Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Wednesday, December 08, 2010

So tired, yet so fulfilled.
I decide to write this while the thoughts are still fresh in my mind,
despite the weariness I'm feeling right now.
It's only been Day 3 of attachment and I'm already overwhelmed with feelings.
Honestly,
since I was a kid,
I saw myself doing many things-
a teacher, an air stewardess, a social worker, an artist, a designer, and even a farmer.
There were so many childhood aspirations I wanted to work towards.
But never a nurse,
never did the thought came through my mind,
that I can actually be a nurse, one day, someday.
If one should ask me the question 3 years ago if I would want to be a nurse when I graduate and leave school,
my answer would no doubt be a No.
Why would I want to spend my time cleaning up after strangers,
lose my sleep for night shifts,
sacrifice my holidays,
just for a job?
But today,
I realize it's not "just a job".
It's something I finally see myself really doing,
for the next 3 years, for the next 10 years, perhaps till the day I can work no longer.
It's a commitment;
and when I don on the uniform,
all that comes to mind is my work, my team, my patients.
So even when face to face with the weariness, the sacrifices, the complaints, the terribly aching legs and hurting blisters,
I saw something else- pride.
Pride in my work;
pride in my profession;
pride in our team.
Of course,
nursing's not a bed of roses, I know,
and I'm not gonna paint a rosy picture of it either,
cause in reality it's not.
There're also many issues that we have to deal with,
heavy responsibilities to take care of
and burdens to carry, which more often than not, are not ours to bear.
I know.
And certainly someone's watching over me as till now,
the nursing staff I've met with,
be it in NUS, in the polyclinic, or in the community hospital,
are great people,
with a heart filled with more compassion than you can imagine.
And I'm really thankful.
I don't know what lies ahead of me in this journey,
what I do know is,
I'm part of something called team spirit,
and it's gonna be a system that I'll rely on for the rest of my nursing career.
I write this, in the hope that when I feel like I'm having regrets over this decision I make, may it be 3 months from now or 10 years later, that I'll remember why I chose this path in the beginning and the dedication I give to my profession, my support staff and my patients.
I'll work hard!

God bless the weary and the sick,
and give them hope even when the road ahead seems bleak.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;