Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Friday, January 07, 2011

Woke up this morning with the decision to let that incident slide.
Because of it, I've boycotted the internet and reduced my communication via technology to a minimum.
But now,
I'm just going to pretend nothing's happened and carry on with my life as per normal.
So I'm back to posting today-
the only place I know I can't make any drastic mistakes like the one I made T.T

Anyway,
I'm alone at home today.
The loneliness is eating me alive T.T
Alicia went for her camp while Andy went West Coast Park,
or was it East Coast Park with his friends.
So I've got the morning to myself.
Thought I'll begin my day with something happy.
So since I haven't been visiting their (TVXQ) sites for a day now,
I expected more news waiting for me.
There were more news indeed,
including a post which made my heart fell to the ground floor.
But what made me speechless was seeing certain comments after the post.
I think whatever the company's trying to do in a way is succeeding-
the line is almost drawn.
There are even those waiting to see things unfold as if it's some drama show.
I don't know if I've interpreted it correctly but I feel upset thinking about it :(

What about something uplifting for a change?

Christmas gift from BUDDY WONG!
I love it,
But I love YOUUUUU more^^

I have no idea what to think now.
There are problems I wish I hadn't create,
and matters I believe I need to resolve.
There are also issues that are mine to bear yet not mine to handle.
Only time can make it go away now.
And I've been feeling the pressure of returning to school hitting hard on me.
Even though there're times I manage to keep it off my mind,
thoughts of it still haunt me before I sleep at night.
It is a time when all the problems come running back to you and there's no running from it.
I'm paranoid, yes, very paranoid,
and I hate myself for being so.
I don't wish to burden the people around me with my problems as I know they've got theirs to deal with as well,
yet I don't know how to face them alone.
I'll let work numb me from that problematic mind for now,
I'm standing in for a teacher @ Joyland for a couple of days.
I hope my blood pressure don't rise.
With that, I'll end this post.
I'm having a BBQ tonight and probably won't have the time to post again today.
Have a great day people!
The weather's really fine today,
I should go down for a walk.
Seeya!

-With All My Heart, Alina ;