Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. My first loss occurred when I was five or six.
My grandfather had a stroke that day,
and the next thing I knew,
he wasn't going to come back.
Back then,
I had no clue what loss was.
Grandfather was merely a man who hadn't been able to return home,
or so I was told.
I could hardly even remember his face;
all I could recall was the cries of my grandmother,
who I also lost a few years after,
when I was ten.
Still, the feelings of loss felt foreign,
they were like not mine to feel.
It was not until I saw my grandmother's motionless frame in that strange wooden box that I realized I was experiencing my second loss.
But what came as the most painful loss to me was the passing of my godfather.
I wasn't too old then,
but was old enough to know things weren't right.
Sometimes I still see the tears on my mother's face that morning in the back of my head;
I still hear her cries, and I can still see his face.
There was a point in time when I wondered why all of these had to happen to me.
I was merely a child, and what more can a child ask for,
than to wake up everyday to find all her loved ones still around by her side,
smiling and reassuring her that the day will go on fine.
Yet how come the truth is otherwise?
Why do I have to cope with something adults face?
I lost someone dear to me that morning.
The same man who said he will be there, even with a walking aid, to attend my graduation ceremony,
the same man who said he will be witnessing my wedding,
and the same man who said he will be there to carry my kids.
And the saddest thing is,
I didn't even get to say my goodbyes, to any one of them,
or rather, I did not manage to say all that I needed to say during those times we spent together.
I guess we are just so used to being able to see these people each day that it had never occurred to us the possibility of loss.
It's a little out of proportions but I think people ought to see this.
The contents may be a little disturbing but that's life out there- it's disturbing.
If my losses were unbearable, what would theirs be?
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Another reason for me writing this post today is also because I know that another loss is coming.
It has been 2 years since my last pet died.
And I know that the time is near for these 2 to go too.
One of them in particular has been showing signs of ageing and I've only recently uncovered a growth in his lower left limb.
Honestly, I thought I could handle it,
considering that I had pets before,
that they all left us eventually and that we had to learn to cope with it.
Yet, the feelings of loss is different every time.
Actually, we never intended to keep hamsters anymore since the previous occasion.
But we took them in because my dad's colleague's son didn't want them anymore,
after having kept them for approximately 2 months or so.
I've been thinking, if we hadn't taken them in they'd probably be left at some nearby garbage area,
like any other $10 hamster would be if no one wants it.
This is why I think that it's really important for those getting pets to consider really carefully,
be it for yourself, your friends, or your child in particular.
Animals do not make good gifts for young children!
Eventually the children run out of interest and like all the other plastic toys dumped into the corner of the room,
the pets get abandoned and neglected.
Please fight animal abuse, for they are not yours to abuse in the first place.
And cherish the work of nature, for you are part of nature too.
Loss- Now, I would say it is when the physical person leaves but the heart stays, wherever it should be needed.
There can be no loss as long as we are held together by this connection,
the connection which keeps our shared memories alive.
The connection's love,
and if I mean anything to you,
do bear in mind that I love you,
the people I think of every night before closing my eyes,
praying they'll be safe and sound when I open them again.
A little love is all it takes.
It can all begin with YOU(:
Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities.
For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next.
But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly.
I came to be me on 10th June 1991.
Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying.
Family and friends are my life.
At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD
Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have.
Now you know how to make me happy.
I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart.
I'm majorly affected by the people around me.
Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse.
Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^
KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY 
