Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Sunday, June 06, 2010

finally,
i had time to sit down in front of the comp and perhaps organise my thoughts.
life's been rather nice to me out of late,
though i do feel a mass energy drain-out every once in a while,
which may not be a bad thing after all.
i need to be busy and at times,
i actually like the pace in which im going,
although at other times,
i'd much prefer a little more personal time.

i haven't been in the best mood lately :(
i've got to say im usually a cup-is-half-full person.
like i go to bed at night convincing myself that tomorrow will be a better day.
but the cup just seems to be half empty these days.
i'll credit that to my "sheng li wen ti" that happens every month.
i just hate it when i experience mood swings more than i take my meals,
and for no particular reason at that.
that sucks.

anyway,
i finally had the courage to bring up the issue that's been burdening me for so long to my boss.
i'd end my job in another month's time and he's not really a fan of that.
if you knew my boss,
you would agree that he's got issues,
especially when it comes to employees leaving.
i've got to say that i'm quite proud of myself actually,
for sticking to a job like that for so long,
at least longer,
no,
much much longer than i had expected myself to be.
it's been 5 months and a week and i swear that i considered resigning a hundred times (at least) during this period.
my boss is not exactly the Mr Nice Guy and the kids aren't exactly cute and cuddly either.
but i made it this far,
to the extent of me even loving my job,
as well as the kids.
i guess i've grown attatched,
which i swear i thought would never happen.
but another phase in life is waiting for me,
and i'm actually looking forward to it.
i know that's where my turning point is,
and i'm going to live in every moment.

i've been watching vampire diaries lately.
it's in a way better than twilight,
in the sense that the girl is less pathetic.
i mean her world won't cease to continue even without a guy,
which does not gross out the viewers as much.
i haven't finished the series yet so i'm not going to rate it.
(and is it just me or are vamp series/books/movies popping out like dasies suddenly?)

sigh.
it had been one of the most depressing,
not to mention frustrating weekends ever.

i know disappointment's coming,
but i'm ready for it.

-With All My Heart, Alina ;