Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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LUTING
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MINGHAO
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Friday, October 22, 2010

it's 3.04 am now and im pretty sure by the end of this post it's gonna be like 3.15 already?
and im struggling to decide whether to sleep or just keep awake for school tomorrow,
cause lesson's in the morning and im certain 4 hours of sleep is not gonna be of much use.
maybe i should just enjoy the stillness of the night and indulge in the voices of my love hahaha XD
strangely, with their songs playing in the background, the drowsiness didn't haunt me as much, not saying it didn't at all.
i ain't superwoman hahaha XD
anyway, guess no other day can beat the scale for today.
today's definitely won "The lousiest day of the week"
first,
i woke up with absolutely no drive for school,
but because attendance's worth a frigging 2% and my grades really can't afford any more discounts,
i had to draggggg myself.
and that's just the tip of the iceberg.
the first thing i did when i reached school was to go to the toilet.
and wala, shit happens, not literally but yeah.
i felt like utter shit for the entire day that followed.
ahh sometimes it really sucks to be a girl.
you've got to deal with that stupid shit every month,
what's worse is to handle those frigging extreme mood swings.
it's like being strapped on an emotional rollar coaster that seems to ride on forever.
and you feel like no one understands.
and then i become all sensitive and cry for no frigging reason.
what the hell.
i feel like im going mental.
is this normal?
damn.
it's times like this when i don't feel like being with people.
we had a lecture earlier regarding interpersonal relationships and damn,
people-people relationships are like the craziest shit in the world.
how can there be so much considerations in a relationship?
it's awesome if we get along.
but if we don't then just shooo.
is it that difficult?
in fact, it is that difficult.
how come we can't all be pigs?
eat and sleep eat and sleep without a care in the world?
and there's no need to worry about inter-pig-al relationships since there's no way to have conflicts and there's no need to resolve any.
whatever.
nothing beats being alone right now, doing the stuff i want.
i know it's abit too early to be saying this now,
but honestly i would really like a break.
like travel somewhere or something.
just wanna get away from all that deadlines and workload and that stupid haze.
it's freaking hazy out there, you can't see further than the third block from where you're living and people are smoking the environment away.
if Mother Nature can speak, she'll swear at us.
anyway to all those people who still thinks that uni life is a place for fun and games,
reality check for you.
it's fun only when grades don't matter.
LOL.
looks like i've rant on about almost everything's that's bothering me now.
sometimes i wish there's a channel where i can rant it all out, like really get them off my chest.
but too bad some things are meant to be left unsaid...

anyway, i really really want a holiday!!!
not somewhere where there's only shopping malls but somewhere with scenery maybe.
i see myself sitting on a huge grassland with sheeps wandering off freely, eating grass lazily and little children running around, playing.
the fragrance of sweet-smeeling flowers lingers in my surroundings.
the sun is setting, reminding me i should leave for home, where he will be waiting, with dinner ready.
i call the kids....
Lol.
im convinced i need to sleep.
to the bed where fantasy exists, thankfully.
goodnight everybody!
good morning actually, it's 3.45am already ><

-With All My Heart, Alina ;