can be free to live their lives, for themselves,

and not for us, not for anyone else.

It's sad to know how we're all hurting;

it's sad to see how things turned out like this.

But it's even more painful to know that they're the actual victims.

After everything, maybe saying goodbye is the only right thing.

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*Sighs*

Alina just lost all the mood and inspiration for writing.

Usually the words simply pop out into my head like a pre-written letter.

But today,

it appears to me that the letter is sort of in pieces.

No matter how I try to put it,

it just doesn't seem to fit.

And even as I type this,

it is taking too much out of me just to think.

It's crazy.

I should just stop here.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;