Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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NUS NURSING
BUDDY
AIKSONG
BEETENG
BOONYANG
CHUANLIANG
DINGSIAN
CINDY
ERVIN
GUOTING
HONGJIE
HUILI
IRA
JEAN
JINWEN
JINXIAN
JINYI
JOCELYN
JUNRI
KARYAN
KELLIE
LUTING
MADELEINE
MINGHAO
OLIVIA
QIAN
REUBEN
SAMANTHA
SHAWN
SHENN
SHIQI
SHIRLEY
SOOKYING
STELLA
TAOYAN
TOMMY
VANICE
WEIFANG
WEIJIE
WEIXIAN
WENDY
XUANXIN
YANGMENG

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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

i feel so effing stressed right now:(
like im wearing a tight-fitted tee that isnt even my size in the first place:(
i can't sleep right.
i can't eat right.
i can't even play right.
and what's bothering me most is none other than the upcoming camp next week.
for some reason, i feel like an awfully lost duck.
im unsure of most of what's going on.
the worst is, im the only one i know who's getting into the same course,
which makes me an awfully lonely lost duck.
i know this is just the transition period and that it'll be all better.
but because of my i-worry-too-much-about-this-and-that syndrome,
i couldnt help but feel sick in the chest.
like my heart's pounding too hard all the time.
honestly, i wont be surpried if i die of a worry-overdose. >.<
so in order to ensure that that day doesnt come too soon,
im occupying myself with as much activities as possible.
- breakfast with taoyan in the morning(:
- work in the afternoon
- tuition in the evening
- vampire diaries in the night (hopefully)
- outing with buddy on friday(:
- eclipse with andy & alicia on saturday(:
my saturday has a longer list of activities on TBC XD

anyways.
life as of late; im so gaga over vampire diaries lately that i do think im going a teeny bit over the edge.
for instance, i dreamt that season 2 of vampire diaries is finally released and when i clicked on it (i watch it on the net), winnie the pooh pops out. -.-"
LOL.
i've got enough disappointments in reality, i dont need anymore from fantasies to remind me that life is full of them.
that aside, im watching the series all over again ^^

and im so glad it's already thursday,
meaning i've only got one more day of work left before i chill for the rest of the week, as well as the next,
if i can overcome the fear and nervousness of meeting new people and going new places.
work hasnt been really killing me.
my boss has been indirectly directing his rage at a collegue of mine because the business isnt exactly soaring.
in fact, it is plunging.
this is why i wont go into this profession.
even if the kids are adorable and all,
if they can be.
im just not cut out for this job.
i get the "you're too soft-hearted" kinda talk so often that im actually convinced it might actually mean a bad thing. :/

andand, is it just me or is there seriously nothing much on the tv lately?
the programmes make me feel boring-er than i was before i turned on the tv to ease my boredom.
what to do, what to do???

haiz...
with that, im done with the rantings of the day.
and im gonna head off to bed now.
long day ahead tomorrow.
goodnight then, people(:

-With All My Heart, Alina ;