<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

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Photobucket Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

Photobucket KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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    Sunday, December 21, 2008


    ohmygoshh.
    im finally done with my blog reconstruction lol. XD
    *throws confetti in air*
    hahax.
    it's been awhile now.
    everything seems to have happened in a flash since my last entry.
    suddenly i felt like im a little girl again.
    suddenly im off to chalet.
    suddenly im back from chalet.
    suddenly i faced disappointment in the eye.
    suddenly im confused.
    suddenly i am fighting a lost battle.
    suddenly i feel as if i might as well just die.
    and suddenly im sitting here on my chair typing.

    george,
    i am fully aware that you are very very upset.
    but i am in as much agony as you are.
    i have never felt such pain in my life as i do right now.
    right now, after having that conversation with you.
    what exactly do you want from me?
    on one hand you keep saying that you do not want anything.
    but on the other you're pushing me to the limits.
    and it is hurting like mad.
    it hurts like mad.
    dont ask me why must we be friends.
    dont tell me you want to die.
    dont keep saying that.
    the guilt is torturing me.
    stop doing this to me.
    please stop.
    please.
    i am at fault.
    i am to blame.
    i dont know how it feels to be at your end.
    i didnt spare a thought for how you feel.
    i am so so sorry.
    i should never never never had appeared before you.
    i am very sorry.

    someone freaking take my life right now.

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;