<body> Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

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Photobucket Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

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    Friday, May 09, 2008


    god.
    it's that feeling again.
    the same one i've been feeling every other day out of late.
    the same one that got me all out of sorts.
    god.
    >.<

    and i feel so very freaking facade-ish lately.
    i've got to laugh when i actually feel like crying.
    i've got to smile when i actually feel like sulking.
    i've got to put on a brave front when i actually feel all weak.
    i've got to walk when i actually feel like stopping.
    i've got to pretend not to catch your gaze when i actually am.
    i've got to pretend to have left you behind when i actually can't.
    i've got to pretend that it doesn't matter when it actually does.
    i've got to pretend that i don't love you when i actually do...
    man...
    i suppose i should be glad it's the weekend again.
    when i need not put on stupid masks and say im okay.



    anyways,
    today's not too bad i suppose.
    started off with bio lecture.
    and im so in focus.
    for once i managed to concentrate all throughout one chapter luhh.
    alina loves enzymes lol.
    -.-"
    and yeahh pc.
    did nothing more than inclined pullups and shuttlerun lol.
    considered the slack-iest of all pc lessons already luhh. >.<
    no running round the track lorr.
    gosh.
    can you imagine.
    ohh ohh.
    and i had my chem test today.
    is a load off me shoulders. >.<
    and now i fear for my gsc test next wednesday.
    and the funny thing is that the teacher actually told the class the title of the essay to be written for the test lol. -.-"
    ZZZZZ...
    andand.
    my focus level sunk to the basement during maths tutorial.
    it's another 1.5 hours ehh.
    but i really did try to concentrate luhh.
    then i ran alittle off track till im no longer in the track already.
    i was somewhere else playing hangman with olivia lol.
    restlessness was in the air and i can't help not crapping luhh.
    gosh. >.<
    im sorry luhh. >.<
    and the teacher's seriously very nice and patient lol.
    hao lahh.
    i will do my all to concentrate the next lesson. >.<
    and i almost fell asleep in yoga lol.
    anyway the best of yoga lesson is the opportunity to sleep lol.
    and i think it's probably the only part of yoga i can relate to. -.-"

    ohh and ade,
    thankyou for spending time with me afterschool ehh. ^^
    <333

    hehex.
    and elson's coming to fetch me from school this coming monday. ^^
    i was like in msn andthen...
    elson: hihi.
    alina: hello.
    elson: we very long never see le horr.
    alina: yeahh. miss me bahh.
    elson: not really.
    alina: bleahx. >.<
    elson: hmmm. i come meet you after school someday?
    alina: really arr?
    elson: ya larhh. monday?
    alina: i end at 5 lehh.
    elson: can can. i end at 4. i come school find you?
    alina: yay! love you!
    hahax.
    that's something to look forward to. ^^

    ohh.
    and royston,
    i hope i don't catch you again in jp tomorrow lol.
    i've been seeing him in jp with his girl for three consecutive weeks already norr.
    don't you have other places to bring your girl ehh. >.<
    anyways, thankyou for your message nahh. ^^

    hao luhh.
    shall divert myself to chemistry tutorial now and probably gp newspaper article too.
    *yawns yawns*
    tatas people.
    sweetdreams and nitenite ^^
    love you

    -With All My Heart, Alina ;