Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

One of the reasons I can live my life stronger each day:

At the end of the fanmeet (White Day Fanmeet on March 11), JYJ said “Thank you for waiting for us, but in order so that you don’t just wait, we will work (even) harder.”
JYJ also said that, “to live up to your expectations, they will do anything, climb mountains and cross river”

Lol.
I'm also glad KJJ said he has stopped watching porn,
though I don't know if it's true or not,
he's a guy afterall-.-"

Anyways,
today's been a relatively okay day for me.
Went to JP in the afternoon to order a new phone cover for my poor lil phone which got scratched due to my own carelessness >.<
Yeahh, I dropped it,
and I dropped it on some concrete floor,
you know, rough surface?
So you can imagine what happened to the backside of my phone >.<
Ais.
Recently I've been feeling too much of 2 emotions- sadness and guilt.
Too much, really.
Because of certain issues in my life now,
I'm feeling pretty upset.
And where there's sadness,
I found loneliness too.
And I swear there's been so many times this weekend whereby I question myself Why am I alone in this?
Why do no one care?
But the truth is,
they do(:
Some of them, even more than I expect.
I never thought a friend would give up playtime just to lend a listening ear;
I never thought my family members would go to such lengths just to make me happy.
And because of all these,
I am guilty,
for I am not alone,
I was never alone.
And I am guilty for doubting that.
Even though there have been times when I said I'm someone who prefers to be alone,
I actually do need people around me.
Yes, that's the sad truth.
I cannot live on my own >.<
But I guess that's just a matter of timing.
There will be times when I wish to be left alone,
and times when I wanna spend with the people around me(:
I guess it goes the same for everyone, no?
Everyone has problems, I think it's just the way we face them;
and I'm content to know that I'm not facing them on my own;
Because I have you, you and you;
the other reasons for my strength(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;