Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Friday, November 05, 2010

i haven't been this happy for a long time now,
and it's all because of you, my friends(:
i must say, the day didn't start out the way i wanted it to,
in fact, it started out as what i would call "downright horrible".
my dad hadn't given me money to buy the shoes for my attachment next week,
even though i had already mentioned it to him the night before.
and because of that i had to dig into my already sucked-dry savings to pay for those shoes.
and when i called him,
it was barely 2 minutes before he received a second line and told me to wait.
so i sat there waiting for his call to end.
in the end, he apparently forgot my presence and hung up totally,
when i waited for 10 minutes like a fool.
i know this is childish but i cried after that.
i didn't quite see the need to call back anymore.
sometimes i get this feeling that my parents don't exactly see the need to support me financially anymore,
simply because i give tuition.
but hello, i only get $160 out of that job.
it's not as if i earn $1600 a month.
and if that's the case,
i wouldn't even be needing pocket money anymore.
it just breaks my heart how fast they change their attitudes when it comes to money matters.
anyway i went out of the house sulking and feeling all miserable,
i wish my application for sponsorship will be approved and there wouldn't be a need to fret over this again.
sometimes you just wonder if they really do care, even when they say they do.
and sometimes the way they show care is simply...epic (if that's the right word).
for instance,
my mum will show it by reprimanding me of my excessive usage of the laptop.
i take it that she's concerned about the wellbeing of my eyes,
when honestly she thinks that im not spending enough time with the family because of the lappy.
arghh whatever.
this is supposed to be a happy post!
so i shall save my rantings for next time instead!
anyway things took a turn from the moment i met buddy wong on the bus!
as i mentioned to her,
it has been 20000 years since i last saw her.
and she's sick:(
my buddy wong is sick!
and little ms stubborn refuses to sleep earlier!
im now her personal nurse btw XD
(take care of yourself or i'll poke you!!!)
anyway, it felt really nice to talk to her after all these time when we were both busy with our own stuff.
you know i miss you!!!
i hope we'll have more time to spend next time(:
ohh and thanks for the lapcoats too!
i know i can always count on you^^
so the day went by as usual, with the not-so-boring PIP lecture and the sleep-inducing anatomy hall and the ever so confusing physiology tutorial.
finally i survived till 6 and that's where all the fun began.
went to jp with daphne, ivy and meihong to shop for our shoes.
from the moment we boarded the bus to the moment we parted,
i don't think there was even a moment without laughter XD
im really really thankful for such awesome friends,
especially in university,
where "Friends Forever" probably hardly exists.
but i know for sure, they do here(:

after jp,
i went to "surprise" ade jung^^
been wanting to do something for her but because of the recent tests and stuff,
i didn't have the time and ended up doing something rather simple and although i feel apologetic about it, im glad she's okay with it^^
i'll keep everything you said to me tonight in my heart, always(:
and don't forget what i said to you either,
every word is a promise i make to you^^

tonight,
the word "Friends" mean so much to me.
even though there are times when i feel burdened because of you,
you're still as important.
i guess that's why we're friends,
for we can share weal and woe together,
for we can undergo trials and triumphs together,
for we can laugh and cry together,
and because of this,
i'll wanna give my all,
just for the smiles on your faces,
just to have you know that i cherish each and every one of you in my life.
I love you,

Friends.
朋友.
Freund.
Amigo.
친구.
Teman.
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i believe in friends forever(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;