Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Thursday, December 16, 2010

I know I won't have the time to write this post tomorrow so I shall write it now.

Time flies and it's already been 2 weeks into my clinical attachment @ St Luke's Hospital,

and as I sit here reflecting upon my journey,

I am dealt with a mixture of feelings.

No doubt, I feel relieved that it's finally over and that I will be able to enjoy some personal time before school starts again.

Yet, at the same time, I couldn't help but feel sad about the parting tomorrow.

Even though it's merely been 2 weeks and honestly,

2 weeks isn't really that long,

but somehow or rather,

I think we've built a connection;

with the staff,

as well as with the patients.

Perhaps not everyone may be able to understand this,

perhaps no one else may be able to understand this,

but that's the amazing thing;

because it cannot be explained,

it has to be felt.

Even though there have been times when I complained so much about the shifts,

about being tired,

about not being able to walk further because of the blisters on my feet,

but at the end of it,

there's still this stinging feeling whenever I think about leaving.

Perhaps 2 days ago I wouldn't have felt so strong about this,

but what happened today, i will never forget.

When I entered the ward to serve lunch this noon,

the patient whom I like talking to said:

"今天星期几?"

I told her it's Thursday.

and she replied,

"明天星期五, 你们最后一天了"

and I didn't know how to reply her.

She's a patient who sometimes don't even remember where she places her things,

don't know the day of the week,

but she could remember that we're leaving on Friday, the last day of this week,

when I've only mentioned to her once.

And later on another patient whom I hardly had much interaction with suddenly spoke to me,

saying that she'll miss us.

I felt a lump in my throat.

Before this clinical attachment,

I had never liked geriatric care.

I had thought that caring for the aged was a tiresome and frustrating job and they are just a bunch of irritable people,

waiting to throw tantrums at anyone who came their way.

I was proven very wrong.

They are really one of the most thankful people you can find.

I remember the first time the ah ma in bed 8 held my hand and said "你很乖啦",

it was a warmth I'll never forget.

But of course, there were still difficulties along the way.

Yet somehow, I felt that it was all worth the while.

Each of them means something to me,

no matter the time spent and the amount of words exchanged.

Even though it's only been 2 weeks,

and to some people, 2 weeks is a really short time.

But to me,

it's enough for the memories to last for a lifetime,

because this will always be my first ward attachment.

To do what nobody else will do, a way that nobody else can do, in spite of all we go through; is to be a nurse

-Rawsi Williams

Because my best is all I can offer.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;