Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Monday, November 22, 2010

nothing beats a nice serving of chocolate pudding after a draining paper^^

and in a flash,
it's gone!

Lol.
woke up at 7 today,
despite sleeping at 1 plus last night.
i was trying to get as much sleep as possible as my paper's in the afternoon and i wouldn't want to be feeling all restless and stuff.
but apparently, that didn't work out,
i mean the "trying to get as much sleep as possible" part.
so i woke up early and found myself with nothing to do,
technically, i found myself with nothing i want to do.
the tension was suffocating and i found it harder to breathe with the passing of each minute.
i don't know how to say this but the paper today totally stressed me out.
haven't been sleeping well,
neither have i been eating well either.
like i mentioned, it feels like alevels all over again.
and it's a dreadful feeling to be experiencing:\
unable to tahan further,
i went down at 11 to sit at the busstop.
perhaps i just needed someplace to head to.
so i sat at the busstop for a good half an hour to calm my nerves before taking the bus to meet meihong.
the entire MPSH was crowded with students today,
i still foolishly thought we were the only ones taking exams there-.-"
anyway, the crowd did not help and i became more nervous than before,
seeing students sitting at a corner doing last-minute mugging.
i swear i could have died of a heart attack>.<
so after 30 minutes of looking blankly into the notes,
we went into the hall.
it was smaller than i had expected.
and i was labelled No. 001
it's been so long since im No. 1.
it feels weird, cause im so used to seeing ade jung sitting infront of me during exams, especially major ones like this.
and yeahh... it's just different.
and so the paper of 2 hours began.
at first i was sweating like crap,
i don't get why some of my peeps still put on cardigans haha.
it really wasn't that cold,
or was it because of the nerves?
i must say that i really panicked in the first 15 minutes.
the first question came as a shock initially and i know i don't have much materials to refer to >.<
my already dampened confidence was dampened further when my pens didn't work properly.
the ink came and go,
and i was so close to throwing it on the floor.
to think it was a new one somemore-.-"
and i checked it the night before!
hmph!
throughout the paper,
the contents of the message i received earlier kept flashing in my mind.
guess that's also partly why i moved on and gave my all even though there were so many times i sighed to myself...
surprisingly, the rest of the questions were pretty doable(:
anyhoo, i guess i managed the paper fairly okay.
all i can say is i've done my best,
and won't want to think back about it again(:
so, now it's 1 down, 4 to go!
hwaiting!^^

anyway, i was really drained when i got home,
so much so that i cancelled my tuition appointment for tonight.
and as i was about to fall asleep on the sofa.....
ade jung appeared!
lol.
i wasn't dreaming,
she just came in through the door~
and for a moment there, i was quite surprised XD
turns out she has an appointment afterwards and decides to pop in:DD
later, i found out her reason was this...

i feel the love~
from both of you!
hahaha XD
everything that i want to say is in the message,
so i won't reveal too much here(:
<333

now, to the second final event of the day,
happy birthday lao ba!
you 45 year old-70 years old man!
(what im trying to say is he's 45 but he's behaving like a 70 year old >.<)
recently he's been nagging too much >.<
anyway we had a mini celebration earlier,
sorry no pictures cause they're all in the family camera.

hah you must be wondering what's the final event of the day,
but even if you don't,
i'll say it anyway,
it's spending quality time with my lappy^^
actually it's spending quality time with the boys,
there's no better reason to come up :DD
and the 3 boys are making my heart flutter in twitter >.<
the concert next week will be awesome, no doubt.
ahh the only sad thing is i won't be there physically^^
but spiritually, yes, for sure hahaha!

the day started out on the rough side,
but i must say it ended quite beautifully,
with new memories!
let's create more!
can't wait for the exams to end so that i can spend more time with the people i love.
wait for me!

shall end off now to indulge in my extracurricular activity- spazzing.
sleep early people!
don't burn out just yet, it's only monday!
as for yours truly, i've got no school tomorrow so i can afford to burn hahaha XD

P.S. just felt this sudden urge to say,
sometimes even though i don't say it, it doesn't mean i don't mean it.
and even though i don't show it as often as i should, i do care,
and i hope to let the people who mean something, know.
goodnight(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;