Underneath The Smile, The Pain Resides

THE GIRL

Arrived a gemini with a great deal of divided personalities. For one thing, I can laugh at one moment and be upset the next. But Im not the hardest person to get along with, certainly. I came to be me on 10th June 1991. Spent the last nighteen years of my life in attempts to piece myself together, and is still desperately trying. Family and friends are my life. At least that's the way it is till a boyfriend comes along XD Anyway, icecream's my addiction, my medicine, my must-have. Now you know how to make me happy. I dont need expensive gifts I just want a true heart. I'm majorly affected by the people around me. Can't say if it's a blessing or a curse, 'cause the little things people do can either make my day or simply make it worse. Just give me a smile, and I'll return one to you^^

KimJaeJoong: My Prince, MY Love, MY JAEBABY

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Saturday, May 03, 2008

alrighty.
i ought to post yesterday.
but apparently i was lazy lol
and sleepy too.
i don't really remember what happened after falling asleep on my desk last night.
but i think i did wake up to brush my teeth though.
hahax.
anyways,
my friday felt longer than usual.
ohh ohh.
and i can finally focus well in bio lecture hahax.
'cause im usually in the "about to shut off" mode luhh.
im trying hard already norr. >.<
andthen there's pc.
two rounds warmup.
and did some exercises.
one of them was to skip like some little girl would when she goes around collecting flowers.
the sort of really happy skip that you'll probably see in cartoons lol. -.-"
hahax.
and it was particularly funny when the teacher demonstrated it luhh.
i think we went laughing like siao. -.-"
ooh.
and we played some cling-cling game siax.
lol.
and the girls made me so paisehh luhh.
'cause each of us has got to get a partner lol.
then the teacher was like finding one nahh.
and the girls like went "alina"-ing -.-"
ohman.
i would have buried myself in some burrow if i had found one.
and it went even worse when i had to chase after him nahh.
a blackhole might as well open and suck me in. -.-"
gosh...
anyways,
it was very tiring nahh.
especially with the weather luhh.
*faints*

ohh.
and i felt difficulty in concentrating during chem tutorial afterthat.
ais.
restlessness was one thing nahh.
hmmm.
nevermind lol.
and i lost all concentration in maths tutorial.
went crapping with olivia
and thinking about food lol.
i was dreaming about noodles siax.
even asked olivia to draw me one lahh.
can imagine how freaking hungry i was.
then olivia went talking about durians hahs.
i was super hungry luhh.
didn't eat a thing after pc ehh.
and then maths tutorial extended till 2.25 afterwhich jiu yoga.
wahh.
by the time it ended,
i was not at all hungry already. >.<
-.-"

ohh.
and i left school soon after ade and olivia left.
but wanted to wait for buddy nahh.
so went back again lol.
then it was already six when i returned.
waited for 1.5 hours.
george accompanied me luhh.
you didn't have to, really.
but still, thankyous ehh.
hmmm.
i think it was 7.30 when buddy ended lol.
they walked me to the busstop.
and talked to buddy till my very crowded bus came.
and in the bus i had this sudden rush of feelings.
felt low.
felt sorry.
the feelings were very real.
like i could see them already.
the ride was longer than usual.
and when i finally alighted it was 8 something.
saw pengyang at the busstop anyways.
didn't notice him till he waved lol.
and i sort of didn't want to go home luhh.
so went to the bench below my house.
sat there watching some kids play.
and very unexpectedly andy called me lol.

me: wei. (hello)
andy: oi. where're you?
me: coming home le luhh.
(walks to lift)
andy: faster lahh. so late already.
me: k luhh. you can open the door le nahh.
andy: huhh? what you say?
me: open door lahh.
(exits lift)
andy: orhh.
(hangs up)
lol.
the call's usually from my mum de.
but it feels nicer when andy calls.
then when i came home alicia even wanted to help take my bag into the room lol.
hmmm.
it feels good being pampered once in a while.
and i had dinner at 9 plus.
intended to clear some of the workload afterthat lol.
but i ended up sleeping on the desk instead. >.<
and that marks the end of my friday...
ais.
recently it's like living life one day at a time.
and that looking forward is a yesterday thing.
i don't like this feeling...

-With All My Heart, Alina ;