Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Sunday, November 07, 2010

if i have the $,
the first thing im gonna get is my very own laptop.
yesh.
alina's personal lappy;
MINE!
MUAHAHAHA!
and nobody can say shit about the hours i spend on it nor the websites i visit!
yes!
even having said that,
im actually kinda annoyed inside.
i know that this is gonna disappoint you ade jung,
but things ain't getting better:(
i don't see the need trying to make them understand anymore.
even after having dropped so many hints,
they still don't get it,
perhaps they don't even want to get it.
im just tired of talking to them,
it gives me nothing but anger;(
and the best way to win a war is to avoid it,
which is exactly what im doing now.
i keep telling myself it's not easy for them either.
but sometimes it seems that im the only one showing that much consideration.
they simply can't bother:(
im feeling so stressed up and worried for my attachment tomorrow:(
and all i need is some assurance,
yet it's something they can't give,
or rather, something they don't see the need to give.
because im the child growing up first.
because i can sort it out on my own.
because im not as important...
that's how i've been feeling.
that's what they made me feel.
they satisfy my material needs; more or less,
but that gapping hole in my heart is never going to be mended.
too many times i called out,
but they never seem to see me.
and when they finally did,
i realize i don't need it anymore.
i will manage.
and tomorrow,
just like all the other times before,
i will manage.

sometimes,
all i need is 3 words.
"How are you?"
but you never asked.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;