Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Friday, July 30, 2010

Emptiness.
that's what im feeling now.
in fact, that's the only feeling i have now.
but if i can feel empty, how can i be empty?
so is this how emptiness feels like?
hollow and bare?
nothing but a burning hole in the chest?
or is this just heartache?
i can't tell anymore.
i feel myself drifting away,
and i am beginning to accept that it is a good thing.
at least this way, i feel protected, my mind secured.
and lately i realised that your tears should be the last thing you want your enemies to see.
cause that's the weakest side of yourself you'll ever know.
and i swear that it'll be the last.
i wouldnt cry again in front of you even if it means biting my lips for it.
it's a side meant to be known to only those i love most.
and you just aint one of them.

regarding my previous entry,
i honestly don't know if i've done the right thing.
was i being too unreasonable to feel that way?
should i just look away and consider whatever you're doing as just,
since everyone wants to settle for the best?
one thing's for sure, one little gesture and i feel burdened with guilt towards you.
i'd rather you give me reasons to hate you further.
but another thing, i am going soft but you're still not a friend.

im becoming increasingly unhappy at home.
i feel angry.
i feel lonely.
but you're not the one i want to speak to.
ahh whatever.
there are a few things i really really need now.
i need my pay (like desperately)
i need my buddy (although it's not gonna happen soon:( )
i need peace.
and i need my sleep.
so, im going off to bed now.
goodnight then people(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;