When even ice cream becomes tasteless,
you know there's a serious problem-
TIME TO CHANGE BRAND!
Zzz.
I was having this crazy urge for ice-cream earlier and I don't know why but back in my head I kept thinking that there's Haagen Das icecream at home.
So I fled home, bouncing with excitement,
only to find out that, in my horror,
there's no Haagen Das icecream -.-"
So in the end I ate icecream from a tub which looks pretty disgusting as it was left there for a while now >.< How very very unsatisfying >.<
Anyway today's my (self-declared) last day of school!^^
Hahaha.
I'm not being a bad girl for skipping lecture tomorrow.
Hmmm maybe I am.
But there's only one lecture tomorrow and it's on maternaity,
which makes being a good girl a little difficult.
I woke up this morning to a very special message which goes like this:
Dear Sister, thank you. Thank you for all the joy and laughter you have given me.
Thank you for all the times we have spent laughing and just going nuts.
Thank you for all the support you have given me and for caring when no one else would.
I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you,
for all the times I did what I shouldn't have or didn't do what I should have.
I know you were always there for me and loving me.
Thank you.
If there was one thing I would want to do when I grow up,
it would be to tell you all about antelopes when you can't sleep to always get up and talk to you whenever you can't sleep.
Will you still continue to look for me?
Thank you Jie, for thepast 14 years of joy, crazinesss and laughter.
I couldn't have asked for a better sister.
I love you Jie.
Honestly,
my first reaction when i received this message was "What's wrong with this girl?",
cause my sister isn't one to show her emotions,
and for her to send something like this,
it's indeed a little hard to get by.
(Though it's even harder to receive something like this from Andy.
I'm still waiting for his by the way XDD)
But yeahh,
the intended joy and happiness I was meant to feel at that moment became worry instead.
I was worried if she had encountered problems along the way,
cause as I said,
she isn't one to display her feelings,
and even if she did encounter anything,
she wouldn't say.
Now as I come to think of it,
among the 3,
I'm actually the most outspoken one,
as in, I'm open to talk about issues like feelings.
For the other 2,
I don't remember much occasions whereby we shared feelings with one another,
and i'm hoping there'll be more of such opportunities in the future.
My sister.
I must admit,
there were times of jealously,
on my side that is.
I'm jealous of how she can talk about games with Andy and making me feel left out.
I'm jealous of how she's able to get the things I didn't have when I was her age.
I'm jealous of how she needn't undergo some of the crap i underwent when I was her age.
Maybe it's just a girl thing?
That we get all over each other sometimes.
But, I cannot deny, that at the end of the day,
we do love each other,
just in a different way.
Alicia is the family member I say "I love you" the least to.
She's also the family member whom I can relate most to.
Perhaps we've come to a mutual understanding that such words need not be exchanged in our relationship.
We just need to be there for each other, at the right time.
I remember there were nights when I couldn't fall asleep and I would call out to her:
"Are you asleep?"
"Nope."
"Can you talk to me, I can't fall asleep."
And she would tell me all about animals according to the alphabetical order.
We would always stop at antelopes as I would have fell asleep even before she could get on to the animal which name starts with the letter B.
This is our relationship.
I remember just last year,
on the night before her knee operation I went to visit her.
I cried and told her who would tell stories to me when I couldn't fall asleep since she was not at home.
I could see the tears in her eyes but she tried not to cry.
She said when I'm back I'll tell you all about the antelopes again.
This is our relationship.
Sometimes she's more of an elder sister to me than I was to her.
She would ask if I've eaten and would offer to cook if I hadn't.
She would sit and listen to my problems even when I knew I was getting irritating.
This is our relationship-
a relationship where we need not say as much "I love yous" as we feel in our hearts.
I'm also sorry,
for not being good enough,
and for keeping you back sometimes.
And no,
I need not look for you,
for I know you'll always be there.
I love you dear.
Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities.
For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next.
But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly.
I came to be me on 10th June 1991.
Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying.
Family and friends are my life.
At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD
Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have.
Now you know how to make me happy.
I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart.
I'm majorly affected by the people around me.
Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse.
Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^
KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY 